HI Michelle, I wanted to send you my prayers and wishes for you. Just remember God doesn't give you anything more than you can handle, even though it seems like he does at time. I wouldn't cancel your counsult either, you need that. Even if you do have to wait a little while for surgery, you can atleast get everything ready. Also, everything may be just fine with you, and you won't have to wait. I really do wish you the best of luck with all you decisions. Sandy