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So on August 4th 2014 I had my lap band removed. The surgery should have been 2hrs, but it lasted 5hrs. The lap band caused so much damage and GERD ugh... I am so happy that so far I no longer have those issues. On 8/4/14 I revised to an RNY and I am down 40 pounds. Its crazy that I was so sure that the lap band would work for me. I can say it was great for the first few years, but then I start having really bad acid re flux and on some days I could not eat regular food so I would eat slider foods. I ended up gaining about 40 pounds and was scared that I would be right back at 316. Day of surgery for my RNY i was 249. I can only pray that this journey ends up being a lot better choice for me 

When to see my PCP today I am at 250 know I an really starting to slow down with the weight. I need to do something I have 50 more pounds to go.My last fill was in Jan I've only lost 6 pounds since my last fill. I know that I could kick it up a notch by walking more so I better get to it

Seen Dr. today I am down 12 pounds from last month 256 fill has .5cc. need to work on my fat% though will see if I can find a personal trainer to help me with this

3rd fill today added .5cc to my 4.5cc  I lost 10 pounds the Dr's scale says I am at 268 but my home scale says 3 pounds lighter.

I jumped on the scale this morning it read 265.2  I'm on my way YES!!!!! This journey so far has been kind of bumpy but I would not change a thing . I have lost a total of 35 pounds and  a whole lot of baggage. Its funny to me how this surgery has caused me to really look at my life and how in the past I allowed people to treat me as if I was a no one. I thank God for starting the healing process from so many years of hurt. He is so good to me Its like I have found my voice and I no longer allow people to treat me with disrespect or try to make me feel like I am lesser than . This year so far has been filled with some great things. I am just great full that God has given me another change to get things in order.

One of the hardest things a Christian has to learn is to rely on God's ability and not our strength…our own sufficiency…Relying on self has to literally die…God tells us to put our trust in Him…We may be having problems…God tells us to seek Him out…Prayer is communicating with God… we can enter into the very presence of God…We can take our failings…our problems…our fears…our needs…any troubles or trials that beset us…and seek God…and He promises He will be found and will answer us…Praying is actually talking to our Father…who holds all the to our every need…our Mediator is Jesus…The fears we have…the troubles we may be experiencing…seem to get stronger more menacing in the dark…in our minds…God directs us to bring them into the light of His presence…"Cast thy burden upon the Lord(Psalm55:22)…God tells us over and over again…"Be not anxious"…He wants us to put our trust in for Him…Look to Him for all our needs…As we seek first the Kingdom of God,and His righteousness…in other words as we pray…talk to God in Jesus' name…as we rely on our Father's ability ..on our Father's. strength…we see the hand of God working in our lives…He opens up the way for us…He makes the paths straight for us…He guides us…He leads us in the way we should go…He answers our prayers …He takes care of our needs…Don't worry about fancy phrases…or fancy prayers…Just seek God out…talk to Him ,really tell Him what is on your heart…tell Him of your joys.. .your problems …the things that bother you or whatever is weighing you down…Hand everything over to Him…seek His answers…prayer is a form of praising God…(Psalm145:18) says, "The Lord is nigh unto all them all them that call upon Him." Amen

Saw my nut today she told me that I am eating way to many carbs and that I should not be snaking at all. So have plans to go grocery shopping this weekend. Have to re-start this thing. weight is 279  I have lost three inches in a month and only 6 pounds so I guess that is good? I am a few days away from the TOM so that could have something to do with it . But I know that I can do better. I get my next fill on Thursday can't wait to have some restriction finally. 10/1/09 saw the Dr. added 2.0 cc to my already 3.5 cc. band is a 10cc band so I am half full I hope this gives me some kind of restriction. weight today was 278

10/5/09
I had to go in for a unfill had major problems over the weekend could not get anything down Dr. removed 1cc and I fill so much better. I am at 4cc

It has been 7 weeks since I had surgery and I am not eating correctly or exercising.  I had my first fill  8/25 and I have no restriction . I am really mad at myself because I am eating any and everything I weigh 280 this has to be what they call BANISTERS HELL. I need to get my but back on track I keep telling myself that I will do it tomorrow but tomorrow has not come yet . I have lost 20lb's so far and have about 80 more to go. GOD please help me from myself I said this is what I wanted and you blessed me with what I asked for Know I just need the motivation to see this thing to the end.

I had my first fill today weight was 284 only four pounds lost sense last visit (I have been drinking a lot of vanilla shakes from jack in the box) it is time to stop that. almost 20 pounds from the the time I started this journey all that to say I am happy that I am on this journey. I just need to walk more it's time to stop playing and do this thing feral. Why do we sabotage ourselves sometime ???? Any one who know the answer to this question please tell me.

I went for my first post-op Dr. appointment all was ok. I've lost a total of 12 pounds (8 after surgery) so I guess that's good.
I have not really been walking but plan to start ASAP. The Dr. cleared me to do any type of exercise I want to do I just need to find something other than walking to do. A long time ago I loved to dance but have not done so in years thinking about finding some type of dance class or aerobics class. I am on pured food for the next two weeks so far so good I just kind of make up recipes as I go and they have been very good. I do need to up my protein intake though.

 As I get ready for church this moringh I am so grateful to the lord for so many thing. I 'm grateful that I am here I'm grateful that even in all my mess he still loves me. I thank him for never leaving me nor forsaking me. I am so going to cut a step when I get to church this morning I feel good way down in my soul yall.