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I cannot believe it has been 2 years now.  Time has passed by fast.  I do not regret having my surgery.  I am enjoying my new body, and the new size I am in.  I am down 169 pounds since I started this process and 143 from surgery date.  I have lost about 9-10 sizes in clothing.  I still am not near my goal weight but I am so close I can taste it LOL.  I enjoy when I go to the stores and am able to shop in the regular size stores.  I enjoy fighting with my sister when we go shopping over clothes.  The only problems I have is the excessive skin around my stomach, arms (bat wings) and upper thigh.  However, my husband has been fine with it.  He consistently rubs on me and flirts with me.  I am not shame to go out anymore and when I go back to my hometown, I don't mind going out in public where everyone can see me.  My mother and aunt continue to say they have their child back.  I know I still the same Dee Dee from before but I am a better Dee Dee now.  I still have problems with eating sweets.  I just have to have them around that time of the month.  I eat more during that time as well.  I usually gain around 6-11 pounds and get upset everytime, but usually I lose it when everything is back to normal.  I see that I have to be really really careful about eating habits because I can eat much more now and I can gain all this weight that I have fought so hard to get rid of.  I never want to go back to where I was.  Thank God for the new me

Still not where I want to be, but much closer to where I need to be

today, I was reading an article on OH that talked about your changing wardrobe.  I was so excited everytime I went down in size.  I could buy clothes a little smaller in the plus size store, then finally I didn't have to go into the plus size stores to look for clothes.  I work in an office where you had to dress professionally.  Before it was so hard to find clothes that will fit me so I stayed with the same outfits and would only go shopping when I apsoulately had to.  I would go shopping for my husband and kids but never thought twice for myself because there was only one store I could go to and find clothes my size and the clothes never looked nice on me I jsut wanted them to look half way decent.  Well, I looked in my closet and I have bought a lot of clothes in the past  1 1/2 year since the surgery.  The biggest size 32-34, I had to give to charity because none of my friends could ever fit in that size.  When I got down to the lower 20s I was able to give those to my best friend.  I now in a size 16 misses and some 14 but I am so afraid I will go back up.  I now have a closest full of clothes.  I of course have only bought clothes on clearance.  Before I lost the weight I did not like to pay the full price for clothes and I really do not pay the full price because I change clothes so many times now.  I have been in a size 16 now for 2 months. My goal is a size 14 (I know that it is big for most people but that is a size I can fell comfortable in and anything under that would be great).  Anyway, I find myself looking into my closest and it is packed.  I can go in it and pick out a different outfit for everyday for over 2 weeks.  It feels great to try on clothes and look to see how I look in it and then try on other things with it.  I have spent a lot of money the past year, eventhough I always but things on clearance.  I have bought now clothes that cost 1.99-3.99 and people are complimenting me that it looks so good and I feel so good when I say it only cost 1.99 or 5.00 or 6.99.  Anyway , eventhough I have spent some money on my new clothes, I would not change it.  I have enjoyed every bit of it and I pray to God that I never go back in those bigger size.  If I don't go down another size it will be ok but I want to reach my personal goal.  However, I hope I never go back up even one size.

Well, last weekend was my sister's wedding.  I was the matron of honor.  The brides maid dress I ordered was way to big.  I had them to alter it and tried the dress on Friday night and the dress fit great, but the next morning the dress was too big again.  I guess I had lost inches over night (I don't know)  Anyway they had to safety pin me so I could get through the wedding.  My husband thought I looked so beautiful all made up and dressed up.  My sister gave me some more jeans and they fit great except for one of them.  Everyone complimented me on how I looked.  I still want to lose about anothe 30 pounds or so but I am so proud of where I am

Well, I had my semi-annual job fair on wednesday.  I head the big event up.  I have the largest job fair in the military.  Anyway, I felt like the princess at the ball.  All the employers that have been coming every year saw me and were all shock to see me.  Some of them was polite and did not want to say anything so they would just say your hair is so nice, then they say its something different about you.  I would say I have lost a few pounds and then they would smile and say I did not want to just say anything but you have lost a lot a weight.  Some on them would just come up and say oh my gosh you have lost so much weight and you look like another person.  Some would just stare at me like I know her from somewhere and when they discovered it was me they just started screaming.  One man called his old partner immediately on the phone and tell him how good I looked.  One man said, boy I can take you away from your husband right now.  I just laughed and said you would soon send me back to him.  My self esteem just started to shoot up.  I usually allow one of the managers do the interviews and I stood back so I wouldn't have to be on the tv  or in the picture.  This time I took all the interviews and was happy to be on tv.  I also like the new hairstyle I have (which is microbriads) they make woking out much easier too.  Anyway I still need to lose about 40 pounds but I am starting to love my new self.  One of my daughers friend mother said today that I look so much different and the way I dress now makes all the other mother's jealous.  I said I just pull things out that are on clearence or hand me downs.  It just looks different on me know.  Anyway I hope and pray I be able to keep this weight off.  I went back to the gym today.  I did not spend the sixty minutes i needed in there due to me starting really late but I did get thirty or fourty minutes in which was good.  I ran the entire mile in just fifteen minutes.

Well, I went back to my home in Mississippi for Christmas.  It was so funny seeing everyone's expression on my weight.  They all were so suprise and so proud of me.  My sister put aside some of her clothes and wanted me to try them on.  To my suprise I could wear her clothes.  That was one of my major goals from when I started this whole process.  I was so happy.  My aunt again just hugged me and said how proud she was of me.  When I went to my in-laws house my step father-in-law looked at me at first and then said he didn't even recognize me.  He kept staring at me and saying where is my real daughter-in-law.  He just could not believe the big difference.  I went to a game with my sister, something I have not done in years because I was so embarrass to go out in public back home, and people thought I was her.  Her students kept speaking to me and then their faces dropped when they notice her walking around the corner.  One of them said he just knew that I was her and said is there 2 of them.  LOL.  I felt so good.  I got a lot of clothing from my sister.  We tried on my braids maid dress for my sister's wedding and the dress just fell to the ground.  It is way too big.  The good thing is it is too big and not too small.  I also went to try on shoes and my shoe size has gone down again too.  I had gotten down to an 8 1/2 and now I am in a 8 shoe and maybe a 7 1/2 

Anyway, this was a great christmas.  I hope I continue to lose this weight.  I will post pictures sometime later today.

Tomorrow is my 36th birthday and I never thought I would feel this way for my birthday.  I just bought some clothes and they are some 16 and some 14W and I can fit them.  I went yesterday and bought a robe and pajamas on the misses department that this time last year I could not even dream of wearing.  It felt so good to buy clothes that I did not have to go the the plus size department.  If I want to go to the plus size department I get to choose the smallest sizes in there.  I also ordered the jeans that I was wearing and I recieved them today.  I order them a size 2 small, in hopes that I would be able to wear them someday.  I decided to try them on to see how much of the jeans I could fit in.  To my amazment it pulled up and button and zipped.  ALL SMILES>  I hope I get to lose about 25-40 more pounds but I am so happy at my progress.  and I am happy to be in this size for my birthday.  I went to starbucks today with my girlfriend and I saw some people that I use to know.  the husband tapped me on the shoulder and said that I look farmiliar to him and asked where I worked.  I told him yes and said this is me Deidra.  He started laughing and said he did not even recognize me.  My face just looked farmiliar to me.  When his wife came out, I saw him wispering to her and she turned around and screamed Deidra.  I said yes and she ran over to hug me and said I look great.  She could not believe how much weight I lost.  She just kept saying how good i looked.  I thanked them.  their reaction was very loud but it made me feel so good inside. 

Thank you God for helping me reach a major goal in my life and give me strength to never gane any of this weight back

Today is my 1 year post op anniversary.  I am 145 pounds down from my beginning weight , 118 pounds down from my pre-op weight.  I am down 7-8 sizes down and only 55 pounds away from my goal weight.  I am so happy I decided to do this surgery.  i feel so much better both physically and socially.  I am much more outgoing and I look forward to doing different things again.  I still have have a lot of weight to lose and I am no where near where I wanted to be at one year but I am so much closer than I was a year.  I enjoy coming through the parking lot and not being out of breath when I make it to the entrance.  I enjoy putting on my husbands shirts and they are to big (I have not gotten smaller than he, but I am on my way), I enjoy going to the stores and shopping in the misses sizes or the smallest sizes in the womens section.  I enjoy being able to wear my small friends clothes and it fit.  I enjoy playing with my kids and not getting tired.  i enjoy being able to wear high heels again.  I enjoy dancing all the time.  I enjoy people saying how nice I look.  I enjoy that when I go grocery shopping my back does not kill me after only walking a couple isles down.  I enjoy being able to wear my sister's shoe size and taking all her gorgoous shoes.  I enjoy going out again with my family when I visit home and not being embarrassed.   I enjoy the way my husband looks at me.  I enjoy how my husband and me are together.  I enjoy that I am not the fat friend anymore.   I enjoy LIFE.  THANK YOU GOD FOR YOUR BLESSING. 

well it is has been a little while since I blogged.  I am now 11 months post op.  I have been getting complaments everywhere and it is so nice for people to stop me and tell me that I look great and that they can't believe I still need to lose anymore.  I still am huge and I am finding myself going back into my old habits of eating too much.  i was eating a thin crust pizza which I usually can only eat a slice or two of the small cut pizza, yesterday before I knew it I had ate almost half of the pizza.  I don't want to go back into the old habit and I want to continue to stop when I feel full.  I am enjoying my new look and I am enjoying how I am feeling  My dr. wants me to lose about 30 more pounds by our 1 year visit.  I am so afraid that I want lose it.  I have not lost one pound this month, I have not gain but I have not lost anything.  I need to get this weight off and more imporatly I need to keep it off.  Oh well, I need to get back on track   I am still loving the way I look in my clothes.  I still want to be down in a size 14 and I am now in a 18 and a few 16s.  I will make it.  I also have a little more courage.  I am stepping out and trying to apply for different jobs and head up the offices costume party.  Before I could not find any costums and when we had hawaii day I could not fit in the grass skirts and my boss purchased a few plus size shirts and I had to attached 2 of them together to make one skirt for me. Now, I am looking forward to all these events.  Please don't let me gain any of this weight back and let me finally get to the 100s

Well today was my 9 month checkup.  It is hard to believe it has been 9 months.  Anyway, I had lost 30 more pounds from my last dr. visit at 6 months.  She wants me to lose another 30 pounds or so.  I want to lose that next 30 pounds so bad.  she seemed happy with my progress.  i am 60% down in bodyfat.  I think I should have been 70% so that is disappointing to me but again she seemed pleased.  I have to do better with my protein intake and my vitamins but my labs came out fine.  Anyway, I am loving the new me.  I can't wait to see me goal and prayfully I will be down to a really nice size by my sister's wedding in March.  Eventhough, I have to order the dress by Oct. or Nov.  My NP Showed me a picture of myself again when I first came in and she said she can not believe that was the same person.  I love that everyone is liking and noticing my weight loss but I still am seeing that fat woman and I still want to be in a size 14 at least.  I have 2 more sizes to go and I need to get back into my excersise again.  I think that will make a difference in how fast I will lose this weight.  anyway that is my update down 136 pounds from the beginning weight and 110 pounds down from my surgery weight.

I went to a party last night and I had on a nice outfit and some High Heels and I stayed on the dance floor all day.  It felt good to be the one on the dance floor and not just sitting down watching everyone else. 

the bad news is that I have not worked out in 2 weeks and I have noticed that I can eat much more.  From this point on I will get back on track.  thank god I have not gained any weight but I have not lost any either so if I want to get this weight off I got to get back on track.