Pam, I know you must be nervous and anxious right now as you embark on such a journey. But let any anxiety melt away and let the excitement begin! This surgery is just a blink in time compared to the life you have to live as you shed the excess weight and embrace the new, healthier you. People would say that stuff to me and I would think "yeah whatever! I am scared!" But let any fear go. You are in the hands of skilled professionals and all of your brothers and sisters here on the boards are with you in spirit. You will do wonderfully! You will think to yourself "wow, that was no big deal"..and yes, it may be a little uncomfortable and awkward those first few days...but that passes so quickly. Soon you are 'back to your old self' only better! You WILL eat again! I promise! And you will love the way you get full and don't obsess over food anymore. I am 1 year and a half out and I love it. I feel so great about not only my body -- but my spirit! You are taking this step and it is such a gift to yourself. A gift you deserve! Take a deep breath and trust in the people caring for you -- trust in your Higher Power -- and trust that you've made a wonderful decision for a better life!