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 Well I am 2 weeks post op today...dont feel any different, have no puking, nothing...not that i am complaning lol REALLY GETTING TIRED OF CARNATION INSANT BREAKFAST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can not wait till dec 6th so i can move on to FOOD !!! Lost 17 pounds since the day of surgery - 51 total but only 4 pounds this last week  :(  really not happy with that but whatever just thought it woul be more i guess

 OMG OMG OMG .... I got "The Call" AHHHHH ok - breath- lol ... and they offered me a date that is um, well, REALLY SOON!!!! SO I am going in on NOV 15th !!!! But I am GEEKING !!! We had already planned my middle childs birthday party, on the day of her b-day which is the 13th, so i have all of that to deal with. Then there is, of coarse Thanksgiving the next week, guess i wont be eatting any turkey this year lol.  AND who could forget Christmas just a few short weeks after that.......So i did most of my xmas shopping, and decorated the house with the kids yesterday, and did a HUGE food shopping trip to make sure that the hubby and the kids are good for while i am gone, and so that i have what i need when i get home..................just really nervous, my mind just keeps rolling, and rolling, and rolling thinking that i am "forgetting" something....not really sleeping well. My head is filled with worry. Worry about the big things, to the smallest things. Worring about being away from my kids over night, worry about how much my husband is gonna worry. Worry about how he is gonna handle sitting in the waiting room while it's going on. Never slept without him, even when i had our babies he would sleep at the hospital with me. Worrying about loose skin. Worrying about what i will be able to wear when we go to Disney World in sept of 2012. REALLY JUST WORRY ABOUT EVERYTHING !!!! AND ANYTHING !!!!!!     

Is this normal?! or am i just loosing it lol 

Scary, Scary, Scary !

I guess I will just try to keep my mind on my daughters birthday party. Dive in head first into that and hopefully not worry myself sick about the "everything else". ........ Did i mention it's a Tangled party lol yeah she is turning 9 and LOVES Rapunzel. If you havent seen Tangled oh you soooo have to see it lol.


AND I am off to worry ..... I mean NOT worry lol oh boy

 Well...ok so i went to the dr on the 21st of sept &  got my blood work, EKG, & chest x-rays done, and my file sent off to the insurence company......and now i play the waiting game.  SOOOO FUSTRATING !!!! When i met with the surgeon on the 21st i asked him how long it takes and he told me most ins get back to them in 2 weeks (they have 30 days) well nows it been 2 1/2 weeks and im still weighting :(  and then he told me that they are booking surgery a week or two after they get the approvel from the insurence .......... soooo i just dont wanna be healing in the middle of the holiday's 



JUST REALLY FUSTRADED NOW !!  TIRED OF BEING IN LIMBO ! 

i know i need to exercise but my body hurts so bad, and i know they say working out will make you feel better but it's really hard to "get going"       excuses come easy      and i will admit ignorance is a bitch .... i just don't know HOW to get started  ..... with 3 kids it's hard (excuse) ..... my body hurts (excuse)  ..... i don't have time (excuse) ------ if excuses counted at exercising I'd be a pro !  UGH frustration ........I'll wait for the kids to go back to school ....... and i have an appointment with the exercise specialist the 31st then we will go from there.........yeah OK starting point set! .... i think UGH