crystalreigns79
7 weeks out
Apr 30, 2008
Wow, it has been 7 weeks since surgery. I have had a few ups and downs. I have found old habits are hard to break. Not so much with what I eat but as to how I eat.
I used to groom dogs which made my eating habits something akin to speed racing. I still try to eat that way even though it's so un-healthy. Now that I have had this surgery, eating like that is NOT ALLOWED! Yet, I still find myself now and then trying to do it, which in turn causes me too.....
!Also, I absolutely have to start making myself cut my food into tiny bites. I think I have everything under control and can maserate my food down to nothing and therefore do not have to worry about swallowing to much, or food that is not chewed thoroughly. Umm, no! Twice in two days I have caused myself great pain and horrid vomiting. Once, while out to eat taking a bite of a chicken soft taco, I bit too much and tried to move the food around and inadvertantly swallowed a un-chewed piece of chicken. I was sooo sick, I thought I would end up in the ER but after about an hour I felt it come up. I went back on liquids most of the next day but that night I though I would try one bite of pasta and a few shrimp. I put to much food in and ended up swallowing a whole piece of shrimp unchewed. Once again , back in the bathroom for about an hour. I have learned my lesson, believe me!!!
I also hit a plateu in my weight loss for about 2 weeks. I only lost 3 pounds and of course I freaked out. I know that it happens and I also know that is when you are losing the most inches but it really messes with your head when you dont see the scale go down. I was going to the gym about 4-5 times a week doing weights and cardio. I discovered through the help of my OH Angel, Karen, that when you work out to much and your not putting enough calories in your body it starts freaking out thinking your trying to kill it . So it holds on to every last calorie you put in. So I started adding a little snack once a day, like nuts or something, and cutting back a bit on my work outs and I have lost 7 pounds in as many days.
Now the good news is I know I lost inches while the scale wasnt moving as fast as I wanted it to because I went down a whole pant size and on the shirts too!! WOO HOO!
I have been happy with my results, I am glad that I am not losing to fast, maybe I wont have to be that concerned about sagging skin! My total weight loss is.....drum roll please.......54lb's! 35 since March 19th.
Later!
Week Two
Apr 02, 2008
I have been very tired over the last couple of days. Also hurting a lot, but I did it to myself so I cant complain....well maybe a little!I have lost 10 pounds this week, making a grand total of 18 pounds in two weeks. WOO HOO!! I have lost a total of 37 pounds since January 7th! Yea!! Not to much to report. I dont want to go back to work, but I know its inevitable. I am up to a mile a day walking, trying build back up to where I was prior to surgery. My nurse prac said that I can start using my strength training band next week, but I have to be sitting??? Interesting!! And after my fourth week I can resume my normal activities!! I cant wait, I am ready to start kicking butt again with my work outs.
one week
Mar 26, 2008
Well, it has been one week today. I was convinced that I was dying,. Went to the doc on Tuesday and found out that everything I was experiencing was normal save one. I have a very deep, very large hemotoma on my left side which is the reason that I have such incredible pain. You cant see it except for some weird swelling patterns. She said with a heating pad and time it should go away. The problem is it hurts to walk very far, it makes it hard to breathe it hurts so bad. Today I sucked it up and went on a very long walk. About halfway through I wished I hadnt gone so far but I made it!
I also found out the depression is normal. I cry at the drop of a hat and am apparently mourning the loss of food like the loss of a friend. Part of that comes from the fact that I get great joy out of cooking. I felt all that would go away and that I would never be able to cook a good old fashion southern meal if I wanted to, or have a slice of pie if I wanted to. The nurse prac said that if I still feel the same in a week than we would talk anti depressants, noooo thanks, I will find a way through this.
They said I lost 8 pounds and would end up with a greater loss next week since I am obviously holding fluids, especially with that big ass bruise!!
I will post on my hospital experience and all that, you all may not want me to do that as it wasnt very fun!!
Til next time....
I also found out the depression is normal. I cry at the drop of a hat and am apparently mourning the loss of food like the loss of a friend. Part of that comes from the fact that I get great joy out of cooking. I felt all that would go away and that I would never be able to cook a good old fashion southern meal if I wanted to, or have a slice of pie if I wanted to. The nurse prac said that if I still feel the same in a week than we would talk anti depressants, noooo thanks, I will find a way through this.
They said I lost 8 pounds and would end up with a greater loss next week since I am obviously holding fluids, especially with that big ass bruise!!
I will post on my hospital experience and all that, you all may not want me to do that as it wasnt very fun!!
Til next time....
Holy Hell Batman!
Mar 18, 2008
AHHHHHHHH!!!! Tomorrow is the big day! I am so excited it is pathetic. I feel like one of those dogs who get so excited and have no way to vent their feelings except run around in circles and chase their tails!!!!He He He!!!
Wish me luck~!!
I will post a "before"pic after surgery. I have to have one of my friends do it since my mother is not camera savy.
2 more days...
Mar 16, 2008
Well we are officially on the way to the big day and for the first time since I was approved I am actually a bit anxious.Woke up at 9am this morning after having gone to bed at 4am saying to myself, "holy hell batman, I am going to have major surgery...." And then the right side of my brain went, "Duh you dumb a**." I guess you could say I am a big re re..
I had been at my best friends house for her husbands 30th birthday. Now, I have lost 32 pounds since January 7th when I started exercising and eating healthy. I havent seen some of the people that were at the party since New Years when I weighed a whopping 309 pounds. It felt reallllyyyyy good to see the looks on their faces when they saw me. It boosted the ego! I thought to myself, hell, what are they gonna say 3 months from now? 6 months from now? Thats what keeps me going and gives me the ability to push past the anxious feelings that seem to have developed over the last few days.
Since I am a procrastenator I am just now about to walk out the door and buy all my supplements, including the special protein drinks I have to use for the first couple of weeks post op. I feel like I have so much to do and so little time.
Wish me luck!
OMG!!! Only 10 more days...
Mar 09, 2008
Woo Hoo! 10 more days... I am so psyched it is ridiculous. Yesterday was the first day since I started the liquid diet that I felt enough energy to exercise. It was tough but I got through it and I needed to, I didnt want to become lazy just because my surgery is so close.Today Krista and I went to a track and walked 1 1/2 mile. This was her first day walking so we only went that far, hopefully we can build up so by the time I go in on the "big" day I will be up to 4 miles!!
As for the liquid diet....
the icon says it all.Day 1
Mar 06, 2008
Today is day one of my two week liquid diet. It is now 10 min. after 6pm and I still have one more "meal" to drink. I am, um, excuse the term, pissing like a drunk sorority chick! This is hard, I mean, its not like I didnt know it would be hard....but still....this f**k**g sucks.
I had my nutrition class yesterday, it was very informative. Dr. Davidson's office literally covers every aspect of information that could possibly pop up in your head. The entire staff there is amazing. Trevor, who works in the front office, gave me a hard time, the reason will be kept between us, but its clear that he cares. They all do.
I am really excited, now I just want the next two weeks to fly by. 13 more days.....
Where the hell did that come from?
Feb 25, 2008
After a phone conversation with my cousin I started having some serious panic attacks about having this surgery.
Baby's. Thats what started it. Baby's. My cousin Jennifer had tried for the surgery and been denied by her previous insurance company, now she wants to try again but also wants one more child. She calls me this morning telling me she is waiting on a call from her o.b, in the mean time she has heard that you can't sustain a pregnancy well enough when you have had this surgery. She said she heard of a girl who almost died trying to carry her baby to term. I, of course start telling her that most likely the girl who almost died got pregnant well before her 18 mths were up. Or she wasnt doing all the things that I am sure her doctor's were telling her to do. She says, oh I dont know, I just cant imagine not being able to have another child....
In walks my panic......what? no baby's? Is that possible? Nooooo, the doctor said you can still get pregnant, as a matter of fact they call this surgery a fertility drug without the drugs! But......I am doing the right thing, I am 28, I want kids. Maybe I shouldnt do this. I'm sure I can lose the weight on my own, it might take me 5 maybe 6 years but I'm sure it can be done.
AHHHHH!!! After having to sit with head between my knees, I collected myself, went back inside my office and sat down. I pushed all those thoughts from my head and waited patiently for Jen's o.b to call her back.
Later that afternoon she called and told me what I already knew. As long as you wait the 18 months, have sustained weight, no losing, and have been cleared by your bariatric doc than there is nothing to worry about.
Ok, so my point is this. One tiny statement, one moment, set off such panic in my head. I want this so bad, I want to start living the life I have been struggling so hard to try and make a reality. What the hell is wrong with me?
23 more days......I actually am excited, I promise!!!! I just had a moment.
The joys of stress echo's.....can you feel the sarcasm?
Feb 21, 2008
Had my stress echo today. Wow...I have been walking, doing aerobics, and strength training, but that dang test whooped my butt! I was doing great at first thinking, "oh, this is a piece of cake." Boy was I wrong, I had to do 3 different inclines and they kept upping the speed, by the time I hit the third incline and hit my mark of a heart rate of 185, I was begging them to stop! Of course they wouldn't tell me if there was anything funny, but the very cute technician told me that if he saw something wrong I would not be leaving and would have to see a doc right away, if he let me leave then he did not see anything, but the test would still have to be read by a doc. They let me go so I am taking that as a good sign.
Not to mention the very cute tech said that someone of my weight, who is not active would not take long to reach the maximum heart rate and it would take longer for the heart rate to come back down. But because I have been diligently exercising for the past 5 weeks that my heart showed great strength!! Woo Hoo!!
Just 24 more days til surgery.....
A Miracle
Feb 14, 2008
I have been approved!!!!! I am so excited...and nervous....and about ready to burst! My surgery date has been scheduled for March 19th. Woo Hoo!!I am still unsure of the cost. I dont understand all this insurance crap. I know I have to pay the surgeon upfront but I dont know if I have to finance now or wait until after and see how much the bill is. Hell I dont know if I need to pay all that up front...its a little frustrating but hopefully this friday I will have the answers I need. Thats all for now!
About Me
Corinth, TX
Location
25.5
BMI
Surgery
03/19/2008
Surgery Date
Jun 15, 2007
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