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Well here I am finally getting some pics on here and posting.  I don't get on here to much anymore..but really need to..I miss it very much.  I am 180 right now, I have lost 160 lbs!!!  I am soooo happy. It honestly feels like a dream..I pass the mirror and have to look twice.  I am smaller now then when I got married.  I am in size 12 jeans.  I can wear clothes from Americain Eagle!!  I don't have to go to the plus size section anymore..and I can actually fit in booths now.  The other day there was a guy looking towards me and I was turning around to see who he was looking at.  My step-son said  "Mom that guy was checking you out!!"  I about died!!  Not used to that happening!!  Well I better go...I am going to try to start posting more.

Hello everyone!   I haven't been on here in a while.   I do miss it.  I have lost 145 lbs!!  I still can't believe it is real.  It has been 8 months since my surgery, and I hope to lose about 45 more lbs.  But being where I came from if I stay here I will be happy.  I have been showing again....I bought a 5-gaited horse...it is truely a dream come true.  I have been riding everyday..I can't believe how much I missed it.  I am in a 14 now, and I have actually bought Americain Eagle jeans!!! Another thing I thought would never happen.  I can lay down without choking and sit in a car with my legs crossed!!  I am going to make a list from my other list of before I had surgery.  I have thought alot about that list lately and am really wanting to look at it.  I get pretty emotional about the entire thing...I still feel like I weigh 340.  I don't think it ever leaves you.  I am going to try to put some pics on here this weekend..I need to.  Well lets go see whos on the main board.

Ok...I have not posted in a while.  I have had my computer turned off till I go back to work.  It has been 5 months since my RNY, and I have never felt better.  I have been riding, I have been showing, and I am in the process of buying a 5-gaited horse!!!!  I am sooooooooo happy.  I have lost 114 pounds and am in a size 18.  I go to a trainer 2-3 times a week.  Sometimes I have to stop and think is this all real?!?!?!?  I can't remember the last time I felt this good.  Thank you Dr. Rossi.  I am going to go for now, but I am planning on getting on here more often.

Well, here I am almost 3 months out.  I have lost 85 lbs!!  This is by far the best thing I have ever done.  I am able to do things I haven't done in years.  And yes, the BIG thing...I have rode a Saddlebred again!!  I am going to show one of my best friends horses this summer.  I hope to next year buy a five-gaited horse.  I think it would be good for me to start easy this year.  I can not explain the feeling of being back in the saddle.  I wasn't going to ride yet, but she keep saying I could...and I just did!  I was tearing up the whole time.  It feels AW-SOME!!!!!  I am exercising 4-5 days a week, I have actually jogged a little bit.  I am only able to do it for a couple hundred feet, but at least I am doing it!!!!!  I walk about 2 1/2 miles  2-3 days a week, and jog 4 times during that walk.  I go swimming the other days and do laps.  It is fun.  I can not believe I have lost 85 lbs.  It seems like a dream!  Well, I am going to try to download a couple pics.

Well here it is Feb 10, and I am 8 days from 2 months out.  I have never felt better!  This is absolutely the best thing I have ever done.  If anyone is reading this that is still trying to make up their minds whether to have the surgery or not......PLEASE DO IT!!!!!  You will not regret it.  I have lost 71 lbs and feel great.  I can eat about 1/2 cup of food, and feel "satisfied".  I am really lucky in the fact that I have not had any problems.  I have tolerated food extremely well.  I can eat lettuce, beef, milk, nuts, fruit and many other foods with no problems.  I am a little freaked out by it, I was ready for alot of stomach aches.  I am hoping it will stay this way.  I have not tried a full blown salad yet, but I have ate a sub from Subway.  ( A six inch sub made 3 meals for me)  It had alot of veggies on it.  So, I am hoping I can tolerate a salad.  I am going to wait a couple more weeks.  I just made Eggfaces mini donuts.  I had a small taste of one of them before I put the icing on...it was sooo good!  I am going to eat one after while, I had to eat supper first.  There are so many different things you can fix, that are so very good and still within the limits of what we are "allowed".  Sometimes I feel like I am in a dream.  It is so nice to be able to get full on so very little.  I wish I would have been able to do this earlier in my life.  But I am just so thankful I was able to have it period.  It feels so good to be able to sit in the car and be comfortable.  To be able to sit in a booth at a restaurant more comfortable.  So many things are already happening!!  I am so excited!  Well I am going to go see what is on the main board.

Well, here it is almost 2 months after my surgery.  I have never been happier!  I have lost 65 pounds, I have soooo much energy I don't even recognize myself!  This is without a doubt the best decision I have ever made.  I haven't had any problems with food, other than sugar free pudding.  I am eating basically what I want, just chewing REALLY good.  I am not eating white bread, fried foods or of course sugar.  I am eating like I am suppose to eat, and I am going to do everything within my power to eat like this the rest of my life.  I have not had any soda since the last day of Nov.  I have not had any white flour, or any processed flour since then as well.  I am using low-carb tortillas for pizza, and will be using lettuce leafs for bread.  ( I haven't tried lettuce yet. )  I am craving a salad, but know better.  Hopefully in another month.  I really am not at all deprived from anything.  This is a VERY "do-able" lifestyle.  I am wanting to start showing again this summer.  Gina ( my best friend) is really hoping I will too.  She has found me like 10 horses!  I am still not working yet, but hope to soon.  I enjoy not working, but need the money.  I don't want to work 5 days a week, 4 at most,  but would really enjoy 3 days a week.  I sent my resume' into a blind add to the news paper.  But nothing yet.  I may try to go to the college and teach in clinic.  That would be alright I guess.  Not real crazy about driving the 45 min to get there.  But if it meant getting a 5-gaited horse for next summer.....then I think I can handle the drive!  There is a horse that we found about 45 mins from here, that would be perfect.  I am putting off calling the lady hoping to hear something from a dentist.  I might call her tomorrow, get it over with.  I would REALLY like to have this horse.  I am going to try one of Eggfaces recipes tomorrow.  Her chocolate donuts!  It calls for Almond flour, and since I live in West Virginia it is hard to find.  I am going to make my own, it is very easy.  So, I hope it turns out good.  Well I better go, we are remodeling our bathroom and I have to pull up the old tile.  They are coming to put down the new floor Tuesday.  I got carpet....see how this works out.  Try to post in a couple days!

Well, here I am 16 days out.  It is really great!  I have had 2 bad days, just nausea mainly.  I had a bad pain under my right breast going to my shoulder.  It felt like a knife.  We went to the ER and they did all kinds of tests and come to find out it was GAS.  I hate that damn stuff!  That has been the hardest part of this whole thing.  I have not felt hunger since Dec18.  I hope it stays that way.  I really am wanting cottage cheese soooo bad.  I am craving fish also.  I have no cravings for junk food, or soda or bread.  I told myself that I am done with white bread.  I am going to do my best to NEVER eat it again.  I believe that I am like a drug addict.....I just can't even have a little taste.  If I don't start I don't have to worry about stopping.  That is how I see it.  It is just so hard right now to get all of my protein in.  Everyone says not to worry it will come.  I just am so scared of my hair and nails falling off....I swear I can feel them loosening.  I am trying to add more daily, I just get full and don't want to stretch my pouch.  I have lost 50lbs!!!!!      It is sooooooo exciting!!!  I know it is going to happen this time, I am beside myself.  It sorta feels like a dream, like it really isn't happening to me.  Like I can't believe "I" am ever going to be small.  It just seems impossible.  I know that attitude is everything, and I have a good attitude, it is just that I have never been small....it has always been a dream of mine.  So, I have a hard time excepting that I will be "thin".  I know other people do as well, it just is something we have to get use to.  I have never once regretted this surgery.  Even when I was having alot of pain from the gas.  I am so very glad I did this.  It is truly a blessing!  I just hope I can go to puree's soon!

Well, I am just now getting to post.  I am doing really good.  I will start from the beginning.  We went up to Charleston on Wednesday night.  I really had no anxieties at all.  I was more happy and excited than anything.  The motel was across the street from the hospital, so it was really convenient.  As we got there and I saw the hospital......I realized...."This is it, it is REALLY happening!!".  It was a real eye opener for me.  I still was not scared.  I did not sleep a full hour the entire night.  I just tossed and turned.  I had to be there at 6:30.  When we got there they took me straight back.  They made Jake and mom stay in the waiting room.  They just got me in my gown and put my clothes in a bag and asked alot of questions.  There was this one old (and I mean she was old), LPN that said something really out of the way.  She was the one giving me my gown and bag for clothes.  She asked what kind of surgery they where doing for me today.  I told her Gastric By-Pass.  She said....."Well, I GUESS that is a good thing.  You think so huh?"   I about died!!!!  I didn't even answer her.  I mean you don't say that!!!  Anyway, then Jake and mom came back.  We waited about 30 more mins then the guy came and said we were ready to go.  I was laying in the bed, of course.  Well we get to the next floor and this guy says....."OK, this is as far as you guys can go."  I thought my husband was going to punch him.  He never said a word.....I just know him.  It was so sudden and quick!  I wish I could have stayed with them longer.  Anytime before when I have had surgery my family was always with me till they took me into the OR.  Well I then go into this room with all these other people.  They had the curtains dividing us all.  This is where I got my IV in.  They did not sedate me here.  I waited about an hour.  The little nurse anesthetics said she would be at my head the entire time.  Then they said after about an hour...."OK..here we go."  They pushed me into the OR.  This is where I got a little nervous.  I could see EVERYTHING!!  I saw a whole table the size of my couch of tools!!  There was about 7 people working on me at once.  One was strapping my legs down, two were putting my arms on board like things, and one was putting the oxygen mask on me.  Then I heard...." This is a little something to calm you."     I mean...now?!?!?!?  Anyway...that's all I remember.  I remember waking up to hearing stuff clanging around.  I remember saying I was hurting or something, and a nurse saying...."Why sure honey, you just got out of surgery."  I also remember saying I was scared.  And she asked me what I was scared of?  So comforting.  I never had really any pain from the surgery itself, just the gas!  I was in the hospital for 6 days.  I had a lot of bloating.  They were wanting me to drink, and I thought I was taking sips.....I was taking sips like BEFORE surgery!  It is alot different after words!!  Anyway, after I learned to sip...it got better.  I was just so bloated and mixed with taking to big of sips....I was a mess.  My heart rate was high as well, so that was another thing.  One big help was my PM nurse had RNY two years ago.  He REALLY helped!  If it wasn't for him....I would still not know what a sip is!  He got my cup and said this should be about 5-6 sips...HELLO!!!!!!  I was "sipping" it in 3.   So, that was my problem. I hate this drain.  I get it out Monday.  Thank God.  I have never one time said I regret this.  Even in the hospital.  I know this is going to be a wonderful, wonderful thing.  I am going to go try to post some pictures from the hospital.

Well, I am trying to get ready.  I had to go yesterday to Charleston to meet with Dr. Rossi.  He assures me that they will give me something in my IV for the sickness I always have after surgery.  I feel a little better about that.  My mother is very nervous, she is just worried.  I hope and pray she feels better.  I also had to do all the pre-op testing.  That was a mess.  You go here...then there...then back here.  But at least I got it done.  We went yesterday to the motel across the street from the hospital to get another room.  Sara got us one...but I think we needed two.  Gina is staying the first night also, and mom is too.  We got one through Sunday so Jake and mom can go take a shower and mom will have somewhere to sleep.  I think Jake is staying in the room with me...that's what he says.  I still can't believe this is happening!!  I can't believe this is real!  I feel like I am in a dream.  Like I am watching someone else do this whole thing.  I hope I don't get to nervous Thursday morning.  I really don't want to ask for a sedative!  I think I can do it.  I mean God is with me...he has brought me this far.  I need to post on the main board a question of what all to take to the hospital.  Everyone is so helpful.  I did get to eat a salad yesterday!  I asked Dr. Rossi if I could please have one.  He said yes...so I did!  I also had a piece of chicken.  That salad was the BEST thing I have ever ate!!  I almost cried.  Of all the things to crave...a salad!  I think that just means that my body was needing some vegetables.  I am so ready to start my new life.  I know it will be tough the first few days...even months...but I also know it will be so worth it.  I just hope and pray I don't have a lot of complications.  Well hell for that matter ANY.  When I posted on the main board that I was approved...I got so many supportive responses.  When I heard things like...."you are in for a wild ride."  and "...get ready for people not to recognize you."  I just beamed!  I can not imagine myself losing that much weight.  I know you have to see it before you live it...but I don't mean it like that. I know I can do this.  I will do this.  It is just so hard to believe that the thing I want most in the world....is about to happen.  Amazing.  I really have a hard time seeing this.  Well I better go Jake gets off in a little while and we have a date!  I will post before I leave.

I found out yesterday, that I am approved!!!!  Sara called me and I could not get to the phone.  So she left a message.  Which I am so glad she did!!  I was a mess!  I could not have made any sense if I had been on the phone with her when she told me.  I had to wait a few minutes before I called back.  Jake had JUST left for work when she called too.  I called my best friend Gina, then mom.  My mother was not exactly jumping up and down.  She is happy for me though.  Jake is just worried about getting off of work to be there.  When I called Sara back, I was still a mess.  She was laughing.  As she was telling me what the surgery date was, I was thinking...."OH my gosh...this is really it!  I am finally having RNY!"  It seemed so....unreal, like a dream.  I had all these thoughts and emotions running through my mind.  What if it doesn't work on me?  What if I die?  What if I am in so much pain, and the pain meds don't work?  What if I get a blood clot?  What if I gain it all back?  What if I don't get to goal?  What if I have alot of complications?  What if....?  I mean all of this was in my mind.  So, my surgery is December 18, 2008.  The day my life will change forever.  I have to be at the hospital at 6:30 in the morning.  We have a room across the street, so we can go up the night before.  I hope Jake can come up that night too, he is suppose to be working 3-11.  But, he said he is going to try to switch with someone on daytime.  Mom and Gina are both going the night before also.  I am going to try to get another room.  I have to go tomorrow up there to get a bunch of tests and meet with Dr. Rossi.  I will meet the Anesthesiologist tomorrow as well.  I am going to remind them all to GIVE ME PHENEGRAN!!  Because when I wake up.....    I have always got deathly sick from that gas they give you.  I am scared that they won't.  I am also going to ask if I can please have plenty of pain meds for when I wake up.  I am really scared about that.  This liquid diet has not been that bad.  God has blessed me sooo very much.  I have lost 23 lbs.  I don't get real hungry...if I drink that protein.  It really helps!  I have not craved a Diet Coke since I started this!  That is a miracle.  I thought that would be the hardest part.  I really don't want to eat a last supper.  I am afraid it will mess up my cravings.  Or lack of.  I have not craved anything....maybe a salad and some chicken.  But I have not cheated not one time.  I am proud of that.  I hope he tells me tomorrow that I can have a salad.  That would be nice.  He probably won't let me.  Anyway..I am going to go.  I feel so strange....kinda like it is not even me here.  That is weird I know, it is just strange.  I will post tomorrow after I get home.