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I had my surgery on Tuesday and everything went perfect. It felt like a wrecking ball hit my stomach in the recovery room, but things are getting better and better. I'm moving around good and taking less and less pain meds. The hardest thing is this damn liquid diet. I don't know if I'm hungry or not anymore. I am suppose to have three meals a day of broth or jello...but I just can't eat anymore of that stuff.  The thought alone makes me nautious. So yesterday I only ate my  dinner of vegetable broth and had my 64 ounces of water through the day. All I want is a damn chicken wing...lol !!! But I know that that will be a long time off from now. It's weird though, I haven't put anything in my body that I could chew for 7 days now and it will be another 3 til I do. To be honest,  I think that I am kind of scared of eating again yet really looking forward to it. But until then... I'll keep up with plenty of water.

I'm so close. Just had my pre op appointment with doctor Blackstone and am green light for the 15th. I'm at that stage where I'm getting so nervous that I sometimes have doubts on wheather I am making the right decision or not. I know it is ther right decision though for a chance at living again. I just have to tell myself that it's my nervesacting up. This too shall pass.

Hey everyone,
My name's Brian, I am 30 years old, and I live in Mesa AZ. I moved to Arizona in 2004 from Monterey County California where I lived most of my life. I have been overweight my entire life. Not just overweight...obese. Being obese has always just been a way of life. My mom and my brother are both obese and so was my dad before he passed. I never really made a habit of weighing myself through my life, but I was probably 250 lbs+ in junior high. I do know that it was around that time, maybe early high school, that I was no longer able to ride roller coasters. That was probably one of the saddest and most embarrasing days of my life. Waiting in an hour line then finding out the safety harness wouldn't latch. Right in front of my friends and a hundred people standing in line. I could feel all eyes on me and hear the silent laughter from everyone around me. Such a horrible experience. And it has only gotten worse over the years. I have tried a dozen diets and lost weight, even as much as 80 lbs once, but it always comes back. I loose focus, or I get stressed out, or I give up, or they just don't work.

I started looking into weight loss surgery back in 2006. But when I found out that my insurance didn't cover it I gave up. Then earlier this year, I turned 30. I decided I wasn't going to die at 50 like my dad and if I was going to, that there was things in life that I wanted to do before I did. Things that being obese had prevented me from doing for so many years. You only live once and I have spent too much time being controlled and hindered by my weight. I want to ride dirtbikes, and jump out of a plane, and go scuba diving...but most of all...I want to ride a roller coaster again!! So I looked into it again. I had a friend who's mom got a lapband, which I had never heard of, and thought "hey, maybe that could help me too." So I went to a seminar at Scottsdale bariatric and heard about all the surgeries. I was still gung ho on the band, but I was open minded to other possibilities. So I made an appointment to get the ball rolling. I found out that my insurance now covered bariatric procedures. After talking to the doctor, and nutritionist, and several people online and out in the world that have had the surgery, I have gotten the band idea out of my head and am either going with the bypass or duodenal switch. Still undecided, but am open to any advice anyone may have.

It's time for me to take my life back and really live. I just finished the 3 month diet program required by my insurance and sent the paperwork in. So now I wait...that's where I am at. I hope the rest goes as smooth as everything else has so far. I haven't been this excited for a long time and can't wait to move forward.

I never write blogs or post messages or any of that kind of thing usually, but I feel compelled to now. I am at the start of a journey and I want this to look back on. I am open to talk with anyone, you can never have too much support. So feel free to message me. I have only been on this site for 2 days and think it's great. Thanks to everyone for being here.