Big Diva
Wow... has it really been that long???
Mar 11, 2007
Wow!
I didn't realize it's been soooo long since I've updated!
Nothing much is new but yet at the same time everything is new!
Life is good. My health is great! My energy level is higher than it's been in a long time.
But... at 10 months out, my weight loss is at a standstill! I've been gaining and losing the same 4 pounds for the past month.
I know that part of the reason why is because I'm eating too many carbs and I'm not exercising as hard as I should be. But on the upside, I've been getting back on track with exercise in the past week, thanks to a friend of mine giving me his treadmill! I'm trying to work my way up to being able to jog, but I've got a looonnngg way to go! I've also been riding my bike a bit.
So, when I look back on the past 10 months and ask myself if I'd do it all over again, what would my answer be at this point? YES! Without a doubt! The gift of having this tool is more than I can find words for, but it is just that... a tool. I can choose to use the tool to the best of my ability, or I can abuse the tool subconsciously. It's all up to me. Although the struggle to continue losing weight is getting harder, I know I can do this if I stay focused.
Until next time...
Treats or Tricks??
Oct 29, 2006
On this day before Halloween and about a week before my 6 month surgiversery, I'm dealing with the fear of my weight loss slowing down.
It seems that everywhere I read, I hear post-ops folks saying how the weight loss really slows down at about 6 months.
Diva ain't got time for this fat to be lingering around!! Hmph, the nerve of my fat thinking that it's going to linger around after I've risked my life to have this surgery!
So, now I've got to have a "come to Jesus" meeting with myself and plan my method of attacking this "6 month, weight loss slowing down" thing.
I know deep down that regardless of what folks say and what others experience that my body is different. I also know that even though I can eat more than I could 3 months ago, it's totally up to me what I decide to put in my mouth. Heck, now when I think about it, I actually have more control over what I put in my mouth than what comes out of it sometimes!!
I'm so very afraid of failure and the disdain that will come for folks who felt as if I shouldn't have had the surgery to begin with. I'm afraid that a year from now I'll still be over 200 pounds. I'm afraid that I'll never get the opprotunity to wear a size 12 or 14.
I'll spend this week channeling all my "fears" into "methods" that will get me to my weight loss goal. I'll spend this week keeping a log of what I eat and how many calories I'm burning in the gym. I'll committ to forcing myself to complete 30 minutes and that damn elliptical machine even when I feel as if I can't stand 1 more minute of it.
I can do this (with the help of God.) I've just gotta believe and take action.
It seems that everywhere I read, I hear post-ops folks saying how the weight loss really slows down at about 6 months.
Diva ain't got time for this fat to be lingering around!! Hmph, the nerve of my fat thinking that it's going to linger around after I've risked my life to have this surgery!
So, now I've got to have a "come to Jesus" meeting with myself and plan my method of attacking this "6 month, weight loss slowing down" thing.
I know deep down that regardless of what folks say and what others experience that my body is different. I also know that even though I can eat more than I could 3 months ago, it's totally up to me what I decide to put in my mouth. Heck, now when I think about it, I actually have more control over what I put in my mouth than what comes out of it sometimes!!
I'm so very afraid of failure and the disdain that will come for folks who felt as if I shouldn't have had the surgery to begin with. I'm afraid that a year from now I'll still be over 200 pounds. I'm afraid that I'll never get the opprotunity to wear a size 12 or 14.
I'll spend this week channeling all my "fears" into "methods" that will get me to my weight loss goal. I'll spend this week keeping a log of what I eat and how many calories I'm burning in the gym. I'll committ to forcing myself to complete 30 minutes and that damn elliptical machine even when I feel as if I can't stand 1 more minute of it.
I can do this (with the help of God.) I've just gotta believe and take action.
300lb woman no more!
Sep 23, 2006
9/24/2006
Gosh, I really didn’t realize that it’s been so long since I posted. I’m 4 months our now and down 70 pounds! As of today I can finally say that I’m not a 300lb woman. At this morning’s weigh in, the scale read 298! What a blessing. I’ve been struggling to lose 3 pounds for the entire month of September. Part of the problem has been that I haven’t been doing any exercise. (I’m still dealing with the blood clot in my leg. The doctor advised me not to do any exercise for the first few weeks. Last week he gave me the go ahead to do any kind of cardio that I wanted.)
I’m trying to recommit myself to going to the gym. Whoever said that going to the gym would become something that I want to do was sadly mistaken. But, I am determined to be at 268lbs by mid December. I’ve gone to the gym faithfully for the past couple of days and I’m planning on resuming my aqua aerobics class on tomorrow.
Eating isn’t a struggle for me. Sadly, neither is eating sugar. Sugar doesn’t case me to dump (damn, I really wish that it did.) And I still crave carbs. But I’m doing much better at planning my meal around protein.
It’s been an interesting journey so far. I’ve lost a really good friend of mine along the way. That saddens me. But I made a decision to step away from the friendship because she wasn’t at all supportive and seemingly became a bit intimidated by my notion to do something about my weight.
I celebrated my recent weight loss accomplishments by doing a little bit of shopping. I bought myself a few coach bags, and spent the rest of the day in Lane Bryant. The mere notion that I can actually wear things from there excite me as I haven’t been able to shop in Lane Bryant for almost 6 years. I’ve gone from a size 34 to a size 26. I’m so thrilled and I owe it all to God!
Well until next time…
Gosh, I really didn’t realize that it’s been so long since I posted. I’m 4 months our now and down 70 pounds! As of today I can finally say that I’m not a 300lb woman. At this morning’s weigh in, the scale read 298! What a blessing. I’ve been struggling to lose 3 pounds for the entire month of September. Part of the problem has been that I haven’t been doing any exercise. (I’m still dealing with the blood clot in my leg. The doctor advised me not to do any exercise for the first few weeks. Last week he gave me the go ahead to do any kind of cardio that I wanted.)
I’m trying to recommit myself to going to the gym. Whoever said that going to the gym would become something that I want to do was sadly mistaken. But, I am determined to be at 268lbs by mid December. I’ve gone to the gym faithfully for the past couple of days and I’m planning on resuming my aqua aerobics class on tomorrow.
Eating isn’t a struggle for me. Sadly, neither is eating sugar. Sugar doesn’t case me to dump (damn, I really wish that it did.) And I still crave carbs. But I’m doing much better at planning my meal around protein.
It’s been an interesting journey so far. I’ve lost a really good friend of mine along the way. That saddens me. But I made a decision to step away from the friendship because she wasn’t at all supportive and seemingly became a bit intimidated by my notion to do something about my weight.
I celebrated my recent weight loss accomplishments by doing a little bit of shopping. I bought myself a few coach bags, and spent the rest of the day in Lane Bryant. The mere notion that I can actually wear things from there excite me as I haven’t been able to shop in Lane Bryant for almost 6 years. I’ve gone from a size 34 to a size 26. I’m so thrilled and I owe it all to God!
Well until next time…
What you say? I'm over coagulating???
Aug 28, 2006
8/29/2006
Well, what’s new with me? A blood clot in my leg!!! According to my doctor, the clot wasn’t caused by my WLS but was caused by the birth control pills that I started about 3 weeks ago. I’ve taken birth control pills most of my adult life and never had a problem. I stopped them prior to having WLS, but then started them again last month. Well I guess the changes in my body combined with my age caused the pills to give me a clot! I’ve been restricted to complete bed rest for the next week or so and I’ve been restricted from climbing stairs. I never realized that a blood clot could be so painful!!!
My weight loss is going slowly as I’m not not able to go to the gym. But, I’m only 6 pounds away from being less than 300 pounds! That’s a significant milestone for me! I’ll have to figure out a way to celebrate!
Well, what’s new with me? A blood clot in my leg!!! According to my doctor, the clot wasn’t caused by my WLS but was caused by the birth control pills that I started about 3 weeks ago. I’ve taken birth control pills most of my adult life and never had a problem. I stopped them prior to having WLS, but then started them again last month. Well I guess the changes in my body combined with my age caused the pills to give me a clot! I’ve been restricted to complete bed rest for the next week or so and I’ve been restricted from climbing stairs. I never realized that a blood clot could be so painful!!!
My weight loss is going slowly as I’m not not able to go to the gym. But, I’m only 6 pounds away from being less than 300 pounds! That’s a significant milestone for me! I’ll have to figure out a way to celebrate!
Where have I been?
Jul 21, 2006
7/22/2006
Wow… I didn’t realize that I hadn’t updated my profile in such a long time. Thanks Allison for bringing this to my attention! I promise to do a better job at keeping my profile updated.
Well not much is new. Work has been keeping me way busy and makes it hard for me to workout at the gym in which I’m paying so much to be a member. I’m hoping that power walking through airports while pulling a carry on bag counts as exercise!
Work is slowing down a bit, so now I can begin on focusing on me and my health. So far I’m down 50 pounds. I’ve yet to find anything food wise that I can’t tolerate. I’m having a real hard time getting in enough protein mainly because I’ve only found 2 protein supplements that are palatable and I’ve had so much of both of them that I’m now sick of them.
People around me are starting to see the physical changes. Seems like more men are taking notice (or maybe it’s all in my head.) I am able to get into some clothes that I haven’t been able to wear in years. I’m real excited about that! I went out and purchased a halter top that is a little snug right now, but I think that it will fit in a few weeks. (I just hope that I get the nerve to wear it with the big ole arms of mine!)
Wow… I didn’t realize that I hadn’t updated my profile in such a long time. Thanks Allison for bringing this to my attention! I promise to do a better job at keeping my profile updated.
Well not much is new. Work has been keeping me way busy and makes it hard for me to workout at the gym in which I’m paying so much to be a member. I’m hoping that power walking through airports while pulling a carry on bag counts as exercise!
Work is slowing down a bit, so now I can begin on focusing on me and my health. So far I’m down 50 pounds. I’ve yet to find anything food wise that I can’t tolerate. I’m having a real hard time getting in enough protein mainly because I’ve only found 2 protein supplements that are palatable and I’ve had so much of both of them that I’m now sick of them.
People around me are starting to see the physical changes. Seems like more men are taking notice (or maybe it’s all in my head.) I am able to get into some clothes that I haven’t been able to wear in years. I’m real excited about that! I went out and purchased a halter top that is a little snug right now, but I think that it will fit in a few weeks. (I just hope that I get the nerve to wear it with the big ole arms of mine!)
Get it moving girlie!
Jun 19, 2006
6/20/2006
Well life is going pretty well. I’m feeling better and on most days I have a lot more energy than I’ve had in years. I’ve kicked the exercise up a notch and now walk about 1.5 miles at least 4 times a week. I’m now down to 332.3lbs and my body still seems to be retaining water. My ankles are almost always slightly swollen. My primary doctor and my surgeon both say that it’s normal and that my body will adjust in due time. I can now wear some of the clothes that I haven’t been able to wear in a while so that makes me happy on days in which I don’t feel that great about how much weight I’ve lost so far. (I know, 30 plus pounds in less than two months is something to be celebrated, but I just feel like I’ve should have lost more.) Well, I guess that’s it for now. Until next time, Be Blessed!
Well life is going pretty well. I’m feeling better and on most days I have a lot more energy than I’ve had in years. I’ve kicked the exercise up a notch and now walk about 1.5 miles at least 4 times a week. I’m now down to 332.3lbs and my body still seems to be retaining water. My ankles are almost always slightly swollen. My primary doctor and my surgeon both say that it’s normal and that my body will adjust in due time. I can now wear some of the clothes that I haven’t been able to wear in a while so that makes me happy on days in which I don’t feel that great about how much weight I’ve lost so far. (I know, 30 plus pounds in less than two months is something to be celebrated, but I just feel like I’ve should have lost more.) Well, I guess that’s it for now. Until next time, Be Blessed!
Get off my duff dammit!
Jun 06, 2006
6/7/2006
Nothing much going on with me. I haven't kicked up the exercise like I should have, so I'm not losing weight like I should. I've got to focus on that, but I've just started going back to work and it seems like I'm already more busy that I really need to be at this point. I'm eating regular food (have been for about 2 weeks). I'm really ready to attempt a salad but I figure i need to wait a while longer for that.
Overall, life is getting back to normal. I just have to exercise. Water isn't a challenge for me anymore (and that's a good thing.)
Nothing much going on with me. I haven't kicked up the exercise like I should have, so I'm not losing weight like I should. I've got to focus on that, but I've just started going back to work and it seems like I'm already more busy that I really need to be at this point. I'm eating regular food (have been for about 2 weeks). I'm really ready to attempt a salad but I figure i need to wait a while longer for that.
Overall, life is getting back to normal. I just have to exercise. Water isn't a challenge for me anymore (and that's a good thing.)
I gotta pee!
May 24, 2006
5/25/2006
Well, had my 3 week post op appointment with my surgeon today. Everything is fine with the exception that my primary doctor did a urinalysis a few days ago and discovered ketones and protein in my urine.
My surgeon states that this is normal and that happens sometimes when we don’t drink enough water. So, I’m going to make an attempt to get at least 80oz of water a day. My primary doctor has me on antibiotics for the next 5 days just to clear out any infections that might be brewing.
The surgeon is pleased overall with my progress. I am not that excited about my progress. I’m now down to 341.5lbs (which is 22.5lbs down from my pre-surgery weight) and I’ve been cleared to exercise on the elliptical.
I guess because the weight is coming off slowly and because of the issue of protein being in my urine, I’m a bit worried about what the future holds for me. Sometimes I wonder if having the surgery was the right thing to do (especially having it without signifigant co morbidities.)
I guess I thought that the weight would drop off a bit quicker. I guess I thought I’d be seeing a bit of a difference in how my clothes fit.
Well… I’ll kick the water and the exercise up a notch and see what happens.
Well, had my 3 week post op appointment with my surgeon today. Everything is fine with the exception that my primary doctor did a urinalysis a few days ago and discovered ketones and protein in my urine.
My surgeon states that this is normal and that happens sometimes when we don’t drink enough water. So, I’m going to make an attempt to get at least 80oz of water a day. My primary doctor has me on antibiotics for the next 5 days just to clear out any infections that might be brewing.
The surgeon is pleased overall with my progress. I am not that excited about my progress. I’m now down to 341.5lbs (which is 22.5lbs down from my pre-surgery weight) and I’ve been cleared to exercise on the elliptical.
I guess because the weight is coming off slowly and because of the issue of protein being in my urine, I’m a bit worried about what the future holds for me. Sometimes I wonder if having the surgery was the right thing to do (especially having it without signifigant co morbidities.)
I guess I thought that the weight would drop off a bit quicker. I guess I thought I’d be seeing a bit of a difference in how my clothes fit.
Well… I’ll kick the water and the exercise up a notch and see what happens.
I just wanna lay down now.
May 12, 2006
5/13/2006
Well… I’m nine days post-op!!! I’ve already lost 17.5lbs!!
Had my first follow up with my surgeon on yesterday. He says that I’m looking really good and really doing well. The only problem that I’m dealing with now is the extreme tiredness. I’m so exhausted!!! I advised my surgeon of this and he keeps reminding me that I had major surgery a little over a week ago, and that I’m probably deal with being tired for about 2 months.
I asked him when I can start going to the gym, he says that I can start in about a month or so.
I’m not having any pain. I am having problems sleeping at night (it seems it a little hard to get comfortable.)
I’ve started my protein and supplements today. I’m learning that it’s really hard to get the all the protein and the water in over a course of the day.
I’m not hungry at all. I’m kinda forcing myself to eat. But I am dealing with head hunger. Right now I really wish that I could have a slice of pizza or some country fried steak. Damn. And with my mom being her visiting and cooking up all these yummy things, well she ain’t making it any better.
I didn’t walk my usual ½ mile yesterday because I was just to tired. (Went to Walmart after my appointment. Going to Walmart is like going to an event… not like just running in the store and running out. Was there for 2 hours and it really took a toll on my energy level.)
Anyways… guess that’s all for now! Until next time.
Well… I’m nine days post-op!!! I’ve already lost 17.5lbs!!
Had my first follow up with my surgeon on yesterday. He says that I’m looking really good and really doing well. The only problem that I’m dealing with now is the extreme tiredness. I’m so exhausted!!! I advised my surgeon of this and he keeps reminding me that I had major surgery a little over a week ago, and that I’m probably deal with being tired for about 2 months.
I asked him when I can start going to the gym, he says that I can start in about a month or so.
I’m not having any pain. I am having problems sleeping at night (it seems it a little hard to get comfortable.)
I’ve started my protein and supplements today. I’m learning that it’s really hard to get the all the protein and the water in over a course of the day.
I’m not hungry at all. I’m kinda forcing myself to eat. But I am dealing with head hunger. Right now I really wish that I could have a slice of pizza or some country fried steak. Damn. And with my mom being her visiting and cooking up all these yummy things, well she ain’t making it any better.
I didn’t walk my usual ½ mile yesterday because I was just to tired. (Went to Walmart after my appointment. Going to Walmart is like going to an event… not like just running in the store and running out. Was there for 2 hours and it really took a toll on my energy level.)
Anyways… guess that’s all for now! Until next time.
Honey, I'm home!
May 06, 2006
5/7/2006
Yippie!!!!! I’m home!!! Came home around 3:30pm yesterday. The surgery itself went without complications. The pain that I felt after surgery was indescribable!! I usually have a high tolerance for pain, but this pain was nothing like I’ve ever felt before. Luckily, the pain only lasted a few hours and by the time I was moved from recovery and assigned my hospital room, the pain had subsided tremendously.
I thank God for having people that love me around me for support. My mom and my friend Michelle were there for me as soon as I woke up! Nia Prettyface also came to visit me after surgery. I’m so grateful for all of her words of wisdom and inspiration.
H day after surgery, I felt a lot better than I thought that I would! I started walking around the day after surgery. Haven’t had much pain since the day of surgery. The most difficult part of the surgery was taking about the drain!! It didn’t hurt, but was a really, really weird sensation
Eating and drinking has been a big chore. I don’t feel hungry, but after a few bites of anything, I feel as if I’ve had a full thanksgiving dinner! It’s really hard to get in all the liquids, but I’m learning that I’m just going ot have to sip during my waking hours.
Yippie!!!!! I’m home!!! Came home around 3:30pm yesterday. The surgery itself went without complications. The pain that I felt after surgery was indescribable!! I usually have a high tolerance for pain, but this pain was nothing like I’ve ever felt before. Luckily, the pain only lasted a few hours and by the time I was moved from recovery and assigned my hospital room, the pain had subsided tremendously.
I thank God for having people that love me around me for support. My mom and my friend Michelle were there for me as soon as I woke up! Nia Prettyface also came to visit me after surgery. I’m so grateful for all of her words of wisdom and inspiration.
H day after surgery, I felt a lot better than I thought that I would! I started walking around the day after surgery. Haven’t had much pain since the day of surgery. The most difficult part of the surgery was taking about the drain!! It didn’t hurt, but was a really, really weird sensation
Eating and drinking has been a big chore. I don’t feel hungry, but after a few bites of anything, I feel as if I’ve had a full thanksgiving dinner! It’s really hard to get in all the liquids, but I’m learning that I’m just going ot have to sip during my waking hours.
About Me
RALEIGH, NC
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41.3
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Surgery
05/04/2006
Surgery Date
Oct 09, 2003
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