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So I gave up the costume idea this year because I couldn't find one that fit or that I looked good in. Then in the 20s room I saw a construction worker costume and I wish I would've saw that sooner! I could've totally pulled that off with a hard hat, a tool belt, my own "construction" outfit and some accessories. Wish I would've saw it sooner. I'm not creative at all when it comes to costumes...I always buy from a store. Maybe I should've posted on the forums for home made costume ideas. Oh well...there's always next year.

Since I gave up halloween for myself I have turned my attention to my puppy. He is a "Ruff-fur-ee". Very cute. I never thought I'd be one to dress up a dog, but he doesn't mind at all, doesn't fuss or bite the clothes so why not? I got him a little ref shirt and I'm going to get him a little toy football. I was thinking, before I gave up halloween, of going to a men's section and buying a football jersey, putting some black stuff under my eyes and having him sit next to me and hand out candy, but it didn't happen. Still tempted though...all of a sudden all this halloween talk has made me get the urge to find something last min. I've always been a big halloween fan.

Next big day...election day! I've never been too into politics...I mean I've kept up on things, but never really to the extent that I have for this election. I guess the older I get the more I realize how much of an impact politics have on my life, now and in the future. I can't wait for the 4th!

In weight loss news...there isn't much news. Just doing day by day stuff and waiting not so patiently for doctor's appts. My appt with the surgeon is in Dec so it's slowly coming up. I have tons of other appts though to get ready for the "big one".  Nov is going to be a massive doctor month. Now that my back is getting better I'm hoping to get my butt off the couch more.

I haven't been posting much on the forums because I can't sit here for long with my back the way it is...it's not really getting better. There's been some improvement and in other areas there's been none. Also my eye that I posted about is getting worse so now I have an appt next week for that with a doc I'm not too comfortable with so I kept my specialist appt in Dec just in case. UGH!

I've been trying to watch my diet the best I can, but exercise has pretty much been at a stop since my back started up. Walking is getting easier though. Of course my edema is starting up again, but I haven't taken a water pill because I can't really keep getting up and down to get to the bathroom to pee my brains out lol. I'm just getting really frustrated.

I have an appt with my new family doc next month so I plan on talking about my back then even if it is better because this is a problem that I've had for a while off and on...physical therapy just isn't cutting it. Back problems run in my family and I'm nervous it could be more than just a pulled muscle. We'll see though...don't want to get ahead of myself.

So my exercise has completely stopped due to a very painful back strain that happened late Friday. I haven't worn my pedometer because there are hardly any steps to count. I've been trying to stretch it out as much as possible, but I'm still in tons of pain and I have the hardest time getting up or sitting/laying down. My walking is a little better and I can sit for longer periods of time with something behind my back for support...it's just getting up and down that kills me. Plus I can't bend forward for anything. Hopefully it clears up this week so I can get back to walking/exercising. My family doc, who is soon to be my former family doc...sent in my medical release form today...lectured me on how I have to lose weight or else my back will always do this. Um...I know I need to lose weight, thanks for pointing it out...I'm working on it! Made me so mad. I guess she didn't look at the notes the doctor that was filling in for her left about me.

Now I must try to get up and find some lunch.

I still haven't been doing so well with my diet. I need to exercise more...been wearing my pedometer and my steps aren't really where they should be. I'm still having some severe leg/feet swelling and bad joint pain. I see my current PCP in about 9 hours, I should totally be sleeping, so maybe she'll do something for me and then I can get my records transferred to my new doc.

In other news not really related to WLS I discovered a lump above my right eye. I went to an eye specialist today and they said it's a lacrimal cyst. I have to go out of town to another specialist because no one around here deals with problems like this. I have to wait til Dec...that was the first available appt, but if it gets worse/painful/bigger/etc I have to call and get an emergency appt. Right now it's just putting pressure on my eye, not really painful til the doc started pushing on it like crazy. It's just like one thing after another pops up with me.

After quite the fiasco today I ended up calling a new PCP's office and after this week I will be transferring my records and switching docs. I already called the surgeon's office and they said it shouldn't cause a problem other than this month of my supervised weight loss might not count, but I'm going to call again tomorrow (Tues) and see for sure. I don't want to do anything to screw up my surgery process, but at the same time I can't stay with a PCP that drops the ball reguarly because that would screw things up just as much if not more.

Will keep you all updated.

I'm awake this early for 2 reasons...

1. my puppy wakes me up everyday about this time

2. I've got to call my PCP's office as soon as they open because my legs are just not getting better and I have severe joint pain on top of it.

I'm hoping they'll give me something a little more effective than ibuprofen for my pain and a prescription maybe for compression socks and maybe even a stronger water pill. I don't know about the water pill though because of my liver, same goes for the pain med, but we'll see. These conditions, plus all my others, are getting worse by the day. Just gives me more and more reasons that I NEED WLS. My health is going downhill fast.

A girl on the 20 something forum suggested we work together online to lose weight since we're both kind of at the same place weight wise and in the WLS process. I've been having a hard time lately so maybe this will help if we do it.

Having a bad day when it comes to my edema. My legs are killing me and my new pill, lasix, has not done too much so far. I've never taken a water pill before and don't really know how long they take to work. I've taken one yesterday and today...I'm only supposed to be taking them as needed so I don't want to have to take them regularly.

I can't wait til I get this weight off and have some of these health problems disappear with it.

Talked to the surgeon's office after I was done posting here. I only need 3 months for supervised diet! Depending on their surgery waitlist though I might be waiting the 6 months anyway. Also found out my appt in Dec is going to be over 3 hours long! I had no clue. I know there's a lot to go over, but wow. I really can't wait though. I've never been this excited for a doctor's appt ever lol. It's going to be the start of a new life. Scary, yet exciting.

I went to my primary care doc this week for my monthly weight check up. I gained 3lbs which I'm not happy about. I thought I changed my bmi on here...still says 49.4. Now it's 49.8. Not that big of an increase, but I'm inching my way up to the 50+ catagory in bmi. Anyway we talked about surgery and my take on it and she said she thinks I have a great grasp on what is going to happen if I have surgery and I don't have unrealistic expectations. Glad to hear she thinks that.

I got the name of my surgeon this week too...see left side of page.  :-P  I knew it was going to be him or his partner so it wasn't too big of a surprise. I also have an appt scheduled with him in Dec. Hopefully it will be a nice early xmas gift.

They have me on a 6 month program to watch my weight, but they're doing that for insurance reasons. I'm going to double check with the surgeons office and see if I need the 6 months for my insurance because I don't think I do. I'm not trying to rush the process though. It's good to have time to prepare as much as possible. I have 2 of the tests I need to get done before I can get a surgery date scheduled for the next 2 weeks and I'm waiting on the doctor's office to schedule 2 more...both breathing studies.

I'm now a step counter. The doc gave me a pedometer and I started wearing it today. They said to start my numbers would probably be low, but they're hoping in the coming months I can work my way up to 10,000 steps! Holy cow that's a lot lol! I think she said that's like 5 miles or something. I've got a little date book to keep track of my steps everday, my weight, my tests, and my appts. I don't weigh myself at home because I'm almost 30lbs heavier than the scale allows so I just see my weight at the doctor's office. I think that's a good thing though because I know you can become obsessed with the scale especially when watching your weight.

Well it's off to check the forums then maybe a nap.  :)

I got a call from my primary care doc's office today and said they officially put in my referal to the bariatric center. I go in this Wed to start the testing I'll need. I should have an idea of when my first appt with the surgeon will be then too.

I was scared when I first started thinking about surgery...read up a lot, calmed down...then they called today and told me I needed to come in and get the tests started. It's scary again! I was just looking into it before...now I'm on my way to having the surgery. Don't get me wrong...I am totally excited and hopeful about this whole thing.
 
Like I said in my intro...I never considered WLS for some reason. When it was first brought up to me by my doctor I was taken a back. Then I realized my health must be pretty bad if they're saying I need the surgery. So then I started getting hopeful after hearing people's stories about getting healthier. My whole thing was about the health aspect. Then I came here and started to see people's after pictures. I *thought* I was a content "chubby" girl. Now I'm excited at the idea of having a new appearance. It's just been a whole mix of emotions.

I'm continuing to do my research. I already had a handful of tests done because I needed them for other health issues so I'm kind of already started. We've just got to sort through the tests I've already had recently and then figure out what's next to do. I'm terrified though that they'll say I'm not healthy enough for the surgery or something. I'll keep you all updated!