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WOOHOO!!! today i met one of my goals. i walked 1 mile without stopping! i'm so excited that i did this. now i have to add a new goal tho-to walk 2 miles without stopping!

it's friday and it's weigh in day!!! this morning i weighed in at 335! that's 3 more pounds since monday! this week has been harder for me exercise wise. i've pushed myself a little bit harder and have therefore been more tired. but, it was definately worth it to see those 3 pounds go bye bye!

weighed in this morning at 338! that's 4lbs since friday night!

we went out to eat a couple times this weekend. went to panera bread on friday. LOVE that place! it's all organic and they give you complete nutritional info. i was able to pick out what i wanted and put it into fitday before we even went there that night.

me and hubby were talking as we left the restaurant that night about how we didn't feel stuffed. that is one thing that has changed since i changed my eating that i love. i no longer eat until i feel so stuffed i cannot move. we used to go out to eat and walk out so stuffed i would whine if he mentioned going somewhere after we ate. i would be so stuffed that walking would make me feel like i'm gonna puke. now i feel great when i'm done eating and it feels good to walk!

i went to the store last night and bought a new scale. i've lost 2 more lbs!

if anyone is interested, i'm putting the link for my fitday profile here. feel free to tell me if you see i'm doing anything majorly wrong!

http://www.fitday.com/WebFit/PublicJournals.html?Owner=dolphin%5Fdreams

well, i did good yesterday. even tho i was upset i didn't binge. stuck to the diet guidelines i'm trying to meet for now. i had left a msg for my mom telling her all about the insurance stuff and being upset. she called me and the first thing she said was "put the fork down". lol it was good to be able to say i hadn't eaten anything i shouldn't just because i was upset. i don't really feel like i've been an emotional eater anyway. i'm more of a bored eater and night time tends to be my weakest time.

i just got off the phone with the insurance compay. i called to find out if our plan covered the nutritionist visits etc and to see if it would cover me seeing a nut pre - surgery to help me loose the 50lbs i need to loose. not only did i find out that the nutritionist isn't covered, but i also found out the dr is not a PPO participating provider with my insurance. that means that there is a minimum out of pocket of $3300 + $500 for the nutritionist if i do the surgery.
we just don't have that kind of money. so i'm pretty much screwed. not much of a possibilty i can have the surgery with Dr B now. and i don't want a different surgeon. i trust Dr B. he has the best stats in the state.

i feel like just giving up...............

i went in for my consultation with Dr Bauman friday. i had been trying the last few weeks to wrap my mind around this surgery (RNY). i had went from wanting to cancel the apt several times, to talking myself into keeping the apt because i NEED this surgery. however, by the end of the video i had to watch at my consultation i came to the conclusion that i just can't go thru with RNY. the whole idea of rearranging my insides BOTHERS me. i mean REALLY bothers me. i don't really know why. but, it makes me uncomfortable enough that i don't think i could go thru with it. so i decided to do lap band instead. in order to do that tho, i need to loose 50lbs so that the insurance will cover it. today i need to make a ton of phone calls. first to the insurance to find out how my coverage works for nutritionist and psych eval. then i need to start calling to make apts for all the tests i need done before surgery.