Big2lil Daisy

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I know, I know I am awful and I should be ashamed of myself for not keeping up with my blog, pictures, and youtube videos but what can I say? I have been living life and I am happy. These last months I have been getting my life back, I have started to live the life that I had been wanting to live, getting the reactions, head turning and even envious stares that I had been craving. I will admit there have been hard, bad and amazing times. I have had to learn to say no, to cry over my emotions and say no to food. I have also have had to deal with nasty stares, remarks and inquires but i have stayed my ground and I have defended this procedure with the family that criticized me and lied thru my teeth to the people that had no business knowing about the life changing decision that I took. I can say that the vertical sleeve has been the best 10 G's I have ever spent..... I still have lots  to lose but I am on board until I reach 130 even if it means slow and steady.
Recap and stats

start weight 250
today's weight 169
Goal weight 130

yes that is 81 pounds in less than 8 months! damn I feel amazing and I look amazing no matter what others say!!!!!

If you are staring this journey: Get ready! you will have people that will encourage you, envy you, criticize you and even compete with you! For some reason all my friends including my husband( we will get to this later) has been tracking there weight, comparing and losing weight with me! Sometimes I feel good and OK with that but sometimes it gets to me because I can tell they are competitive about it.
Yes you will get the head turning looks and even you are getting too skinny and How much are you going to lose?

Oh and DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU CAN LOSE ALL THAT WEIGHT?
Excuse my language but FUCK YES I AM LOSING THIS DAMN WEIGHT, sit there shut up and watch me do it! 

But anyways on a happier note.....

I mentioned HUSBAND...... Yes until now I had been living with my fiance  but as of Aug tweentyseventh 2011 I am MRS. DE OLIVEIRA , YAY. I will say that I was torn with the fact of waiting to lose all my weight but at the end I decided it was better to go ahead and get married. But I wont lie there were dress issues but nothing major. it involved some sly remarks from the dress consultants and having to explain how I thought I was going to lose x amount by x date, eye rolling, crossing my fingers I lost enough and then ending up having to get the dress fitted a couple of days before the wedding due to it being big. But at the end of the day, It all worked out great and I am happy with the end results, married at goal or not! 

My weight lose has slowed down and these last 2 months it has slowed to about 5-6 pounds a month but I will take it and run with it.

Goals:
Next goal was 160 by my 26Th birthday which is the middle of December but I have decided to change that to 150 as it would mark -100 pounds and I don't think I could ask for a better Birthday gift! We shall see!!!!!!!

this is pretty much it for now, I will try to post more now that the wedding frenzy has passed.

Good luck to all the newbies and remember don't be scared'.Its a life changing decision and a good one at that! 


 Happy Losing! 

 So as of yesterday I am two weeks post op! I know I should be happy, but seeing as though, I did not lose anything since the last time I weighed in, I am not a happy camper. I know..... everyone has stalls but this early on is just plain sad. I know this to will pass, as did my pre op diet and surgery date and everything that I have encountered on this journey . But as the whinnier I am, I cant help but rant.  Yes, I am upset. Stupid scale did not move! it must be broken! ...... I think that I will feel better once I hit my onderland and then I will feel like this is really going to work, after all i don't have much to go.

Full liquids?????

I must say that the first days after surgery I really did not have desire to eat but then came the clear liquids and then I began to feel better and the fear of eating and it hurting wore off. Now I am left with anxiety and fear that this will not work and temptations to not chew or eat solid food with the  fear that I have eaten something that will cause a leak. I must admit that I have felt that pressure that comes from eating to fast and too much. But for me that feeling does not last long and I will say that again I have the desire to eat  more. should I call this real hunge or  mind hunger ? Does  It also may have to do with my sleeve opening getting stuck and the food not filling my stomach and then when it does go down i feel like I could eat again? I should email my doc and ask him! 
Any comments/similar issues.

I have posted on the forum and looked for more variations to this liquid diet but I feel that everything is boring, dull and want to have real food again. I have had jello with  cottage cheese and Greek yogurt even tough I should not, but it taste like heaven. you know what they say the grass is always greener on the other side!!!!!  I always want what i can't have, the story of my life. lol
Please send me some recipes.

Taste???

Yes, my taste has changed and I almost feel that I have detoxified because can smell better and when I eat premade foods I can taste the chemicals. Take jell-o for instance, I had premade jello and I swear it had a horrible chemical taste, but then I bought the powder and made some and it taste fresh and really good.

Soup anyone?

I bought premade broccoli and cheese soup at Kroger thinking it would be God sent, but no! I could actually taste the plastic, it tasted just like the container, PLASTIC!!!!!  Am I crazy,????? I think not! 

The question is will this go away and when?
My prediction? When I start eating all the junk food and eat solid  foods again.
What do you think?

Well this is the end of my nonsense and I hope that it has been informative and if not feel free to ask me about my experience so far and I will post a response.

Follow me @ big2lildaisy on you tube

Weighed myself on Monday and I was

228.00 pounds
this means a total weight lose of 20 since my pre op diet.

20 pounds in 17 days! I will take it and run!!!!!! 

I am so proud of myself, i held back the tears and took the plunge and am 20 pounds lighter already! 

today, Thursday  I went back to work and found a nice bouquet of flowers and a get well soon card on my desk. that was a real nice gesture on my coworkers behalf. 

I do feel tired and my back has been hurting. I brought my heating pad and am rotating it from my belly to my back. lol It does help! I am posting this from work and still have more than half of the day to go! Wish me luck hopefully tomorrow there will be less pain involved.

FYI I did have issue getting in my water and proteins this first week. i think mostly to the lack of a schedule and having family at my house. today I purchased some nectar roadside lemonade, fuzzy navel and will be getting the unjury medical protein to add to any soups etc that i may have. I purchased the Isopure strawberry and cream and I must say that it was GOd AWFUL! it tasted like really bad slim fast, thank God I got it at GNC and was able to return it.

Just wanted to thank everyone for the support and let you know I am ok. I had a long trip back home from mexico and got in late last night. Ive been sleeping most of the day and have no energy. I have posted a video on you tube from the hotel in san antonio when I was feeling better.

I will post once I feel better.

Pre op diet 248
surgery weight 240
3-2-11 weight @ discharge 235
3-7-11 weight 2??

Im alive and pretty well.

Watch me @ youtube Big2lildaisy
Soon you can see pics and the video I made with Dr. A

Let the weight lose officially begin!!!!!! 

When I started this journey (recently), when I inquired about surgery I was 245!!!! After getting my surgery date and so on I guess I started to binge eat and went up to 250. As of Thursday night before bed I was 248, and today after only 3 days of liquids I am......... 
                         241!!!!

this is 7 pounds in just 3 days!!!! Amazing

I want to thank all of the wonderful people who are following my journey here on OH and also on you tube under Big2lildaisy!!!!! thanks for all the posts and comments!

I will keep everyone updated on this journey!!!!!!! 
FYI with all honesty I have to say I have cheated, Lil bits of things like ham and chicken.NO fats and a couple of GRAINS of rice!!!! lol
 I've got my eye on the prize and ready for this challenge!!!! 

I am officially 10 days from my Surgery!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, this is becoming a reality, a really scary one at that!!!!! I have major nerves, tons of second guessing this surgery, and also ready to go!!!!!!

I have never had any surgeries, major nor out patient. I was very decided on not ever getting any surgery but this one just had to give. I really want to lose this weight and look good!!!!! I have SO many mixed feelings today. I have decided to do a 2-3 shake day with lost of fluids so that I don't get hungry. I thought all was good but then lunch hour came I did good, did not stop any where and went shopping for water bottles!!!! Lol then I came back and all my co workers were taking about was pizza,cheese,cookies and had taco beel of their desks. Major deceptions with my water bottles... oh well!!!! I am sticking in this and am trying to keep busy (writing this blog) and waiting for the day to be over and go home. I think this will be the real challenge. I have already told my partner to eat before he gets home so that I wont be tempted but I still have to feed my son, so I'm praying for self control and will try to keep my eyes on the prize.

I don't know if I am going over board with this whole nervous thing but I have looked into making a will and am pretty determined to get it done this weekend. I have had some nightmares and am also dreaming about being skinny. So many mixed emoticons.

I will post again next week on Wednesday to document how my liquid diet is going.

Health and/or to avoid other health complications from being overweight. Going pee less Have regular instead of Irregular periods Improve my appearance. Cancer coming back or getting another kind To fit into my kids desks at school at a back to school night or other functions To have people not stare at me To gain more confidence Goal: be able to run 3 miles without stopping So that the cloth in the thigh area doesn’t wear away long before the rest of the slacks or jeans do To fit on an airplane ride comfortably To be able to do physical activities easily To not have to get a special “Halloween costume” To fit into a theatre/bus/sport/whatever seat without spilling over and without having to see “that look” from the person who has to sit beside you. To have GREAT sex! :) To not think people are laughing or talking about me. To buy clothes in a normal store and actually get clothes with some style to them that fit correctly. To have more energy! To be able to tie my shoes To be able to give myself a pedicure and paint toenails. To be able to sit on a floor and get up gracefully. To wear a bathing suit without a skirt attached To cross my legs or sit Indian style. To feel good about myself. So my ankles won’t swell. To fit into a booth at any restaurant. To not turn beet red after moderate exertion. To be able to pick something up off the floor. Panty Hose that fit! To go to an amusement park and ride the rides. To go to a water park and not have to worry about the “weight limits” To be able to sit in any chair without worry of breakage. To not have to apologize when caught in a narrow aisle and have someone need to get by. To be able to go horseback riding To not worry about rashes and sweating. To not have to listen to “caring” people ask why don’t you diet or worse still… “you have such a pretty face”. To not worry about spilling food, sauces or gravy down the front of my blouse/dress/shirt when eating (having a shelf). To not have to think up some excuse for not doing something because I know my weight will impede me. To not have my belly hit the steering wheel and to be able to fit comfortably in the driver’s seat. To have a bra fit comfortably and be sexy To be able to buy underwear sets at Victoria’s Secret rather than at a “plus size store” or wear  string bikini and look good. To not have to worry about the weight limit of step stools, ladders, exercise equipment, etc. To not get stuck in a turn style. To not wake up feeling achy in the back or to have ache free legs and feet. So the bathroom scale won’t creak and groan when I step on it. To not have to buy the “extra weight” scale because it only goes to 300 pounds To be able to leave the tablecloth on the table at a restaurant instead of dragging it with me when I get up. So I won’t look the other way when I see myself in a monitor where they have security cameras. To never be embarrassed about my size. To not have to wait for the handicap stall when there are plenty of other stalls available because I know I wont fit in the “regular” size one. To not be more out of shape than some seniors. To not break or crack the toilet seat when leaning to one side. To try to make a double chin and fail Buy clothing bargains to fit the next year … and they do Not to have to worry about plastic zippers or having my pants bust open. Normal waistbands rather than elastic To wear knee socks correctly instead of worn like slouches To look good in a tee shirt To be able to get close to sink and not come away with a wet belly To get out of a stuffed chair gracefully and not look down to see if the chair has come up with me To not worry if the hairdresser’s smock will fit To not be self-conscious about eating in front of others To not be afraid to ask which hairstyle suits my face To not have people checking me out after looking in my grocery cart at the store. To have my friends not be embarrassed to be seen with me. Pants that stay up because my waist is smaller than my butt To not have the fear of being rejected To not worry about how to get in and out of the back seat in a two door car One size fits all and it fits me To have a lap To be able to use toilet paper as it was meant to be used and not to have to invent ways to “get the job done”. To be able to get between cars in a parking lot without wiping the dust off with my belly and butt. No more heat rashes and chafing in the upper thighs or under my boobs To not take fat references and fat jokes personally To be able to cross my arms across my chest without them resting on my stomach To have my feet get smaller. To be able to borrow a co-worker’s jacket for an important meeting or because its cold in my office To see my reflection in a mirror or store window without getting disgusted To wear a watch or bracelet with a regular length To look in the mirror when getting my hair cut without thinking I have a fat face To not mind getting my picture taken. To not mind going to the doctor and getting “weighed” in. To wake up each morning feeling energized and ready to go. To not even worry about squeezing into small spaces. To not have to enter an elevator and check the weight limit when riding with others To be able to walk any distance without looking for a bench to sit on. To look forward to shopping and just trying on clothes! To not feel lower than low when an innocent child remarks about my size To buy something online and having it fit when it gets to me To wear heels longer and feet not hurt so much because of all the weight I hold To be the “hot friend” instead of the “fat friend” Enjoy my kids more and being able to do more with them To not have my knees hurt Firm up muscle tone I want to sit on my hubby’s lap and not feel heavy To get a piggy back ride   To drive my wonderful husband crazy (in a good way!!! grin) I want to be a good example to my kids To live longer   To avoid repeating history

18 days till surgery!!!!!!! Yay for me! Yay for Vsg! Yay for WLS! Yay for Dr. Alvarez!!!!!! LOL

So I went ahead and purchased a 5lb packet of EAS whey protein (chocolate) @ Bj's since it was less than GNC, etc. I paid around $26.00 for it, not bad right?. It does have a little more calories and about 2g of carbs more than the Legendary Nectar shakes but I thought it would be good for the pre op liquid diet and easier on my pocket. 

Feed back please!!!!! The Good and the Bad........

Anyways I have been drinking this in the morning, two cups with non fat milk and a bit of instant coffee. Yummy says my tummy. My mom suggested I should ease into my liquid phase and I figured that it would be good since I will starting all liquid in a bit. Also, I have purchased the majority of things I will be taking on my trip, plane tickets, and all.

Ready for this month to end and be sleeved already!!!!!!!!! 

Alright I finally got Dr. Alvarez's  book, surgery docs, and my doctors note for work, today. I read some of the book last night and then I looked at the info packet, that  I got from susan and alot of the book is in it. Its ok I spent money on it but I do have a pic of Dr. Alvarez and the book to show off to family so they can relax about the trip and surgery! 

It's friday and its Feb. and I am actually more excited to skip Valentines day and get to the end of this month and get this surgery out of the way! 


I will be starting my pre op diet (Clear liquid) on the 18th (10 days total) and I am nervous about this. I mean 800-1000 calories for this fat A** and then clear liquids is hard. Not to meantion the whole, "your surgery and your life depends on you doing the diet due to a fatty liver". I guess this will be a hard time and I am praying for support. My biggest fear is not being able to stick to it and having complications due to it during surgery! I should be ok and I guess that the warning was meant more for those that dont even try to stick to it, atleast thats what I keep trying to believe.


Wish me Luck! 

Daisy

24 days till my surgery! 

Yesterday I went and got some sample packets of vanilla, strawberry, and chocolate Isolate Whey Protein with 26 grams of protein. Today I had the strawberry and it was OK. It tasted like the nasty slim fast shakes but I was surprised that it look longer for me to drink and actually satisfied me. I also got a protein bar from my boss:Pure Protein 20G (chocolate chip) I started it this morning and have yet to finish it @ 4:02 in the afternoon. The texture and feeling reminds me of a grainy cookie dough kind of dry but OK. Overall I think that the protein does satisfy me and maybe even curves my appetite. I will be looking into more options and maybe ordering some of the Nectar protein shakes. 
I still haven't gotten my next step email and am getting more anxious!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

25 more days till my flight leaves and  26 days til my VSG