denise777
ok, this is my story, probably similar to most...
i ache everywhere. i hurt. i'm uncomfortable in a sz 20. at 5 ft 6 and 236 (highest 242) pounds i'm disgusted when i look in the mirror. what have i done to myself? i come home from work, eat and lay in the bed and use my computer. i feel virtually helpless and hopeless that i'll ever get this weight off. i've tried so many times, oh i've tried. lose a little, gain a lot. i did 22 years in the army and fought the weight virtually the whole time. i've been retired from the army for 7 years now and here i am fat, ok; morbidly obese, fifty and too through with myself.
i've been watching coworkers and friends, much larger than myself, have wls and now they are much smaller and healthier than i am and it disgusts me. my dh loves me no matter what, but he wants me to live long into our retirement. we have 2 beautiful grandchildren and i want to be around for them. i have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, hypothyroid and am borderline or pre-diabetic. what have i done to myself. i am a nurse for Gods sake, i know better and i am disgusted by that knowledge.
i've been looking into wls to get my health and my life back.
so, on july 24th 2008, i asked my doctor for a referral for wls........i expected her to say that i wasn't heavy enough or to just try and diet or exercise.......but she didn't. she said i was "smart" to do something about my weight before i have a stroke or heart attack........"am i really that bad off", i think to myself. so the referral goes in and 5 days later i receive an authorization in the mail from my insurance (go tricare prime!!!!) for a consultation with a surgeon in anchorage who performs wls. hesitantly, i make the call and get an appointment for the initial consult for 20 august. the day comes and i fly down to anchorage and meet dr searles. he sort of tries to steer me into having the lapband, but i've done my homework and firmly state, i'd like the RNY. he says to me, "ok then, that's what we'll do." he sends me home to fairbanks with a laundry list of tests/consults to have done....nutrition, psych, ekg, upper gi, blood work, urine work. abdominal ultrasounds.............as of today 26 august, i have all scheduled except the psych consult. i'll start blogging from here!!!! wish me lot's of God's blessings....i don't believe in luck :)
denise
