Don't beat yourself up too much, Melody ~ I'm right here with you. I believe it's normal - I'm on the 9th of April and I've been every which way but settled until the past week. Try surrounding yourself with the white light of God and surround yourself in His angels - ask them to help you during this difficult night - before, during and after surgery. We're not living right now, my friend - not if your anything like I am. We'll be getting our life back...think positive, positive thoughts & let's get through it together.
Bright Brilliant Blessings ~