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I am currently at 160. I am doing ok with everything but sweets. I can eat sweets just about like I could before surgery. The only thing that makes me dump and feel sick is ice cream or pudding. I guess its because it slides through and hits my intestine more quickly. I have decided that I was the happiest at about 147-150 so that is my new goal. So I have a few things I'm going to do to get on the road: 1. go to support group  2. go to gym or exercise at home 3 times a week  3. cut back on sweets  4. drink 6-8 glasses of water 5. cut portions. If I keep it simple and realistic I can accomplish it. Hey, 10 lbs is not 100 lbs.

I have been going to see a therapist and mental health doc. It has definitely helped. They put me on Effexor and Wellbutrin. They seem to be doing the trick. Talking to the therapist helps quite a bit too. She's helping me with a lot of issues. I could see that I was getting back into some old patterns and I wanted to nip it in the bud before things got out of hand. I have a lot of issues that I needed to address. I'm working on it.

I really want to get things going with plastic surgery. I would like to have a tummy tuck. I need a breast lift as well but right now I would be satisfied with just the tummy tuck. I had some money saved up for the procedure but I had to use it when I started having trouble with my finances. I'm trying to get some saved back up. I don't want to have to wait 5 or 10 years but I will if I have to.

I am sitting at 165 now. My lowest was 141 but for only about a week. I stayed at 147 mostly. So that means I have had nearly 20 lbs of gain from my lowest. I am struggling. I'm not gonna lie. I can eat so much more now than I could last year at this time. I haven't been going to the doctor for rechecks because I had sort of a "falling out" with him. His office failed to send all the appropriate paper work in for my surgery and somehow I slipped though the cracks. They thought I was approved for surgery and went ahead with it when I wasn't. Now the insurance isn't paying and they wont more documents from the surgeon that his insurance lady refuses to send. I have had words with her several times. I have since given up and just haven't been back. I'm really worried that there may be something wrong and I will gain my weight back. I have have sort of a depression set in as well. I'm not sure if that is normal or what. I really think I need to see someone about it. I haven't been exercising either. I got a membership to the YMCA a couple of weeks ago but I have only been 3 times. Wow, kinda sounds like I'm falling apart here.

Haven't updated in a while. I'm at 155 right now. I can see that I have gained in my pics. I can also tell when I put on my jeans. My size 8's are tight. I haven't been exercising regularly so I think that's what I'm going to have to do the lose this. I want to be at 140 and stay there. I know that I can. At least I have 15 lbs to lose and not 100. It's going to have to be the "old fashioned way' since I am 2 years out. I can tell my hips are hurting again and it's not as easy to get up anymore after sitting or laying down. I just hope I don't fall back into an old routine. I have been doing the emotional eating again and wanting sweets. I just got out of a relationship and that was pretty devastating. I need to get some balance and not slip into a depression. Need something to look forward to, some kind of goal to work towards.
On a better note~ I AM 92 LBS LIGHTER THAN I WAS 2 YEARS AGO!!

I was just looking at my before pics and thinking. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER, NEVER AGAIN will I ever be that big. I don't care if I have to hair lip hell!! I will do what ever it takes to keep from ever getting that big again. I have heard of people gaining back their weight but I will do whatever it have to do to keep that from happening. I have been gaining some and honestly I don't know exactly how much because I have packed away my scale. I been weighing on my granny's scale but it can't really be right. I have looked at some pics of me taken recently and I can tell that I have gained. It looks more like about 20 lbs not the 13 lbs that the scale is showing. So here I go!! I'm gonna take this weight back off if it's the last thing I do!

I haven't been on here in forever!  I have been busy with life I guess you could say. I have been building a house since April with the help of Habitat for Humanity. Things are definitely going my way for once. I have been dating again. No one seriously. I have been going out a lot with friends. This is a lot of fun. People are finally getting used to the new me. 
I have been living with my grandmother since May 15. Doing this while I build my house. I have been having some financial "mishaps". Hopefully I will be able to dig my way out of this financial hole I'm in soon.
I have been struggling again with my weight loss. I have gotten back up to 154 lbs. I really hope this is not a continuing trend and that I can stop this before it gets out of hand. I have been eating way more than I used to. The sweets are my downfall. I have to eat quite a bit to get sick. Then I go and do it again. It seems like I can eat just about what I used to. I know this is probably not the case but after only being able to eat tiny amounts it just seems so weird to be able to eat more. I think my problem is that I have been so used to trying to stuff as much food as possible in my pouch to keep my strength up that I can't get used to not doing that. I'm still eating to full and eating more than I should. Also the food doesn't stick around for long. I can eat about every 2 hrs not matter how much I just ate. I think I'm going to try one of my old tricks which is just eating till comfortably full and waiting till I'm certain I'm hungry before eating again. I'm going to have to listen to the cues better. I just really really hope that I can do this.
Another thing I have noticed that I do is I tend to want to eat softer foods. I steer clear of firm, lean proteins like chicken, beef and fish. I know this is a no-no since the slider foods are gonna make me gain. It's just so much more comfortable to eat the bad stuff. I'm definitely gonna have to change some bad habits. I know that I can because I have already changed somethings that I never thought I would ever be able to. I no longer drink sweetened drinks and carbonated drinks. Also I'm going to have to watch separating the fluids from the solids. I can wait after eating to drink but I have trouble waiting to eat after I drink. I'm going to have to work on that. I can tell a difference if I wait at least 15 mins. I just cant seem to bring myself to wait 30 mins. But if I eat too soon after drinking the food doesn't seem to stick with me.
I'm soooo gonna have to start exercising! I have been having some fatigue lately. I need to keep up with my vitamins more as well. I been getting the b-12 shot the past couple of months and I can tell a difference when its tine to get it again.
It's weird how 10-12 lbs can make such a difference when you weigh so much less. At 250 lbs that much doesn't make hardly any difference
I have got to get back into support group too. I have really slacked off with that.  I haven't been to a meeting in months. Not since before Thanksgiving.
It has been 21 months since my surgery. Basically what it all boils down to is I need to get my head out of my ass

I have finally broke my stall. I have been fasting the past 3 days for reasons other than losing weight. I have felt like I needed to get some things in order and I have been praying and seeking God. I went with my sister yesterday to her weight loss clinic appt and decided to get the Lipo-vite shot. It has given me lots of energy and I figured I could use the B vitamins. I'm now at 141 as of this morning. My goal was 140. I'm thinking I will probably lose more than I initially wanted to but that is fine with me. That will give me a little wiggle room. MY BMI IS NORMAL!! Thank the good Lord. I have not been able to say that in the last 20 years. If I had  to I would do it 100 times over again.

Well, I'm sitting at 149. Hadn't lost a pound in over a month. I have actually gained 2. I think. I can't tell when I'm constipated, which I have been for the past week. I have been having trouble with that for about 3 months. The Dr told me to get some Mira lax. I tried it for the past couple days and it's not really working. Anyway, I need to get my portions under control. I have been really pushing it. I will eat until I'm about to pop sometimes and then start again as soon as my pouch is empty. I still haven't been exercising. I know I would feel better but I just can't seem to get into the habit. If I try and eat slow and control my portions I will actually loose. I know my body is actually wanting to let loose of the extra weight because I loose so easily when I actually cut back. I just have to do it. I'm afraid I'm falling into my old habits. I don't want this to be the end of my weight loss. I always figured I would lose more and then have room for a little regain. Maybe I'm not done. One can only hope.....

I had my one year anniversary on Sept 30th. I am holding at 147 lbs. That's as low as I've seen the scale get. I would REALLY like to lose 7 more lbs and get down to my goal of 140 lbs. I have switched shifts at work so now I am working 1st instead of 3rd. I really hope that helps me feel better and lose more weight. I saw a colleague of mine the other day at a football game who had the RNY about 3 years ago. He appeared to have gained a LOT of his weight back. That is soooo scary!   I have another colleague who had the surgery about 3 years ago and he looks great. He hasn't gained a pound back. I need to figure out what they are doing and what has worked and not worked for them. I am terrified of gaining back any. I realized the other day that I was developing some dangerous habits. I went home every day after work and sat on my couch and ate way too much then just went to bed. I don't have my kids on the days I work and I don't get off till 6 pm and have to go to bed early so I can get up at 5 am. So I wound up eating. I realized what I was doing and threw my bag of potato chips across the room. OMG!! I have got to get this under control! So I think I'm going to try to get some hand weights and some little pieces of exercise equipment and do that while I'm winding down and watching TV when I get home. I need to schedule my 1 year check-up and get my labs drawn. I guess I'll have to get on that.

I have been wrestling with the scale. I see a gain then a loss over and over. This time last week I was beside myself because the scale read 152 lbs. A 5 lb gain. Today the scale said I was 149. I was feeling like I was in a major stall. Which I guess I was for a while. I had bounced back up and now it's going back down I guess. I ran out of my good protein about 3 weeks ago and I have been feeling the effects. I didn't realize how much the protein helped. I started having some weird symptoms like skin lesions and dry itchy patches. My face looked very drawn and tired. I got sick alot. My teeth have started getting cavities. I bought more protein the other day and I have noticed an almost immediate improvement, especially with my skin. It's just unbelievable how much it helps. It's really hard to take in enough without having to supplement with shakes. I have been getting more exercise the past week too. I been walking or something everyday. I really need to keep that up. I'm sure my loss would pick up. I know that 9 lbs is not a lot to loose but I really want it off. I hope I don't have any regain. That's such a scary thought. I've been through too much to gain any back. I had gotten down into my size 9 pants. I haven't been able to wear them for the past couple of weeks. They were just too tight. I have been having some serious constipation too. Maybe if I get that resolved it will help too. I have been able to borrow some of my 13 year old daughters clothes. That's pretty awesome! She's a slender girl. Oh yeah, 9 days till my surgiversary!

I have lost 100 lbs as of today! I'm on the 5th day of the 5 day pouch test. I took off the 4 lbs that I had gained and lost 2 more. I've got to get me one of those century cards. Just 7 more to go till I reach my goal of 140 lbs. I'm gonna try my best to keep up with the good habits. I have filled my fridge full of good low glycemic high protein foods.