Cherina
WHO i Am . . . My name is Cherina, I am 26 years old and a mother of three children under 4. I I have married for 7 ½ years and I adore my husband Michael, as I will soon be a firefighters wife as he is working to become one of the fine men of LAFD. When I am not wifey or mommy I am the teacher-in-charge at a Sacramento continuation high school, which is a position that means ½ of the time I am a vice-principal and the other ½ of the time I am a classroom teacher. I am looking to meet friends in the Sacramento & Bay Areas of Cali and who are about business and looking to make real changes in their lives. I am beginning in the surgery process and looking to expedite it whenever possible, I have already met my 10%, with the exception of a couple of pounds, passed my psyc. evaluation, and had my file transferred to a less impacted Kaiser bariactrics location from Freemont, Ca. to Richmond ,Ca. I look forward to getting to know folks and undergoing this transformative journey with the support of everyone here and if I can ever lend support I am happy to do that. I’m heavy and have been so for most of my life. I love myself, I think that I am beautiful and perfect, but I want to be healthy. I have always been “over” active which was my equalizer. Through high school and college my weight leveled at about 170 @ 4’11-5 feet, which does not sound heavy until you take into account that I was an athlete and worked out at least 4 hours a day and ate a healthy well balanced diet. Once I became a mother of three children, had commitments like work and school my weight ballooned to over 243pounds. I believe that I carry my weight well and don’t look AS LARGE as I really am, I love the way that I look I think , no I know that I am beautiful and I dress well to work what I have but this is about my health and my life not my looks. The women in my family are TINY, my mother is nearly 50 and currently at her heaviest weight somewhere around 128 pounds, my sister is 120 pounds @ 5’7 and my grandmothers (on both sides) are even smaller. My weight has become a divisive factor between my mother, sister and grandmother, they just don’t get my struggle, I eat better then they do; I work out regularly and watch my intake in which they rarely do. I remember trying on outfits and my mother buying them for my sister because they looked better on her body type, she did not mean harm but it hurt. My grandmother despite some significant losses, would pat my stomach and as if I’m feeling a bit heavy. I avoid spending time with them because time usually means shopping and we could spend 6 hours in the mall going to forever 21, BeBe and other “skinny” stores then when we get to Torrid or LB we are always “in a rush” or I would be left shopping alone while they visit other stores. Plus I am tired of having the dress that is “cute” but looks like a dress for my mother when my mother and grandmothers are suited, booted and fitted in drop dead gorgeous dresses that belong on a twenty-something. I AM A Twenty something and I want to dress like it!!! I’m tired of being the CUTE one or the COOL one, when everyone refers to my mother and sister as FINE, HOT, A PIECE OF WORK, BAD, when the reality is we LOOK JUST ALIKE I am just heavy, and that makes me less in the eyes of everyone around me except for my husband. My family loves me but they see me as the heavy one, and think that my weight is an issue of work ethic and laziness. My concern is that despite the active lifestyles that they lead, the “healthy weight” they maintain women in my family still have diabetes, high blood pressure and other health issues that are often related to weight, and with me being large I realized that I was a ticking time bomb for health issues. Over the last 2 years I have been committed to a healthier lifestyle not just loosing weight. I have tried everything from Jenny Craig to Weight Watchers, liquid diets, soup diets, subway diets, low carb diets and anything else that you can think of, In January 07 my new year’s resolution was to be healthy and a role model for my daughters. After Michaela my 4 year old told me “I don’t want to be “little” like Nonni (grandma) and Yaya (my sister) I want to be “B-I-G” like you while spreading her arms as wide as she could and giving me the biggest hug ever which just made me cry, happy tears because she loved me regardless and sad tears because I realized my example for her and her little sister was not healthy. So in January I consulted my Kaiser PCP and she told me that for her to refer at my weight because I am “borderline” @ 226 pounds (on the small side, which is the first time that statement has every been made in my life) I had to my 10 % prior to referral and detail my eating logs for 3 months. And as of April 20th it was done I am down to 205 - 40.7 BMI and I have now been referred to bariactric at Kaiser Richmond, Ca. Well that’s all for now, I am a bit emotional because I just relived a bunch of stuff in my head that I have no clue how to release to paper, I guess maybe my story is not so simple. Comments Welcome!!! I. Be healthy NOW & in the FUTURE II. live healthier and longer with my children, their children and their children’s children and just maybe their children too! III. To weigh less than my husband IV. have my husband toss me like a rag doll and not throw out his back V. Bring sexy back VI. Become a FREAK and have totally uninhibited sex life. VII. Walk w/o rubbing and burning thighs when I wear a skirt.VIII. Be a healthy role model for my girls. IX. Be the sexy sister not just the cute one. X. shop with my Sister and Mom in the same store XI. Wear shorts for fashion not function, and ROCK IT! XII. Wear a bathing suit… no a bikini with no cover. XIII. Become a trophy wife.XIV. Go to Vegas and dance on top of the coyote ugly bar XV. Dress the way that I feel . feisty XVI. be “on top” and BREATHING at the same time XVII. Be referred to as a MiLF.XVIII. Not be described as the “cute heavy” sister, friend exc. XIX. Breathe easier. XX. Take his breath away. XXI. Be the “whos that girl?” at my class reunion. XXII. walk by a full length mirror and stay to enjoy the view. XXIII. Whoo Hoo my husband with the lights on. XXIV. Wear white pants, shorts and mini skirts. XXV. be able to park my in a tight spot and be able to get out. XXVI. Measure life not in the moments of breath that I take. But he moments that take my breath away. Have ideals for this list??? Send them to me K.I.T Be Beloved, Be Blessed - Cherina
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MY STORY IS A SIMPLE ONE ! ! !
