dottie, i can relate to you!!! i'm a single mom of a wonderful 8 year old, and sometimes at night when she is sleeping i wonder what it would be like for her if something happened to me.. i wonder if she would still have lots of laughter in her life, or if she would dream of me when she's sleeping... i could go on and on, but the reality is that right now she's probibly dreaming of her mommy playing soccer with her, or going sledding....sigh... so this is why i've decided to have my surgery... goodluck to you and remember God has a plan for all of us... God Bless