cinaflower
so slow, but 62 pounds gone!
Apr 04, 2012
My weight loss has been so slow the last three months. I know it's because I've just done whatever- not exercising regularly, not taking vitamins, not making sure I have extra protein-consistenly- I do all of it sometimes. Not doing what I'm supposed to do. I'm happy with what has happened so far, I really am. I can barely keep up with my clothes and size changes as it is. I just got all my old stuff out in 18s and I have so much! It's hard letting go of the bigger clothes but I have a friend who wants then who's going to try to lose weight, so at least I know where they're going. I think I may be a clothes hoarder! I cleared out almost an entire closet upstairs and have a full closet downstairs too AND plastic space bags and rubbermaid containers full of stuff! If I was going to be fat, I wanted to at least dress well- and wow- I don't need to shop anymore for myself until I'm in 14s!
I have a a check-up today and I just feel disappointed that my weight loss at this point won't be more impressive. I keep wanting to cancel but I'm making myself go and face the music.
I had to have my gallbladder out on March 2nd. I didn't even know I was having gallbladder attacks- it just hurt! So, I had a few attacks and went to the emergency room one day and finally found out my gallbladder is kaput and I had gallstones and it was time to get it out. The surgery was a breeze. I wasn't ever in pain, my little incisions healed quickly and a week later I was as good as ever. I had my gastric sleeve doc do the surgery. He's cool and I knew he'd be the best surgeon for the job that I knew. I should've asked to see my gallbladder and stones- but I was so out of it after, I don't know that it would've mattered.
Now, I don't need anymore surgeries for a very very very long time. THAT'S ENOUGH!
About 5 years ago I started running, a hobby that ended when I moved houses and sprained ankles and had a hysterectomy, etc. etc. BUT I still get a subcription of Runner's World although I haven't renewed in years! But I get it, and every month I get inspired to want to do it again. I have to start again. I loved to run. I wasn't good, I was so slow, but I loved pushing myself farther, faster, longer- I loved the time alone and making my body do something that I never thought I could do. Now, I'm 216 and I think it's time to start back up. I need to kick the lethargy that overtakes me, the sitting and doing nothing. I need to be proactive and active, I have to pick up some new habits and change my life. This surgery has changed my life for the better, but it could work miracles if I let it. I need to stop getting into my own way and let the good happen.
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I have a a check-up today and I just feel disappointed that my weight loss at this point won't be more impressive. I keep wanting to cancel but I'm making myself go and face the music.
I had to have my gallbladder out on March 2nd. I didn't even know I was having gallbladder attacks- it just hurt! So, I had a few attacks and went to the emergency room one day and finally found out my gallbladder is kaput and I had gallstones and it was time to get it out. The surgery was a breeze. I wasn't ever in pain, my little incisions healed quickly and a week later I was as good as ever. I had my gastric sleeve doc do the surgery. He's cool and I knew he'd be the best surgeon for the job that I knew. I should've asked to see my gallbladder and stones- but I was so out of it after, I don't know that it would've mattered.
Now, I don't need anymore surgeries for a very very very long time. THAT'S ENOUGH!
About 5 years ago I started running, a hobby that ended when I moved houses and sprained ankles and had a hysterectomy, etc. etc. BUT I still get a subcription of Runner's World although I haven't renewed in years! But I get it, and every month I get inspired to want to do it again. I have to start again. I loved to run. I wasn't good, I was so slow, but I loved pushing myself farther, faster, longer- I loved the time alone and making my body do something that I never thought I could do. Now, I'm 216 and I think it's time to start back up. I need to kick the lethargy that overtakes me, the sitting and doing nothing. I need to be proactive and active, I have to pick up some new habits and change my life. This surgery has changed my life for the better, but it could work miracles if I let it. I need to stop getting into my own way and let the good happen.
55 pounds gone
Dec 27, 2011
I'm down 55 pounds, yay me!!!! I'm pretty flabby but I'm getting smaller so I have to accept whatever it looks like. I've been walking 3 miles with my friend when we can, but I had a horrid cold the last week and Christmas on top of that so we haven't gone in a week. I'm still losing depite it being Christmas time because I still can only eat what I can fit in this tiny stomach. I got a stomach virus for a couple of days and it was really horrible. It was unlike anything I'd experienced before when I had a "normal" stomach" the gas pressure in my stomach was unbearable- any time I ate anything- it was the worst pain I'd had, worse than post surgery pain. Crazy-
I've lost a lot of hair. LOTS. Every time I touch my hair- to wash it or fix it- handfuls come out- it's scary and I can tell when I tough my hair it's thinner but thank the lord that I have thick hair- because I would have bald patches otherwise. It's annoying more than anything- finding my hair all over my sweaters and shoulders and floor and countertops. I'm probably going to have to cut it differently because I can't imagine how it'll look when the rest starts growing back- I just hope it doesn't come back gray!
I was expecting to be smaller by this time this year but I'm glad it's gone slower- I don't have enough clothes for one thing- I had some smaller sizes but things don't fit the same or they're out of season. I bought a pair of skinny jeans at old navy- 18s yay! Well, last week someone told me my jeans were too big and that I needed to wear more fitted clothes to show off my new size. I don't want clingy- I still have a back roll and a tummy roll- and if pants are too tight a muffin roll too- so I need to work on that part. I haven't done any strength training or yoga or weights in a while- I need to incorporate that into my routine and tone up some.
I'm amazed and so thankful for this, 55 pounds gone- I couldn't pick up that much if it was in a bag- how did I carry that on my body and function?
Now- I can bend over to tie shoes, or shave my legs without grunting. I can walk farther and faster. I don't get in my own way, I feel lighter and bouncier. I can get into some 16s. I can do things around the house for longer periods of time- more stamina- sex is better- I feel better about myself for sure- feel sexier and more confident. I have 63 pounds to go to goal. I can do that by the summer. Could I possibly wear a bikini? That would be insane! I want to wear cute little flowery sundresses and flip flops all summer. And I want to run- I want to be able to run a mile by the summer. I want to embrace the freedom that I'm being allowed to enjoy by having this opportunity to change my life.
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I've lost a lot of hair. LOTS. Every time I touch my hair- to wash it or fix it- handfuls come out- it's scary and I can tell when I tough my hair it's thinner but thank the lord that I have thick hair- because I would have bald patches otherwise. It's annoying more than anything- finding my hair all over my sweaters and shoulders and floor and countertops. I'm probably going to have to cut it differently because I can't imagine how it'll look when the rest starts growing back- I just hope it doesn't come back gray!
I was expecting to be smaller by this time this year but I'm glad it's gone slower- I don't have enough clothes for one thing- I had some smaller sizes but things don't fit the same or they're out of season. I bought a pair of skinny jeans at old navy- 18s yay! Well, last week someone told me my jeans were too big and that I needed to wear more fitted clothes to show off my new size. I don't want clingy- I still have a back roll and a tummy roll- and if pants are too tight a muffin roll too- so I need to work on that part. I haven't done any strength training or yoga or weights in a while- I need to incorporate that into my routine and tone up some.
I'm amazed and so thankful for this, 55 pounds gone- I couldn't pick up that much if it was in a bag- how did I carry that on my body and function?
Now- I can bend over to tie shoes, or shave my legs without grunting. I can walk farther and faster. I don't get in my own way, I feel lighter and bouncier. I can get into some 16s. I can do things around the house for longer periods of time- more stamina- sex is better- I feel better about myself for sure- feel sexier and more confident. I have 63 pounds to go to goal. I can do that by the summer. Could I possibly wear a bikini? That would be insane! I want to wear cute little flowery sundresses and flip flops all summer. And I want to run- I want to be able to run a mile by the summer. I want to embrace the freedom that I'm being allowed to enjoy by having this opportunity to change my life.
losing
Nov 26, 2011
The scale is finally moving a little. I broke into the 220s!!!! 228! I'm not really watching everything like I should- but no matter what I'm not eating like I used to- it's just impossible. Even if I eat crap it's only a little bit! I've been walking more- one week I walked 3 miles a day for 4 days- the holidays are messing up my momentum but I'll get back with it asap. I walk with my best friend who's 6 foot something and his legs are about as long as my body- so I've had to keep up with his skinny and fast self- I have to jog sometimes and it's not that bad- I can do it! I ate everything everyone else ate at Thanksgiving- just a little bit of it and I'm fine with that. We even went for a long walk after we awoke from our food comas.
Sorting through and keeping up with my clothes is a major issue- the weather shifts from hot to cold constantly down here and I have just sweaters and all kinds of stuff everywhere and I find I'm really reluctant to let go of my favorite clothes even though they really are too big. I did buy some skinny jeans in 18 at Old Navy and some exercise pants that I could live in last week. I have such nice things I should get rid of the less flattering and old stuff- but it's so hard-it's safe and it's hard to really truly believe I won't need it again.
I'm trying to learn to take compliments without thinking people are full of crap. Usually I say thank you and I'm pleased but some part of me is still wondering what their agenda is. My husband is the worst complimenter ever! He just keeps saying- you look so skinny- when it occurs to him that I look good- but it's so awkward. Sometimes I wonder how he got any action before me- and I actually used to call him Smooth as a nickname when we were dating, oh, young foolish love- smooth he is not! haha!
need motivation!
Oct 29, 2011
I've been on a plateau but I'm finally starting to lose again- now at 234.4. I've been struggling staying on track and doing what I need to do- protein, fluid- I tell myself I'm doing okay- but I have no idea because I don't pay attention too much. I sporadically take my vitamins, I know I'm not eating too much- but that's mostly because I can't. My head hunger gets me and I eat things that I used to enjoy, things I tell myself would be FUN to eat- I really don't overdo it, but I DO it sometimes and I know I shouldn't be eating any sugary things. I made gumbo last Sunday and I really have been suffering ever since- I don't know if it was the fat or what- but I had horrible acid reflux, and gas that would kill a moose. OMG! Thank goodness the husband had his CPAP mask on the other night- it was so bad! I hurt my back this week so I've been a vegetable- when my back started getting better then it started into my legs and hips. I haven't been sleeping awesomely so my fibromyalgia is kicking my ass right now.
I need motivation. I need to remember why I went through the trouble to do this surgery. I need to capitalize on this opportunity to be the person I've always wanted to be and knew I could be. I'm struggling to stay focused and do what I need to do. I need to exercise and stop eating when I don't need to- just like before- but now I really don't even care about eating and I do it anyway. Not smart. I can do better- I thought it'd be easier- but is anything worth having really easy? I don't think so.
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I need motivation. I need to remember why I went through the trouble to do this surgery. I need to capitalize on this opportunity to be the person I've always wanted to be and knew I could be. I'm struggling to stay focused and do what I need to do. I need to exercise and stop eating when I don't need to- just like before- but now I really don't even care about eating and I do it anyway. Not smart. I can do better- I thought it'd be easier- but is anything worth having really easy? I don't think so.
237
Oct 16, 2011
So, I've been around 237 for a couple of weeks. I don't know what it is exactly, but I'm not losing very easily now. Well, I do kind of know- I did start exercising last week but I haven't been on track with my eating- I eat mostly protein but I have nibbled on some sugary things lately. I haven't taken my vitamins every day, and I haven't had a protein shake/drink every day.
I'm estatic to be in the 230s! I'm in a bunch of old clothes and I even bought a couple of cute things- making sure they were on the small side so I could wear them longer-, I look better in my clothes, and I can fit this body in more places. In general I am more able to do what I need to do- like I can clean house or do what I want in the yard without feeling like I'm about to keel over- but my fibromyalgia is kicking butt right now. My upper body is so tight and sore and hurting. I've had so many issues and pains lately that I took off work today to rest. Right now I have this thing I bought that I heat up in the microwave draped around my shoulders or I would'nt be able to sit and type. Work sucks, it just does. This is the first year where I've just really been incapable of keeping up with all that needs to be done, I don't have any breaks. I have this new guy that just needs so much attention, he's precious but he has no attention span and he will not sit and do his work! He has accidents, he's tube fed- and he needs so much care that it is exhausting. He's really a cute and funny kid- it's not his fault that he's so much work and he deserves all that he can get, but it is hard- AND my colleagues this year are just not the nicest people- they're all telling on each other and me like a bunch of kindergarteners! It doesn't matter how great a job you're doing, some people can find something to complain about- and I have to learn to let it go- as long as the assistant principal doesn't listen- our principal has been out on medical leave and they never did that when she was there! Everyone is stressed, teachers are being asked to do more with less and kids have more problems with less support from parents- especially at our school for some reason. We barely have time to actually teach there's so much paperwork and meetings and stuff we're told we "have" to do. Yes, I'm letting it get to me and generally I'm so peaceful and okay with it all- I think I just want to focus on taking care of myself foronce- especially now that I have this opportunity to get healthy. I'm having a hard time taking care of myself.
Since I'm taking today off, I'm hoping I can mentally organize myself and refocus my energy in a positive way.
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I'm estatic to be in the 230s! I'm in a bunch of old clothes and I even bought a couple of cute things- making sure they were on the small side so I could wear them longer-, I look better in my clothes, and I can fit this body in more places. In general I am more able to do what I need to do- like I can clean house or do what I want in the yard without feeling like I'm about to keel over- but my fibromyalgia is kicking butt right now. My upper body is so tight and sore and hurting. I've had so many issues and pains lately that I took off work today to rest. Right now I have this thing I bought that I heat up in the microwave draped around my shoulders or I would'nt be able to sit and type. Work sucks, it just does. This is the first year where I've just really been incapable of keeping up with all that needs to be done, I don't have any breaks. I have this new guy that just needs so much attention, he's precious but he has no attention span and he will not sit and do his work! He has accidents, he's tube fed- and he needs so much care that it is exhausting. He's really a cute and funny kid- it's not his fault that he's so much work and he deserves all that he can get, but it is hard- AND my colleagues this year are just not the nicest people- they're all telling on each other and me like a bunch of kindergarteners! It doesn't matter how great a job you're doing, some people can find something to complain about- and I have to learn to let it go- as long as the assistant principal doesn't listen- our principal has been out on medical leave and they never did that when she was there! Everyone is stressed, teachers are being asked to do more with less and kids have more problems with less support from parents- especially at our school for some reason. We barely have time to actually teach there's so much paperwork and meetings and stuff we're told we "have" to do. Yes, I'm letting it get to me and generally I'm so peaceful and okay with it all- I think I just want to focus on taking care of myself foronce- especially now that I have this opportunity to get healthy. I'm having a hard time taking care of myself.
Since I'm taking today off, I'm hoping I can mentally organize myself and refocus my energy in a positive way.
broke into 230s yay!!
Oct 02, 2011
So, I've lost 40 pounds so far. I just can't believe it- 40 pounds gone in less than three months. Gone- not on this body ever again! oh my gosh-
Today I accomplished something significant. I went into a Chico's AND I found something I could wear and buy! IN a REGULAR store. They have weird sizes, 0-3. I got into the 3-I couldn't wear everything in that size- but I found a nice pair of skinny black pants that stretch and a lovely gold colored tunic with these lovely pleats on the front- My husband didn't want to shop- but I was like- you don't understand- I haven't bought any clothes in months- and now I can wear regular people clothes dammit- buy me something!
I'm still probably not going to buy clothes very often- especially nice and expensive clothes like at Chico's because I won't be able to wear them forever- but I'll wear them for a while- even though I've lost 40 pounds- I can still put on my 24s and 3xs and they don't fall off-they are really loose but functional. I have clothes until size 16 and even then- I don't have a lot of cold weather clothes in smaller sizes- mostly shorts and jeans and some tops.
So, I'm 239 now. I was so happy to see that 3!
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Today I accomplished something significant. I went into a Chico's AND I found something I could wear and buy! IN a REGULAR store. They have weird sizes, 0-3. I got into the 3-I couldn't wear everything in that size- but I found a nice pair of skinny black pants that stretch and a lovely gold colored tunic with these lovely pleats on the front- My husband didn't want to shop- but I was like- you don't understand- I haven't bought any clothes in months- and now I can wear regular people clothes dammit- buy me something!
I'm still probably not going to buy clothes very often- especially nice and expensive clothes like at Chico's because I won't be able to wear them forever- but I'll wear them for a while- even though I've lost 40 pounds- I can still put on my 24s and 3xs and they don't fall off-they are really loose but functional. I have clothes until size 16 and even then- I don't have a lot of cold weather clothes in smaller sizes- mostly shorts and jeans and some tops.
So, I'm 239 now. I was so happy to see that 3!
weight loss is unfocused and slow, but it's something!
Sep 25, 2011
I'm 242 today. Not bad. I'm getting close to the my high I hit before my last major weight loss- so I'm really dragging out the old clothes now- size 20s fit- and I can't believe how many pairs of cute shorts I had at that size- long walking shorts. It's exciting to go shopping in your own closet.
I really haven't been as focused as I should be. I haven't been exercising, although I'm very active and on the go constantly. Every so often I'll do some arms or crunches. I'm exhausted honestly. People ask me if I feel so much better now that I've lost some weight- and although I do notice the comfort of being able to move around and bend over without a huge gut in the way I haven't suddenly developed superhuman energy levels! Work is so stressful and my fibromyalgia has been kicking in with a lot of upper body pain, stiffness, and soreness. So, that sucks. I stretch and rest- that's the only thing that works.
I know that exercise will help me with the stress and energy too, I need to just suck it up and do it! The food part has been going okay. I have no idea how much protein I'm eating- I try to eat as much as I can, and follow my nutritionist's advice- eat the protein first- and I still make one protein shake a day and drink protein fruit drinks.
I've still had bad acid reflux but I'm not sure why. Sometimes I think it's tomatoes, coffee, or spicy foods but I get it in the mornings sometimes when I haven't even eaten yet, though, so it's not always about the food.
Tomorrow is my 24th wedding anniversary. I can't believe that much time has passed! We're going to New Orleans next weekend, should be fun. I went last weekend with my sister in law for her birthday, ate some really good food. Getting to eat appetizers instead of real meals is actually more fun and tastier! I even drank some wine for the first time, one ounce at a time (4 oz is half a glass) and I didn't get drunk! So, now I know I can sip wine! My goal for this week is to keep track of fluids and protein and to exercise 3 times. I can do that!
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I really haven't been as focused as I should be. I haven't been exercising, although I'm very active and on the go constantly. Every so often I'll do some arms or crunches. I'm exhausted honestly. People ask me if I feel so much better now that I've lost some weight- and although I do notice the comfort of being able to move around and bend over without a huge gut in the way I haven't suddenly developed superhuman energy levels! Work is so stressful and my fibromyalgia has been kicking in with a lot of upper body pain, stiffness, and soreness. So, that sucks. I stretch and rest- that's the only thing that works.
I know that exercise will help me with the stress and energy too, I need to just suck it up and do it! The food part has been going okay. I have no idea how much protein I'm eating- I try to eat as much as I can, and follow my nutritionist's advice- eat the protein first- and I still make one protein shake a day and drink protein fruit drinks.
I've still had bad acid reflux but I'm not sure why. Sometimes I think it's tomatoes, coffee, or spicy foods but I get it in the mornings sometimes when I haven't even eaten yet, though, so it's not always about the food.
Tomorrow is my 24th wedding anniversary. I can't believe that much time has passed! We're going to New Orleans next weekend, should be fun. I went last weekend with my sister in law for her birthday, ate some really good food. Getting to eat appetizers instead of real meals is actually more fun and tastier! I even drank some wine for the first time, one ounce at a time (4 oz is half a glass) and I didn't get drunk! So, now I know I can sip wine! My goal for this week is to keep track of fluids and protein and to exercise 3 times. I can do that!
almost a month post surgery
Aug 27, 2011
I am doing great, and I have no real complaints except for a wish to have regular normal bowel movements (tmi?). 
I have lost 27 pounds since my all time high and according to the doctor's office 20 since surgery. I had my checkup this week and got the go ahead to eat pretty much whatever I want, starting with eggs, then fish, then soft moist meat. So, I can try anything, really. I mean, does it really matter what I try to eat when a cheesestick can make an entire meal at this point? As long as I chew and eat slowly I can pulverize anything enough to swallow. One day at work I ate a small sweet potato and then tried to eat some chopped peaches, big mistake, I was miserable. I still hold on to the achievement of not barfing or regurgitating yet. YAY me! 
I usually just have to stop when I feel that pressure. I bought some chocolate because I hadn't had any in months- so I bought these Godiva Gems- so tasty-but I ate 2 and that was it- couldn't eat any more- my old self would've polished off the bag in the car before I got home. I love this!!!! I love that it's physically impossible to eat more, I love that I'm not really ever hungry. Sometimes I'll see something or my kids will eat something and I want it- just because I used to like it and want to taste it- but that's in my head- the head hunger everyone talks about and I know it will pass. I used to be a sugar freak but now I prefer salty stuff, nutty stuff. I don't like water as much now which is not good- I used to be able to guzzle water all day, now it just feels weird and doesn't sit well on my stomach.
I am definitely smaller, can bend over and tie shoes without it nearly killing me, can fit into clothes I could barely button, and I've rediscovered my neck. I would do this surgery again once a month if I had to get these results and to be in this much control. it's a good thing!
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I have lost 27 pounds since my all time high and according to the doctor's office 20 since surgery. I had my checkup this week and got the go ahead to eat pretty much whatever I want, starting with eggs, then fish, then soft moist meat. So, I can try anything, really. I mean, does it really matter what I try to eat when a cheesestick can make an entire meal at this point? As long as I chew and eat slowly I can pulverize anything enough to swallow. One day at work I ate a small sweet potato and then tried to eat some chopped peaches, big mistake, I was miserable. I still hold on to the achievement of not barfing or regurgitating yet. YAY me! I usually just have to stop when I feel that pressure. I bought some chocolate because I hadn't had any in months- so I bought these Godiva Gems- so tasty-but I ate 2 and that was it- couldn't eat any more- my old self would've polished off the bag in the car before I got home. I love this!!!! I love that it's physically impossible to eat more, I love that I'm not really ever hungry. Sometimes I'll see something or my kids will eat something and I want it- just because I used to like it and want to taste it- but that's in my head- the head hunger everyone talks about and I know it will pass. I used to be a sugar freak but now I prefer salty stuff, nutty stuff. I don't like water as much now which is not good- I used to be able to guzzle water all day, now it just feels weird and doesn't sit well on my stomach. I am definitely smaller, can bend over and tie shoes without it nearly killing me, can fit into clothes I could barely button, and I've rediscovered my neck. I would do this surgery again once a month if I had to get these results and to be in this much control. it's a good thing!
16 days since surgery
Aug 13, 2011
It's so exciting to see myself just melt away. It's not over night but it's obvious in little ways. One day I just noticed that my face and neck looked thinner. Then one day my husband hugged me and he was like, wow- you're smaller! Another day I was standing up talking to my kids in the living room and my youngest shouted, Mom, you're getting skinny! haha- And today I am comfortably wearing a pair of shorts that I could barely button 3 weeks ago. NICE, FREAKING NICE!!!!! 
I haven't been in pain ever, at the worst I was uncomfortable and it's all about the gas and the digestive system!!!!! My incisions or maybe it's just my stomach muscles healing where they inserted the instruments- are occaisionally sore or twinge or there's just a little something there telling me I'm still healing- especially when I twist and turn and try to lift anything that's remotely heavy. (I'm not supposed to lift over 8 pounds- and it really does matter)
The pounds have not come off quite like I expected- I've lost 22 overall, 15 since surgery. It goes back and forth too- when I add new foods I go up a day or two- if I don't poop it goes up and down when I do- so it's just fluids and "stuff" and I'm not stressing about the pounds. I'm losing that's all that matters and I feel good. I still get tired and since last week was my first week back to work I've been taking naps after work- I even fell asleep on the couch yesterday which I never do. I have more energy in general but do get pooped out if I do a lot.
The food is getting better. I got to add milk products this last week- which wasn't that great because there aren't that many yogurts without sugar and I couldn't find any good low fat no sugar frozen yogurt, which I wanted. But it's all good. Last night I got to have mashed sweet potatoes- 1/4 of a cup made me full. Really, about 5 bites of anything non-liquid is about all I can handle before I just get this uncomfortable pressure right below my bra line- soup even does it. The first time I got to have applesauce I was all excited but it wasn't that good without sugar honestly- and I couldn't even finish the little container- and the next day I tried some sugar free pudding mousse- it was so tasty and when I realized I couldn't finish that little container I yelled out- oh give me a freaking break and my husband started laughing- really 4 or 5 bites- unless I eat it really really slow- is all I can handle at once.
Yesterday, I didn't get all my fluids or protein in because I was at work and just busy all day. But this is what I ate: protein fruit drink, strawberry protein drink mixed with packet of vanilla shake mix and it wasn't bad- didn't finish because it got hot in the car- some fuze tropical punch, some V8 garden broccoli soup, sugar free pudding, sweet potato mushed, pudding, protein drink. I forgot to take all my vitamins-so today I will do it better and keep track and try to stay more organized and I'm going to start walking and doing some strength training/calisthenics with 2# weights. I'm feeling good about all of it!!!
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I haven't been in pain ever, at the worst I was uncomfortable and it's all about the gas and the digestive system!!!!! My incisions or maybe it's just my stomach muscles healing where they inserted the instruments- are occaisionally sore or twinge or there's just a little something there telling me I'm still healing- especially when I twist and turn and try to lift anything that's remotely heavy. (I'm not supposed to lift over 8 pounds- and it really does matter)
The pounds have not come off quite like I expected- I've lost 22 overall, 15 since surgery. It goes back and forth too- when I add new foods I go up a day or two- if I don't poop it goes up and down when I do- so it's just fluids and "stuff" and I'm not stressing about the pounds. I'm losing that's all that matters and I feel good. I still get tired and since last week was my first week back to work I've been taking naps after work- I even fell asleep on the couch yesterday which I never do. I have more energy in general but do get pooped out if I do a lot.
The food is getting better. I got to add milk products this last week- which wasn't that great because there aren't that many yogurts without sugar and I couldn't find any good low fat no sugar frozen yogurt, which I wanted. But it's all good. Last night I got to have mashed sweet potatoes- 1/4 of a cup made me full. Really, about 5 bites of anything non-liquid is about all I can handle before I just get this uncomfortable pressure right below my bra line- soup even does it. The first time I got to have applesauce I was all excited but it wasn't that good without sugar honestly- and I couldn't even finish the little container- and the next day I tried some sugar free pudding mousse- it was so tasty and when I realized I couldn't finish that little container I yelled out- oh give me a freaking break and my husband started laughing- really 4 or 5 bites- unless I eat it really really slow- is all I can handle at once.
Yesterday, I didn't get all my fluids or protein in because I was at work and just busy all day. But this is what I ate: protein fruit drink, strawberry protein drink mixed with packet of vanilla shake mix and it wasn't bad- didn't finish because it got hot in the car- some fuze tropical punch, some V8 garden broccoli soup, sugar free pudding, sweet potato mushed, pudding, protein drink. I forgot to take all my vitamins-so today I will do it better and keep track and try to stay more organized and I'm going to start walking and doing some strength training/calisthenics with 2# weights. I'm feeling good about all of it!!!
Week one, Done!
Aug 06, 2011
My surgery was 9 days ago and I'm doing fine. I had my one week checkup on Thursday and the doc said my incisions looked good and everything is on track. I was told I could add protein shakes to my menu, yay- something different! It really helps to get the protein in. Today I made a shake so nasty I could only drink half of it- I was trying to make a frappicino- hahaha-so- decaf coffee for the liquid, crushed ice, some sugar free toffee flavoring, and vanilla protein mix. It was just a frothy flavorless concoction. The vanilla just does something that no matter what I put in it, it turns out sort of slimy.
I have lately been feeling my incisions and bruises around some of them. At random times the areas around them will just ache or pull or something. I have these three tiny incisions at the top and my bra rubs against them and I've got this painful itchy deal going on there. I don't think it's yeast- because some of it is in the shape of some bandaids I had on there- latex allergy? I've never had that before.
I'm extremely tired of my menu options- I take pills- why couldn't I eat just whatever I want very mushy? I can have milk products next week, yay! I found some miso soup mix in World Market and I eat that like broth and it's pretty good for when I want something salty. My sugar free popsicles aren't that exciting. I bought a tropical sugar free pack and the flavors are just weird.
The worst part of everything though, has to be the diarrhea. I just crapped in my pants today. Yes, I said it out loud. I didn't JUST do it- I wouldn't still be here typing- ooooh so gross! OMG! I have had just the worst gas- now I know why they put innermint and something else on our recommended shopping list. So, sometimes I seriously don't know whether I'm going to poot or poop- it's not nice. I try go as often as possible- but damn! I can't crap in my pants at work next week! I'll take immodium when it gets bad like they suggested. I know I'm on liquids and that's why it's happening- but man- nasty nasty nasty! My husband said- oh that's good- you're going to be really fine but repel men with your noxious gasses! True, very true.
I can walk a and do stuff around the house and shop and do- but I can't bend over much, and I don't have a lot of stamina. I worked in my classroom for 4 hours last week and it was exhausting- I took a nap today- and I sweat a lot when I do stuff- it pours off my face!
All in all, though, it's been fine and I still think it's been a breeze compared to my worst fears for sure. I've lost 18 pounds from my high, 11 from surgery day. It fluctuates from day to day 2 or 3 pounds, but I don't sweat that. The doc says I'm doing good and I listen. Next week, the challenge will be doing all of this and eating and being me at work- I'm going to have to tell my bosses I might fly out of a meeting, I might not be able to get it all done perfectly- but I'm going to show up and try. That's all I can do!
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I have lately been feeling my incisions and bruises around some of them. At random times the areas around them will just ache or pull or something. I have these three tiny incisions at the top and my bra rubs against them and I've got this painful itchy deal going on there. I don't think it's yeast- because some of it is in the shape of some bandaids I had on there- latex allergy? I've never had that before.
I'm extremely tired of my menu options- I take pills- why couldn't I eat just whatever I want very mushy? I can have milk products next week, yay! I found some miso soup mix in World Market and I eat that like broth and it's pretty good for when I want something salty. My sugar free popsicles aren't that exciting. I bought a tropical sugar free pack and the flavors are just weird.
The worst part of everything though, has to be the diarrhea. I just crapped in my pants today. Yes, I said it out loud. I didn't JUST do it- I wouldn't still be here typing- ooooh so gross! OMG! I have had just the worst gas- now I know why they put innermint and something else on our recommended shopping list. So, sometimes I seriously don't know whether I'm going to poot or poop- it's not nice. I try go as often as possible- but damn! I can't crap in my pants at work next week! I'll take immodium when it gets bad like they suggested. I know I'm on liquids and that's why it's happening- but man- nasty nasty nasty! My husband said- oh that's good- you're going to be really fine but repel men with your noxious gasses! True, very true.
I can walk a and do stuff around the house and shop and do- but I can't bend over much, and I don't have a lot of stamina. I worked in my classroom for 4 hours last week and it was exhausting- I took a nap today- and I sweat a lot when I do stuff- it pours off my face!
All in all, though, it's been fine and I still think it's been a breeze compared to my worst fears for sure. I've lost 18 pounds from my high, 11 from surgery day. It fluctuates from day to day 2 or 3 pounds, but I don't sweat that. The doc says I'm doing good and I listen. Next week, the challenge will be doing all of this and eating and being me at work- I'm going to have to tell my bosses I might fly out of a meeting, I might not be able to get it all done perfectly- but I'm going to show up and try. That's all I can do!
