Pastor di
Well I got it done! June 21, 2008
Jun 20, 2008
To everybody out there that wanted me to update my profile, I did. It does not sit well but to begin at the beginning you have to start at MY STORY after that you need to come up top and go down, I think it is crazy but at least you will finally know about my journey and struggle.
Lots of love to ya!
The Rest of the Story
Jun 20, 2008
November 18,2005
Well Praise the Lord everybody! Everybody ought to Praise the Lord! God is so good. I cannot thank him enough for all his goodness, and his mercy, and oh my his wonderful kindness toward me. I have been through the fire and I just keep running so I can see what the end is going to be. Praise God.
I have been so busy lately. For the last 12 days I am some of the other sisters on BAF have dedicated ourselves to praying for others, it was to be 7 days. Many kept the 7 day commitment but I felt compelled to continue on. There are many many people needing breakthroughs right now and I believe that God has given me a mandate to pray and I am believing God for some awesome events. I have gotten so wonderful testimonies about the goodness of the Lord but I know there is so much more to come. I have looking for God to show up and show out in the Life of His people.
One good thing about this prayer train. It has taken the focus of me and my little needs and each and everyday God has seen fit to send what I need, even before I needed it. I call that provision. Praise the Lord. I wish I could type in tongues. Hallelujah!!!! Glory to God in the Highest. When I think back on the night that the Lord put the in my heart, I was having such an awful day that I was contemplating sinning some dreadful some with an impact that would actually effect me. God is so good, eventhough I thought of 3 things I could do, nothing was readily available to me and it was funny. Talking about God providing a way to escape. He did cause I could not find the sins to do. LOL
I am so thankful for the wonderful sisterS who have been on the board praying with me and for the needs of God's people they have been an inspiration to me. I plan to give them a shout out. God bless them and keep them.
Well in a few days it will be a year so I plan on going to my surgeon's office on Monday and weigh so I can have an official weight for me year out. I am just about half we there. People look at me and tell me I have done well. Shoot they think this is it for me. I am different I now enjoy getting dress and changing my hairstyles. It's funny without trying, I step onto the floor and everybody is looking and I can feel the energy in the room and I watch how excited everybody gets, when I have a new hairstyle or color, or outfit. lipstick whatever. These people watch me every move. I use to dread coming in here. They paid me attention then, just in a very different way. They were interested in my wisdom then, now they want the wisdom and they want to see what I am about. I find it amusing because I am just at the weight that most people being thinking about weight loss surgery. I am at a weight were most people feel like people are seeing them in a negative way. I guess because every body knows where I come from they give me props. It won't be long before they will see and even better me. I cannot weight. Some say they actually notice it quite often from week to week. It is a great feeling when someone tell you, especially the men that you look good and every week they can see just a little bit more. I was a mazed at the comments the men in my office have made to me and do make to me each day. They do not find any problems in communicating to me over the course of the last 3 months since returning to work that they see how much I have change in that time. I cannot see anything. I love it though. It makes me feel good to hear that I look so much younger, that my face is thin , that I look hot!! Now that is cute to me I look hot at my age and size and these are young boys to me. They are sweet for making an almost middle aged woman feel good. I find it interesting that they don't mind being around me and talking with me.
Life is good and I can say getting better. I have several projects going on and if all goes well it won't be long before I will be out of the fire.
I have all my children at home with me and believe it or not things are not bad at all. We are cohabitating in our tiny house well together all 8 of us and the 1 bathroom. Only God, I tell you only God. Well I pray for all who read this post that God will meet your every need. I pray your success in every area of your life and may God richly bless you is my prayer.
di
December 16,2005
Praise God from whom all blessings flow. Time is flying by. It seems like yesterday that I posted and it has been a month already. God has been good to me and I thank him for his love and his kindness that he has shown me. I have been going through so many things lately. God has delivered me from day to day. I am still under the mandate to pray for my family and friends and for the people of God at large. It has been a blessing for me. I see God constantly blessing me over and over again.
I know that the enemy is trying to stand in the way of my blessings but I know God to be a deliverer and all this delay is just that a delay. I will not be hindered any longer I will see this through.
di
December 28,2005
Great is the Lord and Greatly to be Praise! I give glory and honor to God Almighty and I thank and praise him daily for all of his benefits. God has been good to me this year. Every year of my life actually, he has kept me and I thank him. I thank him for the milestones that I have made this year. I thank him for the weight loss and the continued weightloss. I thank him for the friendships I have made the discoveries that I have made. I am grateful for every hurdle I have crossed over. I thank him for making a way for me. It has been a bumpy road most of the year but it has been well worth it.
I thank God that I am able to walk and breathe and not be in pain. I thank him that so many things I can do for myself now that I have not been able to do in years. I thank him that my body changed and is changing, but not only my body, but my mind changed. I can do all things through Christ that strenghtens me. I have a new mind. Let this mind be in you that is in Christ Jesus. You say, your a preacher and you are just getting this, No. I am just getting it on a whole new level. I see differently, I feel differently. I believe that God was moving me, not from level to level, but quantum leaps from dimension to dimension. I feel awesome about where God is taking me and inspite of myself. I have had some interesting times this years some ups and downs but all in all it has been good.
Financially I have not been able to keep up, I was doing well and it going okay but things begin to plummet. I will not complain but things are looking up. I know that they are about to get better and better. I am sitting here now waiting to close on a loan where I refinance my house. This will give me an opportunity to fix up the house, pay off some debts, get some things we need and put up money to start up a business. The year of 2006 I plan to start a business, I am planning to get some other things off the ground. I believe that 12 years of hopes and dreams are about to become a reality and that thought in itself is awesome to me.
I have been through some trauma this year and I am sure that I will again in the coming year but I am learning to take everything that comes as it comes. God is good.
I have 2 angelettes this year. Lisa Dannielle my Cali girl, I am pray for her. She has really gone through some things. I am praying for Evangelist Stanley On a Glory CLoud she is doing very well. A woman of faith, I know she is going to be alright she has got a work to do.
I am grateful for my Angel Cookie Luscious, Hope. She is my hope and I thank God everyday for her support her prayers her calls and her kindness and generocity. I am looking forward to a day not very far away to be a blessing to her. She has always been there for anyone she could and I am praying that she will do well and reap a great harvest because she has sown so much in so many lives and I still think she should be a weightloss coach she gives out so much valuable info to so many she should make a career out of it.
I am thank for to my sister Madame Rodriguez she is my kindred sister I love her to life. She is such a good exhorter and I have gathered so much strength from her. I love her and look so forward to spending a minute with her in DC.
My sister, Sister Georgi, I know God sent her to me and Stacy Richardson who I need to check on. These two sisters are so anointed they have blessed my soul I tell you the truth. I pray God continue to bless and keep them and prosper them in all they do.
I have been blessed by Frenchy, High Maintainence, Ms Pisces, Afro Queen, just to name a few. I love me some Free Butterfly thats my friend Allison what an awesome strong soldier, I love her for her faith and strength, God has given me some new buddies, Ms April, I love that girl because she is April, there Pauline, tx queenbee and Christal M and David her hubby. June Flowers, Cynsational my Houston divA. God blessed me so many more Total Package is a sweetheart I thank God for her wanted to sow into my life the same with Leslie Princess Phatgirl, I am praying that God blesses her with the desires of her heart. My girl Tee, Tee she is a giver to her heart God bless her. I have had the pleasure of gleening from so many others Val, my girl Vanessa what a woman of character. All of these people and so many more that I have not mentioned because there names escape me Jackie in Alabama, and too many more have blessed me or have honored me by sharing there prayer request with me. I am looking so very forward to meeting many in DC and as God crosses our paths. It has been a terrific year and it only gets better from here.
Until next time, HAVE A WONDERFUL AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR.
di
January 25, 2006
Shame on me. The month is almost over and I never said Happy New Year, shoot I thought I had. Time flies when you are losing weight, gaining a life, and enjoying the abundance only God gives. I greet you all in the name of my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. I give all glory, honor, and praise to God. My what an awesome God we serve, shoot I can't speak for anybody, I serve. I serve an awesome God.
I thank God for working out my finances and allowing me the opportunity to pay off my bills. Lord Jesus, my God, I thank him for allowing me to straighten out my utility bill which has been dragging on for a long time. I thank him for allowing me to throw away some stuff and replace them with new things. I thank him for my Dodge Durango, for Candisse's Cadillac and for the Intrigue in the shop and Chris will have it. I thank God that there will be no reason for my children to make any excuses about their situation. I am going to see what they do now. I thank God for freeing me and my time from doing this or that for them. I am thankful.
2006 is the year of manifestations. I have already seen a glimpse of the Glory of God in this year and my friend Yolanda said that Bishop Jakes has been talking about this year being a year of blessing, I cannot remember her exact word but what she said was this whatever you are believing for you might as well receive it because he is opening doors left and right.
I am believing God for my husband, the priest of my home, Johnny Ray McGinnis to be home by the end of March 2006. I am believing God that whatever it takes, whatever has to be moved, changed, overriden be done, so he can come home. I am believing God that God opens up a door for Johnny to tell his story of confinement for 19 years and not guilty. I am believing God that he fines his calling and walks there in.
I am also believing God that my two adult children with be blessing with permanent employment that they both like and can keep and move into their own houses or apartments and be able to support their families without any problems. I am believing God that their children will continue to be blessed and I am also believing God for my parents and grandparents health and wellbeing and all will be well with them. I pray for Aunts uncles cousins brothers and sisters and all those who don't know Jesus will come to know him.
I am so looking forward to the M&G in D.C. I believe I am going to have a good time. Until next time. Many blessings to those who read.
March 8, 2006
My goodness, I cannot believe that I did not update anything in the month of February. OOps I forgot February was a roller coaster ride. It was fun, scary, full of dips and dives, swings and curves and when it topped I was glad to get off.
The month started with me stressing about the plane ride. My goodness I have not been on a plane in 20 years. The bigger I got I knew it was impossible, it was hard for me then. Well, I prayed and I went through the trial and I came out triumphant. Granted it, it is what it is, it is not the grandiest thing. By far it was not the most comfortable sitting but, I managed not to embarrass myself and I was able to buckle my seatbelt without the extension. That was wonderful.
I arrived in D.C. and Madame picked me up at the airport. I was so glad to had finally met her. She is a remarkable woman and I love her dearly. We went by her home and picked up a few things and off to the hotel. I was so glad to get out of my clothes. Friday night festivities was so good. I had a great time and I met up with Annette and Paul before the meet and greet and I enjoyed the time I spent with them. I had a great time. I met so many people and each one of them are special to me. I thank God for every one of them that crossed my path. I will always treasure them.
The trip to D.C. did something good for my mind and my heart. I had the best time. It has been years since I had that much fun. (I don't get out much). I was treated with so much respect and it was a wonderful experience. I also was impressed with the hostesses. Women of excellence, with excellent spirits. They all hold a special place in my heart. I will forever be grateful to them.
I also took up with Annette, and Raynese Brown Sugar, an awesome woman to me. I love her. Brighteyes, Gbetta's sister is a wonderful woman I fell in love with her wonderful caring spirit immediately.
My best moments was hanging out with Frenchy, Stacy and Hope riding through the raining and clowning to the max, the skating rink was fun, and being with the same group plus Irene and Gbetta was a treat for dinner. I laughed and clowned so much. The bible says laughter is like a medicine. It was good for me and I know that my craziness and Frenchy's craziness is sheer lunacy. (lol) I am still laughing at some of the stuff we shared. Great fun, great time great people.
I cannot wait for the next event. It will be awesome.
Now here is the kicker. The days leading up to departure day I was so afraid that something terrible was going to happen and I would have to cancel like all the other times. Everytime my phone would ring, I was afraid that my dad was calling to tell me my mom past away. I would beat myself up for it everytime for having such thoughts. Finally, I prayed Lord I don't mean to be selfish, but I never get to go anywhere, Please don't let nothing happen to my mom until this is over. Well, Sunday afternoon, we all parted out company. I went back to my Hotel looking forward to hanging out 2 more days with my girls. I was making all kinds of plans. I finally call my dad and he has been sick in bed for 3 days. He then tells me that he went to see my mom and she was asleep and they had been watching her because they had put a feeding tube in earlier in the week. She was no longer able to swallow. We talk, he asked me when I would be home and we hung up. I went to sleep and I was awaken by a fire alarm. I got dressed and went outside. I came back in and tried to watch some Tv. I had a message from my dad and he was crying that they rushed my mom to the hospital and she was not doing good at all. I was in awe. I was speechless, I was thinking Oh My God, You love me so much that you allowed me to get here and finish the activities and wow how you answered my prayer.
I called to change my flight. I ran back to Dallas she was critical. All I could do was prepare myself for what I had seen 2 years prior. I get home and starving, check on my Dad tell him I will be there shortly, my brother was in the air as well coming from Ohio. I decide to get a bite to eat at a Mexcan restaurant by the hospital as soon as I sit down my dad is crying in the phone saying it don't look good. I leave I get there he grabs me and cries, my mom is lying there on life support with 9 or so tubes coming out of her. All I could think was get her off this stuff. I held my peace. My brother came and he looked so sad, he was very close to my mom.
We sat around for hours and learned of what was happening to her and I knew it was a matter of time.
The next day we all met and my dad said he had prayed and he wanted to allow her to go in peace and to get off all the machines, we all agreed and I was so happy. The doctors told us she would be dead in 10 minutes that she was in a coma. My mom lived 8 more days on her own with out any help. Everyday she looked better and better, her skin began to glow. Her face began to shine. She looked like a picture of health. I think it may have given my brother false hope. I just think that God was getting her ready for her departure. My mom was a diva in her own right and she loved to look good and when she left she did look good. Even when they prepared her for the funeral she looked good. No one would have known that she had been so sick and a few days earlier was swollen and full of tubes. My mothers suffering was over and I was happy for her.
Well I ran around for one week seeing about dad, my brother danny, I was a tired sister. Then it was funeral plans, insurance, money, calling people. wow that can take a toll on your mind. I thank God for my brothers and sister on the BAF the really carried me through this whole ordeal. I have never felt so much love nor have I ever been so encouraged in all my life. I am indebted to you all. Thank you so much for your love, monetary support and adoration. God bless you.
Then after the funeral, after the relatives, back to work, back to life, I met a man..... I met a man that help me change my life. He gave me insight into me. Funny, he was battling a drug addiction and I helped him see his way clear, but Oh my Lord, my way became clear also. I thank God for our paths crossing, so for 2 weeks I was running around with him gleaning from his wealth of knowledge, you never know who your next blessing is coming from.
Our time came to and end he caught a train back to his family in Maryland. One more treasure in the Maryland D.C. area. Too many reasons to keep up with that place and now my Angel has relocated their too. I cannot believe it. How wonderful.
I was exhausted and I knew it would be a matter of time before my body would just shut down. Well, I was not sleeping and I should not admit it but I was not doing anything else I should be doing so I was expecting a meltdown or a shutdown. I shut way down. Sunday morning I got off work sleepy as I could be. I went home to finally wash, had been running since the begin of Feb. One month. I got my grandbaby's things together for school, I have not been to happy with my home life, my 2 adult kids to say the least especially my daughter. Pray for her. Lord have mercy, I had decided to just go to a hotel for a couple of days to get myself rested and relaxed. I did not because I did not have all my stuff together, I went to see my husband, came back parked my truck in the driveway and listened to a series of CD's from Bishop Jakes and fell asleep. I woke up shouting about the goodness of God and drug myself into the house. I fell asleep and slept alnight thank you Jesus. I woke up and got a few things done and I feel like I am coming back to myself. I got my vitamins in and I guess because of all the stress I have endured I am back on blood pressure meds. I am going to take them and hopefully within a month or so I will not need them. I have a pretty mild one.
Well I am so bad about updating and announcing things I have four angelettes, My first was Lisa Danielle, out of Cali, On a Glory Cloud, out of Illnois, Denise W 4eva Unique from Dallas and my newest angelette is from Houston but live here in Dallas and that is Steph B. she is a sweetie. I have to give props to Miss Rhonda she call me and came to my mom's wake and hand delivered flowers and a card from BAF enclosed was money. Praise the Lord for her. Also, For Pauline aka Texas Queenbee she is my girl.
I want to thank MS Lena for reading my profile, you are so sweet, well I am signing off until next time be blessed.
di
April 13, 2006
Praise God from whom all blessing flow. It is 3:35 cental time. I am at work and decided I needed to take the time to post a little. Time flies when you are having funny. (lol)
As always I make my excuse for not posting. No time. I think the real truth of the matter is I really don't think about it. BAF is not as important to me as it was. At least when I say that, I'm really trying to say, although I love my friends and everybody there, during weightloss you begin living again and things changed, you just don't have the same time. I am busier than I have ever been. So now is a great time to spend updating.
Well I have been to hell and back, I seem to always live to tell about it praise God. Did I say God is good to me in spite of me. Lord I thank you. I have lost and gained 20lbs for the past 2 months. I am really dedicating myself to changing and adapting the behavior I had, the one that was working for me. I know it is possible, so I have got to get with it.
Well beside running around cking on my dad, cking on my birth mother real mother I have been busy. First I have been trying to tackle some remodeling jobs with my bath and kitchen. My house is a mess and I have be stressing about it. I cannot complain, I also have not been satisfied with the productiveness of my children and their habits around the house. They need to get to work or scool. It has been hard, with my husband tripping about my distance in visiting and writing, work some serious overtime on my job, we are way too short staffed right now. To top that off, I enrolled in school full time Massage Therapy. I start friday and it is going to be hard staying up all day and all night. I can do it. Much love to all those who read. I am sleepy and I will continue at another time.
di
May 6, 2006
I give glory and honor to the Lord. I am thankful for every blessing. Things have been crazy for me. Trying to work and go to school is no joke, and at my age, what was I thinking? I have successfully completed 3 weeks of schooling 5 more to go and my grades are good by I am just not confident yet.
I have been playing with the same 20lb for a month or so. I have had a lot of swelling thus the weight gain. Not to mention not keeping up with the vitamins and foods, etc. Leaving on 2 to 3 hours of sleep plus 10 and 15 min naps is crazy it is pure lunancy my prayer is that all this sacrifice does not bite me in the butt.
I am doing everything in my power to get organized and focused and to get my food and vits under control. I know the water weigth will be fine once I am able to sleep. Eventhough I have no time I must make better use of the time I have and by golly I have got to stop lying to myself about the exercise. I have not done anything worth anything yet. It is still a goal. I see a few opportunities to do the gym. Hopefully,Sunday Monday and Tuesday, I will get there if only for 30 min. Maybe Friday morning after work and Saturday And Sunday morning this next week.
I have got a lot of things in my heart and my mind. I believe this is the season of blessing, the season of vision coming forth. I just want to be successful at whatever the Lord sends my way. It looks like the Chigago Meet N Greet is out of my vision. That weekend is the anniversary of our church. I believe that I have got a busy project ahead of me.
I would like to take this opportunity to let everyone reading that I wish you the best on your journey, I pray you get out of it what you expect to and what you put into it. I pray for your success. God bless you and thanks for reading.
di
July 24, 2006
How horrible, I have not had time to update my profile in a while. First I want to congratulate all the candidates for surgeries God's blessing to you on your journey. I say Hooray to all that are being successful in their journey. I want to say to those like me that are struggling with doing right, keeping up with things are being just plain trifling, don't beat yourself up so bad that you never get back up. Just get up dust yourself off and find a place to start over. Shoot we went through too much to just quit. It ain;t over to the skinny woman sings or should I say the healthy one does.
It has been a crazy time in my life. I jumped up in April and decided to go to Massage School, I finished my class but still working on my internship. I started a new advance class to and am learning a heck of a lot. My problem is big but doable. I need to finish paying for school so I can go take my test to get my license. I am sure that I will do it. I just pray that it be timely. All of a sudden I am doing things I only think about doing and I am broke as a joke but my future looks very bright to me. I am thankful to the Lord for all his benefits. Glory to God.
I have big plans for my massage therapy business, I have some other things I need to do and I believe God is going to open the door for each of them. Once I finish this class I am taking a tax test and some baking classes. I got ideas and I believe I am about to do several things I want to do. First things first.
I have got to get rid of my grown kids and their families and that is looking more and more promising everyday. I have been worried sick about my daughter and her working but shoot I am not worrying any more she is going to have to really go through some stuff to rise up out of her situation and the very last thing I am going to do for her is when she moves which is looking like housing is going to place her somewhere, I am writing her a letter and reminding her who she is and what she can accomplish. After that I am putting that situation in her and the Lord's hands to handle. My son I believe will get up and do for himself real soon.
My concentration will be with what I can do for myself and caring for my husband until he is able to care for me.
Moving on...... I had gotten way way off track with everything. I seemed to have taken leave of my senses and became some what wreckless with my health, I was eating anything and everything, I thank God that I could not eat all of anything or as much I use to, because I would have gained a considerable about of weight. I can say that I have been teetering with the same 20lbs for a couple of months now, I knew that is was all water weight gain. I have been under considerable stress getting no sleep and understand how important sleep and rest is to weight loss. I keep swelling and up and could not get rid of the water, I got several days of rest and watch the 20 lbs leave in a matter of days less than a week only to go back to my normal schedule and have the pounds back up in the same amount of time. I have not gained in weight since my last doctor weigh in, but i really could not say that I had lost any. I think I had lost about 10lbs since I visited my doctor I think in February, I have not been back was due back in April and I missed my appointment and felt like my doctor was going to read me the riot act I have not been back. Now that I am through being stupid about my weight and everything else in my life. I plan to take my family on a mini trip this weekend and then when I come back, I am going to make appoints for everything, I have been putting off. I am so ashamed.
I really had to think things through and get myself together, I now have 3 days off, even though I go to the clinic on Fridays and Saturday. I get good sleep and I rest pretty good, still tossing and turning but when I get up I am good to go so I think that is just the way I am. I have really been thinking about my body, how is works, what I can do to make it better. The classes I take help me to think this way. I know I want to have an upper body lift so it is now goal setting time. Time to figure out the how and the whens time to get the weight off, maintain, find a surgeon I like that can do the procedure I want and find out what it cost and weigh options. I have so many things to consider. So as soon as I get the kids out of the way then I am going to take a few days for my self so I can get things outlined. I enjoy my own company and I really know who to treat myself good.
I am back, I am back in spirit, I am back physically mentally and emotionally committed to getting myself in the best possible shape I can be. I am so grateful to the Lord for all his wonderful benefits he has certainly been good to me and until next time you be blessed.
di
09/27/2006
Blessed be the name of the Lord Most High. It is indeed a blessing and a privilege to come to this page today. I have been really going through a varity of situations lately and I am grateful to God for all his benefits.
Alot has happen this year as I reflect up to now. I started this year off refinancing my house and even though my current situation is not where it should be, I do not regret one moment of my blessing, I accomplished alot, I bought a lot and I blessed alot.
I just believe that it won't be long before my real harvest will come in. I need to do somethings and I believe they are about to come to past. I have had a wonderful year, I got to see and meet so many people who have blessed my life and we have kept in contact. I have gotten to take a few trips and particpate in things I could not have done a few years ago.
I am a busy person. I like that. I use to be just a busy thinking person, but now I can do the things I think about.
I have been a little flustered but things make a lot of sense to me now. I have been on the run since the beginning of the year. I have been trying to work, trying to help my children, support my husband, check on my parents, bless my grandchildren, counsel my friends, I have had a busy year but I am still not where I should be.
I can say that I have had a busy year. I finish massage school, I finish 100 hours of advance classes, I can do another 100 hours and I can be nationally certified. I had a great time and loved every pain wrenching moment of it. Now I am Cake decorating I just received a certificate for the 1st course, I start course 2 Monday and I am loving it. I have wanted to do this since I was a young woman. I am enrolled in Tax School right now so I have 18
more session to complete it. I have decided that I will do all I can while I can to open as many stream for income as I can. I am working on a cookbook, I am working on getting a building for ministry and have a few other things to do. I am excited about God's blessings. Thank you Jesus!
Now lets talk about weight loss I have gone from appx 550lbs to 300lbs and it really depends on what day and where I way. I have been tossing and turning with the same 20lbs for months and SUnday. I am holding fluid from all the months of working going to school and not resting, no add the stress of being behind in builds sick of my children and my husbands situation and compound all kinds of junk like menopause hormone craziness. I just want to take it out on those in my way. I started internalizing everything so I would not rain on everybody else parade and to top it off, people don't really get me or take me serious, it is all about them and what I can offer them and I know that. So internalizing it what I began to do and boy did it do a number on my stomach. I have the loudness stomach sounds like a clogged drain being drained and the gas the waste material is awful and then the stomach cramps. I though to every possible thing wrong with me and I started to freak but deep inside I new it was stress related because I could see how different I felt when I heard things that upset me . My surgeon told me to get back to basics of eating my protein 5 to 6 times a day, exercising by walking 30mins of the day and drinking my fluids and taking my vitamins. He is right and there is no excuse because life does go on everyday in everyway and if you have to do something for yourself it has got to become normal to you like waking up, going to the bathroom, bathings, brushing your teeth, these things we do every day regardless of what happens in the day so why allow circumstances and situations keep you from doing the things that keep you healthy. He is so right. I must make these things habits, it was so easy when I was at home not working, but shoot it has been almost 2 years and I have screwing up for almost a year and the result have been no weight loss. So decided that I must get at least 100lbs off me . I need to get to 200 or 180 before I can have surgery because I believe looking at myself with all this skin on my arms hanging from my back my butt my belling and my thighs that I need to have a total body lift and I need to get my exercise together because it has been stated and proven that reconstructive surgery is at it's when your body is at it's best. I need to get it in gear. I have a good heart and good intentions, i have promised myself time and time again to get these things done and I am actually giving myself until December to get everything in order where by the end of decided I want to say that I actually started all this and have kept it up for 30 days. It has been proven that it takes 21 days to make a thing a habit. I need to start some good habits and I will.
I am to get a meet and greet together for October and maybe a nice Christmas Party to end the year together. I have great intentions I just go to do it. I have so much else on my mind and I am somewhat distracted since I am at work, which means I will be posting again real soon.
I always think my profile is boring but to all those who read I hope you find something you can relate too and something that will bless you. I pray that you be healed everywhere you hurt and you be blessed every where you go. Boring wonderful words from my friend Nia, I go as I came in Peace!
Be blessed
di
June 21, 2008 12:00am
I should be ashamed of myself cause it has been almost 2 years since I last posted. I guess I have been living life. The truth is I was to lazy to copy and paste my blog and too lazy to start a new one.
I got to thinking about all the people who probably click on my name and don't find anything and say well hell.
Quick update. I have not lost any weight since 2006 I am still 300lbs. The good thing about that is I actually went 2 years without weight gain or putting on something and it was too little. So I have to be grateful for that.
I must admit several things. I have not done the same things that I was doing to lose the weight. I suggest don't ever let anybody or anything make you lose your perspective or focus.
I becames sporadic with my vitamins and water, never consistently exercised and picked up some of my bad habits again.
What is my plan, to drop the bad habits, take my vitamins consistently, drink the water. And most important for me to see result get the exercise off. I am willing to bet that if I would be consistent with my plan I could lose 50 to 75lbs by Christmas maybe more. Wishful thinking I don't think so I believe it is doable but will I do it!
I have got to. I need a panniculetomy really bad. I need everything else but this the worst because my belly flab is pulling me forward.
I had to have my gallbladder removed last September and a hernia repair. Still have problems when I eat to greasy food. I am careful because running to the bath room ain't my bag after every meal.
I have gone through a lot over the past 4 years since I came to BAF, meet some wonderful people and made some great friends. I am blessed for it.
It has been crazy on the board lately but like I tell everybody, come for what you come for and do what you do, don't let anybody dissuade you from getting what you need or want.
I am looking forward to the meet and greet next week. I am in a financial bind right now, but I am still believing that God is going to open a door for me and let me go. I need the long drive to clear my head, hear from God. I have needs to go to Georgia and see my peeps, I believe somebody their needs a touch from the Lord.
Since I last posted. I finished massage school, quit my job went into business with the man that put me on the WLS path and found a new profession but had a terrible year and a half in business. The money has not been right but I love what I am allowed to do and I believe the right door will open for me. I begin classes on the 2nd in Health and Wellness I believe this is going to make things work out for me and open more doors.
I have struggled in ministry, at home, in my marriage. Things have stalled with my transformation but things have gotten better with my family, my children and grandchildren. I don't know if I posted this but 2/07 I had my first baby boy (grand boy) he is now 15 months old. He looks like his mother but I can see my son all over him. I can also see myself and my mom, sis, and aunts states that he looks like me when I was a baby. He is a hand full. I cannot complain that we are doing well as a family growing and evolving. Sunday marks my 8th anniversary as the Pastor and Founder of The Philadelphia Church Ministry. God says this is a new beginning because this ministry has been a trip and that is all my fault. But God is good! September 12, 2008 marks my 15th year as a Preaching Minister. I am excited about God grace in this as well. I have my 49th birthday, in August and I plan to treat it like my 50th and I have declared that this year this latter part of the year will be as God declared it. I am excited about it. My second half of my life will be better than the first half.
I want to wish all those contemplating surgery, waiting on dates I wish you the success you want for your self. I pray that you will be well, prepared and serious, never turn back or take advantage of you situation negatively. Do what you need to do to receive the result you want. Be true to yourself and be bless. Until we meet again, Here is to the journey!
di
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Well Praise the Lord everybody! Everybody ought to Praise the Lord! God is so good. I cannot thank him enough for all his goodness, and his mercy, and oh my his wonderful kindness toward me. I have been through the fire and I just keep running so I can see what the end is going to be. Praise God.
I have been so busy lately. For the last 12 days I am some of the other sisters on BAF have dedicated ourselves to praying for others, it was to be 7 days. Many kept the 7 day commitment but I felt compelled to continue on. There are many many people needing breakthroughs right now and I believe that God has given me a mandate to pray and I am believing God for some awesome events. I have gotten so wonderful testimonies about the goodness of the Lord but I know there is so much more to come. I have looking for God to show up and show out in the Life of His people.
One good thing about this prayer train. It has taken the focus of me and my little needs and each and everyday God has seen fit to send what I need, even before I needed it. I call that provision. Praise the Lord. I wish I could type in tongues. Hallelujah!!!! Glory to God in the Highest. When I think back on the night that the Lord put the in my heart, I was having such an awful day that I was contemplating sinning some dreadful some with an impact that would actually effect me. God is so good, eventhough I thought of 3 things I could do, nothing was readily available to me and it was funny. Talking about God providing a way to escape. He did cause I could not find the sins to do. LOL
I am so thankful for the wonderful sisterS who have been on the board praying with me and for the needs of God's people they have been an inspiration to me. I plan to give them a shout out. God bless them and keep them.
Well in a few days it will be a year so I plan on going to my surgeon's office on Monday and weigh so I can have an official weight for me year out. I am just about half we there. People look at me and tell me I have done well. Shoot they think this is it for me. I am different I now enjoy getting dress and changing my hairstyles. It's funny without trying, I step onto the floor and everybody is looking and I can feel the energy in the room and I watch how excited everybody gets, when I have a new hairstyle or color, or outfit. lipstick whatever. These people watch me every move. I use to dread coming in here. They paid me attention then, just in a very different way. They were interested in my wisdom then, now they want the wisdom and they want to see what I am about. I find it amusing because I am just at the weight that most people being thinking about weight loss surgery. I am at a weight were most people feel like people are seeing them in a negative way. I guess because every body knows where I come from they give me props. It won't be long before they will see and even better me. I cannot weight. Some say they actually notice it quite often from week to week. It is a great feeling when someone tell you, especially the men that you look good and every week they can see just a little bit more. I was a mazed at the comments the men in my office have made to me and do make to me each day. They do not find any problems in communicating to me over the course of the last 3 months since returning to work that they see how much I have change in that time. I cannot see anything. I love it though. It makes me feel good to hear that I look so much younger, that my face is thin , that I look hot!! Now that is cute to me I look hot at my age and size and these are young boys to me. They are sweet for making an almost middle aged woman feel good. I find it interesting that they don't mind being around me and talking with me.
Life is good and I can say getting better. I have several projects going on and if all goes well it won't be long before I will be out of the fire.
I have all my children at home with me and believe it or not things are not bad at all. We are cohabitating in our tiny house well together all 8 of us and the 1 bathroom. Only God, I tell you only God. Well I pray for all who read this post that God will meet your every need. I pray your success in every area of your life and may God richly bless you is my prayer.
di
December 16,2005
Praise God from whom all blessings flow. Time is flying by. It seems like yesterday that I posted and it has been a month already. God has been good to me and I thank him for his love and his kindness that he has shown me. I have been going through so many things lately. God has delivered me from day to day. I am still under the mandate to pray for my family and friends and for the people of God at large. It has been a blessing for me. I see God constantly blessing me over and over again.
I know that the enemy is trying to stand in the way of my blessings but I know God to be a deliverer and all this delay is just that a delay. I will not be hindered any longer I will see this through.
di
December 28,2005
Great is the Lord and Greatly to be Praise! I give glory and honor to God Almighty and I thank and praise him daily for all of his benefits. God has been good to me this year. Every year of my life actually, he has kept me and I thank him. I thank him for the milestones that I have made this year. I thank him for the weight loss and the continued weightloss. I thank him for the friendships I have made the discoveries that I have made. I am grateful for every hurdle I have crossed over. I thank him for making a way for me. It has been a bumpy road most of the year but it has been well worth it.
I thank God that I am able to walk and breathe and not be in pain. I thank him that so many things I can do for myself now that I have not been able to do in years. I thank him that my body changed and is changing, but not only my body, but my mind changed. I can do all things through Christ that strenghtens me. I have a new mind. Let this mind be in you that is in Christ Jesus. You say, your a preacher and you are just getting this, No. I am just getting it on a whole new level. I see differently, I feel differently. I believe that God was moving me, not from level to level, but quantum leaps from dimension to dimension. I feel awesome about where God is taking me and inspite of myself. I have had some interesting times this years some ups and downs but all in all it has been good.
Financially I have not been able to keep up, I was doing well and it going okay but things begin to plummet. I will not complain but things are looking up. I know that they are about to get better and better. I am sitting here now waiting to close on a loan where I refinance my house. This will give me an opportunity to fix up the house, pay off some debts, get some things we need and put up money to start up a business. The year of 2006 I plan to start a business, I am planning to get some other things off the ground. I believe that 12 years of hopes and dreams are about to become a reality and that thought in itself is awesome to me.
I have been through some trauma this year and I am sure that I will again in the coming year but I am learning to take everything that comes as it comes. God is good.
I have 2 angelettes this year. Lisa Dannielle my Cali girl, I am pray for her. She has really gone through some things. I am praying for Evangelist Stanley On a Glory CLoud she is doing very well. A woman of faith, I know she is going to be alright she has got a work to do.
I am grateful for my Angel Cookie Luscious, Hope. She is my hope and I thank God everyday for her support her prayers her calls and her kindness and generocity. I am looking forward to a day not very far away to be a blessing to her. She has always been there for anyone she could and I am praying that she will do well and reap a great harvest because she has sown so much in so many lives and I still think she should be a weightloss coach she gives out so much valuable info to so many she should make a career out of it.
I am thank for to my sister Madame Rodriguez she is my kindred sister I love her to life. She is such a good exhorter and I have gathered so much strength from her. I love her and look so forward to spending a minute with her in DC.
My sister, Sister Georgi, I know God sent her to me and Stacy Richardson who I need to check on. These two sisters are so anointed they have blessed my soul I tell you the truth. I pray God continue to bless and keep them and prosper them in all they do.
I have been blessed by Frenchy, High Maintainence, Ms Pisces, Afro Queen, just to name a few. I love me some Free Butterfly thats my friend Allison what an awesome strong soldier, I love her for her faith and strength, God has given me some new buddies, Ms April, I love that girl because she is April, there Pauline, tx queenbee and Christal M and David her hubby. June Flowers, Cynsational my Houston divA. God blessed me so many more Total Package is a sweetheart I thank God for her wanted to sow into my life the same with Leslie Princess Phatgirl, I am praying that God blesses her with the desires of her heart. My girl Tee, Tee she is a giver to her heart God bless her. I have had the pleasure of gleening from so many others Val, my girl Vanessa what a woman of character. All of these people and so many more that I have not mentioned because there names escape me Jackie in Alabama, and too many more have blessed me or have honored me by sharing there prayer request with me. I am looking so very forward to meeting many in DC and as God crosses our paths. It has been a terrific year and it only gets better from here.
Until next time, HAVE A WONDERFUL AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR.
di
January 25, 2006
Shame on me. The month is almost over and I never said Happy New Year, shoot I thought I had. Time flies when you are losing weight, gaining a life, and enjoying the abundance only God gives. I greet you all in the name of my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. I give all glory, honor, and praise to God. My what an awesome God we serve, shoot I can't speak for anybody, I serve. I serve an awesome God.
I thank God for working out my finances and allowing me the opportunity to pay off my bills. Lord Jesus, my God, I thank him for allowing me to straighten out my utility bill which has been dragging on for a long time. I thank him for allowing me to throw away some stuff and replace them with new things. I thank him for my Dodge Durango, for Candisse's Cadillac and for the Intrigue in the shop and Chris will have it. I thank God that there will be no reason for my children to make any excuses about their situation. I am going to see what they do now. I thank God for freeing me and my time from doing this or that for them. I am thankful.
2006 is the year of manifestations. I have already seen a glimpse of the Glory of God in this year and my friend Yolanda said that Bishop Jakes has been talking about this year being a year of blessing, I cannot remember her exact word but what she said was this whatever you are believing for you might as well receive it because he is opening doors left and right.
I am believing God for my husband, the priest of my home, Johnny Ray McGinnis to be home by the end of March 2006. I am believing God that whatever it takes, whatever has to be moved, changed, overriden be done, so he can come home. I am believing God that God opens up a door for Johnny to tell his story of confinement for 19 years and not guilty. I am believing God that he fines his calling and walks there in.
I am also believing God that my two adult children with be blessing with permanent employment that they both like and can keep and move into their own houses or apartments and be able to support their families without any problems. I am believing God that their children will continue to be blessed and I am also believing God for my parents and grandparents health and wellbeing and all will be well with them. I pray for Aunts uncles cousins brothers and sisters and all those who don't know Jesus will come to know him.
I am so looking forward to the M&G in D.C. I believe I am going to have a good time. Until next time. Many blessings to those who read.
March 8, 2006
My goodness, I cannot believe that I did not update anything in the month of February. OOps I forgot February was a roller coaster ride. It was fun, scary, full of dips and dives, swings and curves and when it topped I was glad to get off.
The month started with me stressing about the plane ride. My goodness I have not been on a plane in 20 years. The bigger I got I knew it was impossible, it was hard for me then. Well, I prayed and I went through the trial and I came out triumphant. Granted it, it is what it is, it is not the grandiest thing. By far it was not the most comfortable sitting but, I managed not to embarrass myself and I was able to buckle my seatbelt without the extension. That was wonderful.
I arrived in D.C. and Madame picked me up at the airport. I was so glad to had finally met her. She is a remarkable woman and I love her dearly. We went by her home and picked up a few things and off to the hotel. I was so glad to get out of my clothes. Friday night festivities was so good. I had a great time and I met up with Annette and Paul before the meet and greet and I enjoyed the time I spent with them. I had a great time. I met so many people and each one of them are special to me. I thank God for every one of them that crossed my path. I will always treasure them.
The trip to D.C. did something good for my mind and my heart. I had the best time. It has been years since I had that much fun. (I don't get out much). I was treated with so much respect and it was a wonderful experience. I also was impressed with the hostesses. Women of excellence, with excellent spirits. They all hold a special place in my heart. I will forever be grateful to them.
I also took up with Annette, and Raynese Brown Sugar, an awesome woman to me. I love her. Brighteyes, Gbetta's sister is a wonderful woman I fell in love with her wonderful caring spirit immediately.
My best moments was hanging out with Frenchy, Stacy and Hope riding through the raining and clowning to the max, the skating rink was fun, and being with the same group plus Irene and Gbetta was a treat for dinner. I laughed and clowned so much. The bible says laughter is like a medicine. It was good for me and I know that my craziness and Frenchy's craziness is sheer lunacy. (lol) I am still laughing at some of the stuff we shared. Great fun, great time great people.
I cannot wait for the next event. It will be awesome.
Now here is the kicker. The days leading up to departure day I was so afraid that something terrible was going to happen and I would have to cancel like all the other times. Everytime my phone would ring, I was afraid that my dad was calling to tell me my mom past away. I would beat myself up for it everytime for having such thoughts. Finally, I prayed Lord I don't mean to be selfish, but I never get to go anywhere, Please don't let nothing happen to my mom until this is over. Well, Sunday afternoon, we all parted out company. I went back to my Hotel looking forward to hanging out 2 more days with my girls. I was making all kinds of plans. I finally call my dad and he has been sick in bed for 3 days. He then tells me that he went to see my mom and she was asleep and they had been watching her because they had put a feeding tube in earlier in the week. She was no longer able to swallow. We talk, he asked me when I would be home and we hung up. I went to sleep and I was awaken by a fire alarm. I got dressed and went outside. I came back in and tried to watch some Tv. I had a message from my dad and he was crying that they rushed my mom to the hospital and she was not doing good at all. I was in awe. I was speechless, I was thinking Oh My God, You love me so much that you allowed me to get here and finish the activities and wow how you answered my prayer.
I called to change my flight. I ran back to Dallas she was critical. All I could do was prepare myself for what I had seen 2 years prior. I get home and starving, check on my Dad tell him I will be there shortly, my brother was in the air as well coming from Ohio. I decide to get a bite to eat at a Mexcan restaurant by the hospital as soon as I sit down my dad is crying in the phone saying it don't look good. I leave I get there he grabs me and cries, my mom is lying there on life support with 9 or so tubes coming out of her. All I could think was get her off this stuff. I held my peace. My brother came and he looked so sad, he was very close to my mom.
We sat around for hours and learned of what was happening to her and I knew it was a matter of time.
The next day we all met and my dad said he had prayed and he wanted to allow her to go in peace and to get off all the machines, we all agreed and I was so happy. The doctors told us she would be dead in 10 minutes that she was in a coma. My mom lived 8 more days on her own with out any help. Everyday she looked better and better, her skin began to glow. Her face began to shine. She looked like a picture of health. I think it may have given my brother false hope. I just think that God was getting her ready for her departure. My mom was a diva in her own right and she loved to look good and when she left she did look good. Even when they prepared her for the funeral she looked good. No one would have known that she had been so sick and a few days earlier was swollen and full of tubes. My mothers suffering was over and I was happy for her.
Well I ran around for one week seeing about dad, my brother danny, I was a tired sister. Then it was funeral plans, insurance, money, calling people. wow that can take a toll on your mind. I thank God for my brothers and sister on the BAF the really carried me through this whole ordeal. I have never felt so much love nor have I ever been so encouraged in all my life. I am indebted to you all. Thank you so much for your love, monetary support and adoration. God bless you.
Then after the funeral, after the relatives, back to work, back to life, I met a man..... I met a man that help me change my life. He gave me insight into me. Funny, he was battling a drug addiction and I helped him see his way clear, but Oh my Lord, my way became clear also. I thank God for our paths crossing, so for 2 weeks I was running around with him gleaning from his wealth of knowledge, you never know who your next blessing is coming from.
Our time came to and end he caught a train back to his family in Maryland. One more treasure in the Maryland D.C. area. Too many reasons to keep up with that place and now my Angel has relocated their too. I cannot believe it. How wonderful.
I was exhausted and I knew it would be a matter of time before my body would just shut down. Well, I was not sleeping and I should not admit it but I was not doing anything else I should be doing so I was expecting a meltdown or a shutdown. I shut way down. Sunday morning I got off work sleepy as I could be. I went home to finally wash, had been running since the begin of Feb. One month. I got my grandbaby's things together for school, I have not been to happy with my home life, my 2 adult kids to say the least especially my daughter. Pray for her. Lord have mercy, I had decided to just go to a hotel for a couple of days to get myself rested and relaxed. I did not because I did not have all my stuff together, I went to see my husband, came back parked my truck in the driveway and listened to a series of CD's from Bishop Jakes and fell asleep. I woke up shouting about the goodness of God and drug myself into the house. I fell asleep and slept alnight thank you Jesus. I woke up and got a few things done and I feel like I am coming back to myself. I got my vitamins in and I guess because of all the stress I have endured I am back on blood pressure meds. I am going to take them and hopefully within a month or so I will not need them. I have a pretty mild one.
Well I am so bad about updating and announcing things I have four angelettes, My first was Lisa Danielle, out of Cali, On a Glory Cloud, out of Illnois, Denise W 4eva Unique from Dallas and my newest angelette is from Houston but live here in Dallas and that is Steph B. she is a sweetie. I have to give props to Miss Rhonda she call me and came to my mom's wake and hand delivered flowers and a card from BAF enclosed was money. Praise the Lord for her. Also, For Pauline aka Texas Queenbee she is my girl.
I want to thank MS Lena for reading my profile, you are so sweet, well I am signing off until next time be blessed.
di
April 13, 2006
Praise God from whom all blessing flow. It is 3:35 cental time. I am at work and decided I needed to take the time to post a little. Time flies when you are having funny. (lol)
As always I make my excuse for not posting. No time. I think the real truth of the matter is I really don't think about it. BAF is not as important to me as it was. At least when I say that, I'm really trying to say, although I love my friends and everybody there, during weightloss you begin living again and things changed, you just don't have the same time. I am busier than I have ever been. So now is a great time to spend updating.
Well I have been to hell and back, I seem to always live to tell about it praise God. Did I say God is good to me in spite of me. Lord I thank you. I have lost and gained 20lbs for the past 2 months. I am really dedicating myself to changing and adapting the behavior I had, the one that was working for me. I know it is possible, so I have got to get with it.
Well beside running around cking on my dad, cking on my birth mother real mother I have been busy. First I have been trying to tackle some remodeling jobs with my bath and kitchen. My house is a mess and I have be stressing about it. I cannot complain, I also have not been satisfied with the productiveness of my children and their habits around the house. They need to get to work or scool. It has been hard, with my husband tripping about my distance in visiting and writing, work some serious overtime on my job, we are way too short staffed right now. To top that off, I enrolled in school full time Massage Therapy. I start friday and it is going to be hard staying up all day and all night. I can do it. Much love to all those who read. I am sleepy and I will continue at another time.
di
May 6, 2006
I give glory and honor to the Lord. I am thankful for every blessing. Things have been crazy for me. Trying to work and go to school is no joke, and at my age, what was I thinking? I have successfully completed 3 weeks of schooling 5 more to go and my grades are good by I am just not confident yet.
I have been playing with the same 20lb for a month or so. I have had a lot of swelling thus the weight gain. Not to mention not keeping up with the vitamins and foods, etc. Leaving on 2 to 3 hours of sleep plus 10 and 15 min naps is crazy it is pure lunancy my prayer is that all this sacrifice does not bite me in the butt.
I am doing everything in my power to get organized and focused and to get my food and vits under control. I know the water weigth will be fine once I am able to sleep. Eventhough I have no time I must make better use of the time I have and by golly I have got to stop lying to myself about the exercise. I have not done anything worth anything yet. It is still a goal. I see a few opportunities to do the gym. Hopefully,Sunday Monday and Tuesday, I will get there if only for 30 min. Maybe Friday morning after work and Saturday And Sunday morning this next week.
I have got a lot of things in my heart and my mind. I believe this is the season of blessing, the season of vision coming forth. I just want to be successful at whatever the Lord sends my way. It looks like the Chigago Meet N Greet is out of my vision. That weekend is the anniversary of our church. I believe that I have got a busy project ahead of me.
I would like to take this opportunity to let everyone reading that I wish you the best on your journey, I pray you get out of it what you expect to and what you put into it. I pray for your success. God bless you and thanks for reading.
di
July 24, 2006
How horrible, I have not had time to update my profile in a while. First I want to congratulate all the candidates for surgeries God's blessing to you on your journey. I say Hooray to all that are being successful in their journey. I want to say to those like me that are struggling with doing right, keeping up with things are being just plain trifling, don't beat yourself up so bad that you never get back up. Just get up dust yourself off and find a place to start over. Shoot we went through too much to just quit. It ain;t over to the skinny woman sings or should I say the healthy one does.
It has been a crazy time in my life. I jumped up in April and decided to go to Massage School, I finished my class but still working on my internship. I started a new advance class to and am learning a heck of a lot. My problem is big but doable. I need to finish paying for school so I can go take my test to get my license. I am sure that I will do it. I just pray that it be timely. All of a sudden I am doing things I only think about doing and I am broke as a joke but my future looks very bright to me. I am thankful to the Lord for all his benefits. Glory to God.
I have big plans for my massage therapy business, I have some other things I need to do and I believe God is going to open the door for each of them. Once I finish this class I am taking a tax test and some baking classes. I got ideas and I believe I am about to do several things I want to do. First things first.
I have got to get rid of my grown kids and their families and that is looking more and more promising everyday. I have been worried sick about my daughter and her working but shoot I am not worrying any more she is going to have to really go through some stuff to rise up out of her situation and the very last thing I am going to do for her is when she moves which is looking like housing is going to place her somewhere, I am writing her a letter and reminding her who she is and what she can accomplish. After that I am putting that situation in her and the Lord's hands to handle. My son I believe will get up and do for himself real soon.
My concentration will be with what I can do for myself and caring for my husband until he is able to care for me.
Moving on...... I had gotten way way off track with everything. I seemed to have taken leave of my senses and became some what wreckless with my health, I was eating anything and everything, I thank God that I could not eat all of anything or as much I use to, because I would have gained a considerable about of weight. I can say that I have been teetering with the same 20lbs for a couple of months now, I knew that is was all water weight gain. I have been under considerable stress getting no sleep and understand how important sleep and rest is to weight loss. I keep swelling and up and could not get rid of the water, I got several days of rest and watch the 20 lbs leave in a matter of days less than a week only to go back to my normal schedule and have the pounds back up in the same amount of time. I have not gained in weight since my last doctor weigh in, but i really could not say that I had lost any. I think I had lost about 10lbs since I visited my doctor I think in February, I have not been back was due back in April and I missed my appointment and felt like my doctor was going to read me the riot act I have not been back. Now that I am through being stupid about my weight and everything else in my life. I plan to take my family on a mini trip this weekend and then when I come back, I am going to make appoints for everything, I have been putting off. I am so ashamed.
I really had to think things through and get myself together, I now have 3 days off, even though I go to the clinic on Fridays and Saturday. I get good sleep and I rest pretty good, still tossing and turning but when I get up I am good to go so I think that is just the way I am. I have really been thinking about my body, how is works, what I can do to make it better. The classes I take help me to think this way. I know I want to have an upper body lift so it is now goal setting time. Time to figure out the how and the whens time to get the weight off, maintain, find a surgeon I like that can do the procedure I want and find out what it cost and weigh options. I have so many things to consider. So as soon as I get the kids out of the way then I am going to take a few days for my self so I can get things outlined. I enjoy my own company and I really know who to treat myself good.
I am back, I am back in spirit, I am back physically mentally and emotionally committed to getting myself in the best possible shape I can be. I am so grateful to the Lord for all his wonderful benefits he has certainly been good to me and until next time you be blessed.
di
09/27/2006
Blessed be the name of the Lord Most High. It is indeed a blessing and a privilege to come to this page today. I have been really going through a varity of situations lately and I am grateful to God for all his benefits.
Alot has happen this year as I reflect up to now. I started this year off refinancing my house and even though my current situation is not where it should be, I do not regret one moment of my blessing, I accomplished alot, I bought a lot and I blessed alot.
I just believe that it won't be long before my real harvest will come in. I need to do somethings and I believe they are about to come to past. I have had a wonderful year, I got to see and meet so many people who have blessed my life and we have kept in contact. I have gotten to take a few trips and particpate in things I could not have done a few years ago.
I am a busy person. I like that. I use to be just a busy thinking person, but now I can do the things I think about.
I have been a little flustered but things make a lot of sense to me now. I have been on the run since the beginning of the year. I have been trying to work, trying to help my children, support my husband, check on my parents, bless my grandchildren, counsel my friends, I have had a busy year but I am still not where I should be.
I can say that I have had a busy year. I finish massage school, I finish 100 hours of advance classes, I can do another 100 hours and I can be nationally certified. I had a great time and loved every pain wrenching moment of it. Now I am Cake decorating I just received a certificate for the 1st course, I start course 2 Monday and I am loving it. I have wanted to do this since I was a young woman. I am enrolled in Tax School right now so I have 18
more session to complete it. I have decided that I will do all I can while I can to open as many stream for income as I can. I am working on a cookbook, I am working on getting a building for ministry and have a few other things to do. I am excited about God's blessings. Thank you Jesus!
Now lets talk about weight loss I have gone from appx 550lbs to 300lbs and it really depends on what day and where I way. I have been tossing and turning with the same 20lbs for months and SUnday. I am holding fluid from all the months of working going to school and not resting, no add the stress of being behind in builds sick of my children and my husbands situation and compound all kinds of junk like menopause hormone craziness. I just want to take it out on those in my way. I started internalizing everything so I would not rain on everybody else parade and to top it off, people don't really get me or take me serious, it is all about them and what I can offer them and I know that. So internalizing it what I began to do and boy did it do a number on my stomach. I have the loudness stomach sounds like a clogged drain being drained and the gas the waste material is awful and then the stomach cramps. I though to every possible thing wrong with me and I started to freak but deep inside I new it was stress related because I could see how different I felt when I heard things that upset me . My surgeon told me to get back to basics of eating my protein 5 to 6 times a day, exercising by walking 30mins of the day and drinking my fluids and taking my vitamins. He is right and there is no excuse because life does go on everyday in everyway and if you have to do something for yourself it has got to become normal to you like waking up, going to the bathroom, bathings, brushing your teeth, these things we do every day regardless of what happens in the day so why allow circumstances and situations keep you from doing the things that keep you healthy. He is so right. I must make these things habits, it was so easy when I was at home not working, but shoot it has been almost 2 years and I have screwing up for almost a year and the result have been no weight loss. So decided that I must get at least 100lbs off me . I need to get to 200 or 180 before I can have surgery because I believe looking at myself with all this skin on my arms hanging from my back my butt my belling and my thighs that I need to have a total body lift and I need to get my exercise together because it has been stated and proven that reconstructive surgery is at it's when your body is at it's best. I need to get it in gear. I have a good heart and good intentions, i have promised myself time and time again to get these things done and I am actually giving myself until December to get everything in order where by the end of decided I want to say that I actually started all this and have kept it up for 30 days. It has been proven that it takes 21 days to make a thing a habit. I need to start some good habits and I will.
I am to get a meet and greet together for October and maybe a nice Christmas Party to end the year together. I have great intentions I just go to do it. I have so much else on my mind and I am somewhat distracted since I am at work, which means I will be posting again real soon.
I always think my profile is boring but to all those who read I hope you find something you can relate too and something that will bless you. I pray that you be healed everywhere you hurt and you be blessed every where you go. Boring wonderful words from my friend Nia, I go as I came in Peace!
Be blessed
di
June 21, 2008 12:00am
I should be ashamed of myself cause it has been almost 2 years since I last posted. I guess I have been living life. The truth is I was to lazy to copy and paste my blog and too lazy to start a new one.
I got to thinking about all the people who probably click on my name and don't find anything and say well hell.
Quick update. I have not lost any weight since 2006 I am still 300lbs. The good thing about that is I actually went 2 years without weight gain or putting on something and it was too little. So I have to be grateful for that.
I must admit several things. I have not done the same things that I was doing to lose the weight. I suggest don't ever let anybody or anything make you lose your perspective or focus.
I becames sporadic with my vitamins and water, never consistently exercised and picked up some of my bad habits again.
What is my plan, to drop the bad habits, take my vitamins consistently, drink the water. And most important for me to see result get the exercise off. I am willing to bet that if I would be consistent with my plan I could lose 50 to 75lbs by Christmas maybe more. Wishful thinking I don't think so I believe it is doable but will I do it!
I have got to. I need a panniculetomy really bad. I need everything else but this the worst because my belly flab is pulling me forward.
I had to have my gallbladder removed last September and a hernia repair. Still have problems when I eat to greasy food. I am careful because running to the bath room ain't my bag after every meal.
I have gone through a lot over the past 4 years since I came to BAF, meet some wonderful people and made some great friends. I am blessed for it.
It has been crazy on the board lately but like I tell everybody, come for what you come for and do what you do, don't let anybody dissuade you from getting what you need or want.
I am looking forward to the meet and greet next week. I am in a financial bind right now, but I am still believing that God is going to open a door for me and let me go. I need the long drive to clear my head, hear from God. I have needs to go to Georgia and see my peeps, I believe somebody their needs a touch from the Lord.
Since I last posted. I finished massage school, quit my job went into business with the man that put me on the WLS path and found a new profession but had a terrible year and a half in business. The money has not been right but I love what I am allowed to do and I believe the right door will open for me. I begin classes on the 2nd in Health and Wellness I believe this is going to make things work out for me and open more doors.
I have struggled in ministry, at home, in my marriage. Things have stalled with my transformation but things have gotten better with my family, my children and grandchildren. I don't know if I posted this but 2/07 I had my first baby boy (grand boy) he is now 15 months old. He looks like his mother but I can see my son all over him. I can also see myself and my mom, sis, and aunts states that he looks like me when I was a baby. He is a hand full. I cannot complain that we are doing well as a family growing and evolving. Sunday marks my 8th anniversary as the Pastor and Founder of The Philadelphia Church Ministry. God says this is a new beginning because this ministry has been a trip and that is all my fault. But God is good! September 12, 2008 marks my 15th year as a Preaching Minister. I am excited about God grace in this as well. I have my 49th birthday, in August and I plan to treat it like my 50th and I have declared that this year this latter part of the year will be as God declared it. I am excited about it. My second half of my life will be better than the first half.
I want to wish all those contemplating surgery, waiting on dates I wish you the success you want for your self. I pray that you will be well, prepared and serious, never turn back or take advantage of you situation negatively. Do what you need to do to receive the result you want. Be true to yourself and be bless. Until we meet again, Here is to the journey!
di
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