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I've intentionally kept myself away from OH for quite a while now... seemed like I always felt a little less secure in my decision to have surgery after I read all the *outrage* and *scandal* that seems to grip the message board with some regularity. That said, after a couple of trying months looking for a job and a lot of frustration with my irritable stomach, I'm finally seeing the silver lining. It's been just over five months since I had surgery and I've lost almost 100 lbs. This is an estimate since I only check my weight once a month and its been all over the place given the variety of scales I've weighed myself on recently. I'm getting more committed to going to the gym and I hope that if anything I'll gain a few pounds (from MUSCLE baby!) back. I didn't set out to lose weight this fast but I was pretty bad about learning the eatslowlychewcarefully lesson so I fell back on a liquid diet quite a lot. Just recently my tummy has settled down and I've even been able to enjoy a beer without horrendously gassy consequences! Quite exciting considering Portland is such a home-brew loving town. I still have trouble with greasy foods though so I have to keep fighting that urge. Ultimately what I "crave" usually tastes kind of dead in my mouth... anyone else experience this? I was never a sugar or carb fiend but I did enjoy rich foods so its been hard adjusting to the fact that my body doesn't really want, let alone need them anymore... nevermind what my brain thinks would be good to eat! Hopefully the bumper crop of veggies from my garden this summer will steer me in the right direction. If anyone is interested PM me, I've got this FABULOUS pesto recipe and basil is still ripe for the picking in the PacNW!

I'm two weeks out as of tomorrow. I've lost 30 lbs. I've been hanging out with my parents in my home town (Austin) during my recoup and really enjoying the quality time I've been so denied since those brats my sisters came into this world! (I do love my sisters... mostly :p) SO WHY AM I SO DOWN?
I know, I know. It's the hormones. Its a period of adjustment. It's also just driving me frigging nuts that I can't shove something greasy and delicious down my gullet! I've never been that big of a fried-foods fan but this last week I can hardly keep my mind from lusting for them non-stop. The problem with Austin is that it is a land of sumptuous delectable foods that I cannot eat! Between the wafting aromas of barbeque, TexMex, and other assorted meaty and/or fried things downtown I've preferred to stay close to home where my mother has graciously managed to hide the eating of all solid foods from me thus far! Gotta say, without mom... well, lets just say this could have been MUCH worse.
I've also been feeling really tired and achy for the last four or five days and its getting to me. My whole adjustment to the lifestyle hasn't been so easy. I still ache in my bones for foods that are a total no-no. The other night I woke up from a nightmare in which I'd eaten a cheeseburger! gasp! the horror! It made me feel kinda silly that the boogey-man of my dreams is now the oh-so-seductive cheeseburger...
My point being, I'm feeling a little panicky that I can't have any normal food yet and everything on the "full liquids" list has been giving me diarrhea/heartburn/sour stomach. My eyes, my head, they want the chicken fried steak. My stomach? My stomach freaks out if I add anything  remotely exciting to the palate. The result is that I despair this scary life-altering choice I've made even though I'm doing pretty great and have lost a lot of weight. What a whiner eh?

Edit: now I have a real pic! hooray! and I've finally added my "before" pics and a few of my surgeon and the hospital room in Piedras Negras.