cbz1815
Christmas Trigger Buster
Dec 18, 2011
I'm divorced and my coping mechanism when my girls went to their dad's each Christmas was to eat sweets and go out to eat comforting food and to watch TV and to lay on the couch and eat some more. This year I have the sleeve and girls not only went to their Dad's for the weekend but they went to ORLANDO for an over the top Christmas extravaganza that I could never afford to give them. Talk about triggers!
1st night I wanted to eat chocolate but all I had in the house was a sugar free pudding cup. I talked on the phone to my sister and a friend instead.
2nd day - I went to the Bariatric support group, went grocery shopping and took the dog to the park for some exercise. I did watch movies but I pulled out my stored clothing to see what I had as I lose weight. Didn't over eat.
3rd day - I made myself attend the singles group at church and it was fine. They eat as entertainment which is not so fine. I had almond crusted chicken and a few bites of sweet potato. I was doing fine until as I drove home I had the urge for chocolate. Went to the drugstore to buy more vitamins and bought a Milky Way Midnight bar. I thought I wouldn't be able to eat the whole thing in one sitting but I ate it all on my drive home just like the old days. SCARY!!!!!! I took a long nap and then ate better for dinner. I'm only 1 month out and I've already succumbed to temptation and my sleeve didn't save me. WAIT - I have to do my part - it is a tool not a miracle worker.
4th day - the girls are coming home tomorrow so I need to clean the house up from my slovenly ways and get back on track. I know they love me even though I can't take them to Disney. I know I am lovable and good. I will reward myself for making it through my old BINGE period with just one slip up - I'll buy a pair of slacks for work that actually fit, thank the Lord for helping make it through and hug my girls and have a quiet little Christmas with them.
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1st night I wanted to eat chocolate but all I had in the house was a sugar free pudding cup. I talked on the phone to my sister and a friend instead.
2nd day - I went to the Bariatric support group, went grocery shopping and took the dog to the park for some exercise. I did watch movies but I pulled out my stored clothing to see what I had as I lose weight. Didn't over eat.
3rd day - I made myself attend the singles group at church and it was fine. They eat as entertainment which is not so fine. I had almond crusted chicken and a few bites of sweet potato. I was doing fine until as I drove home I had the urge for chocolate. Went to the drugstore to buy more vitamins and bought a Milky Way Midnight bar. I thought I wouldn't be able to eat the whole thing in one sitting but I ate it all on my drive home just like the old days. SCARY!!!!!! I took a long nap and then ate better for dinner. I'm only 1 month out and I've already succumbed to temptation and my sleeve didn't save me. WAIT - I have to do my part - it is a tool not a miracle worker.
4th day - the girls are coming home tomorrow so I need to clean the house up from my slovenly ways and get back on track. I know they love me even though I can't take them to Disney. I know I am lovable and good. I will reward myself for making it through my old BINGE period with just one slip up - I'll buy a pair of slacks for work that actually fit, thank the Lord for helping make it through and hug my girls and have a quiet little Christmas with them.
The First Thanksgiving
Nov 23, 2011
I am thankful that I will be drinking my Thanksgiving dinner. I had VSG last Friday and will be on the liquid diet one last day - Thanksgiving Day. I don't care -- I have so much to be thankful for. I was inspired by a coworker to pursue the surgery and acted in time before my insurance carrier canceled WLS coverage at the of 2011. (GA State Employees) I'm thankful for picking the finest surgeon (Dr. Hart) and Center of Excellence hospital with an awesome support group that really prepared me. I'm thankful for the good books that encouraged me to deal with the psychological issues related to overeating. I'm thankful that the surgery is over, no real pain, zero nausea, and I'm getting stronger every day. I'm thankful for my sweet sister who mastered her fear of flying to come help me for a week. I'm thank for for my two teenage daughters who will encouarge me by walking with me and keeping our house a food safe zone for me. I'm thankful for the first 13 lbs that already are gone forever!
So I drink a protein shake for Thanksgiving and say a prayer of thanks -- I am so blessed and grateful and that's what the day is about anyway.
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So I drink a protein shake for Thanksgiving and say a prayer of thanks -- I am so blessed and grateful and that's what the day is about anyway.
