I think we've all had those feelings of maybe we're not that big and we can handle this on our own. I know for me, the thought of getting bigger was even more frightening. If I could handle it on my own, I wouldn't have gotten as big as I did. Follow your gut instinct, if you have to, make a list of the positive and negative aspects of having the surgery and not having the surgery. I had no problem losing weight, I just couldn't keep it off and when it came back it always brought friends with it. No more, I'm down 70 pounds today, 80 more to go.