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I spoke with my friend who was dieing of cancer about wls. She looked at me and said push away from the table. I lost my friend maybe a month after her comment which was Dec 2010. In Feb 2011 I decided to try pushing away from the table once again. I purchased Active 2 for Kinect, began drinking green smoothies and eating better. I dropped 20 lbs during my 9 week Active 2 challenge. I had a stall in weight loss so I cut out the smoothies (too much fruit sugars) started watching my portions and eating organic. At least 90 percet organic. Another few lbs lost then a stall again. Discouraged,  I then decided to join a gym and My Fitness Pal. I have hit a few stalls but I continue to push through. A few stalls was because I was not eating at least 1200 calories and not drinkig enough water. During thse stalls I was losing inches and my body was slimming. At least something was transforming. My summer clothes no longer fit but I continue to wear them until winter. I am now down 45 lbs and have another 45 to go. Depending on how I look and feel, I may continue. There is no way this is an easy journey. Anything worth having is worth working for. I want my life and health back. My Fitness Pal has been a huge help. I check out nutritional values of food on the spot before I make a decision to eat it or not. It also help me keep track of exercises, calories burned from the gym to house work. I know my friend is looking down at me rooting me on. Slow and steady wins the race. I wish everyone a successful journey with whatever route you continue to choose.

 Jan 8th is the seminar. I am excited about learning more but very afraid of the lap band procedure. I know this will better my health but afraid of going under the knife. I am battling back and forth in my mind. I am ready for a new me, I am ready to hopefully throw away blood pressure pills, away with GERD and apnea. Having to convince me to lay on the table is a different story. I remember the days of having more energy, buying and wearing smaller clothes. Looking back, I thought I was fat. I wish I had those days  of way back right now. I continue the battle even in my blog. I am trying to heal from the loss of a dear friend and I am battling myself for making a life change. GOD please give me the courage and strength to overcome the nervous feelings.