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Still Hanging in there

Sep 12, 2010

Hello, I know it's been a hell of a long time so let me catch u up. Got laid off from my teaching job after the first year. Moved back home to SC with my mom and been here for a little over a year. Going to school to get my Masters in Education, gratuate in December. Because of school loans have a large amount of money in the bank to hopefully soon buy a house. Still at 174 lbs. Wearing 11/12 or 13/14 depending on the cut. Drinking and smoking too much as usual. I did stop for three months as I stated in my last blog but when I went back, I went back hard. Don't really think about my weight anymore, just ocassionally wishing for a tummy tuck. Hubby and kids are doing great, marriage is stronger than ever. I will upload some new pics soon.
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Damn where do I start?

Dec 28, 2008

Merry belated Christmas and Happy New Year! Well a lot has been going on in my life. Please don't ignore the fact ladies that when you are losing weight you become VERY fertile!...My husband and I do not use protection because condoms are irritating, I weigh too much for the patch, and I can't take the pill while smoking because of some risk..blood clots I think...hence I WAS pregnant and went up to 221 lbs in being 6 weeks prego. Notice I say I was pregnant...thats a sour note and I'll leave it at that. Anywho after the pregnancy I was back to eating breakfast, like to brown and serve turkey links and OJ and cereal at school. I had not been eating breakfast before that, but rather having a protein shake. My portions in the afternoon and for dinner were larger than usual. I was drinking alcohol everyday. I was sneaking outside to take a cigarette break during class. I was a fucking mess.  I just woke up one morning and said I'm sick and tired of this shit. I went to the doctor and feeling a little depressed about the now gone pregnancy bluntly asked for a happy pill and medication to help me stop smoking. My happy pill Celexa is great. Smiling all damn day!! Extra patient with my hubby and kids. My insurance would not cover the stop smoking meds . However I am one demermined gal. I got the patch!! I have been smoking and drinking damn near the last 17 years of my life. I am proud to say that as of Thursday I will be two weeks cigarette and alcohol free!!!!!! Thank you Jesus. It's hard as hell and I deal with temptaions everyday but I got this surgery to live a healthier lifestyle and to live longer and my wonderful brain came to the conclusion that there is only so much abuse any body can take. This is my temple. I should treat it like it is sacred and I am on my way one step at a time. Today make one week since my last fill. I weighed in at 214 and I am now at 200!!! Yippee Kayae MF!! Onederland I am beating down your damn door! I must admit this fill feels great. First meal is about 2pm.  Hot tea for breakfast. I have been eating sugar but damn. I'm like no alcohol, cigarettes, and damn near no food. It's a miracle I have not chopped anyones damn head off!! OH, OH guess what else. I'm in Macys and grab a size 20, 18, and just for the hell of it a 16 Apple Bottom Jeans. Of course the first one I try on is a 16. It goes over the hips, I get excited, I go for the close, grab the zipper and damn near jumped through the friggin roof, 16's were on my fat ass and they looked GOOD. I mean my booty was like PADOW!  Looks better than it did in High School! I had a tight Dereon sweater on with it and ran out of the fitting room to show hubby, making him take a double take of the booty, as I modeled it for him.  I was dancing around like a little kid in the candy store! Then I went shopping yesterday and bought like 4 no name brand jeans in a 16 and guess what. I am like a inch  away from being able to get them closed. I was like, dam this sucks.  Then I realized Apple Bottoms probably makes their jeans a little roomy in the booty and hips for us shapely sisters hence the reason I was able to fit in the 16. Oh well I am not bring them back because I have lost like 14 lbs in a week so I figure I'll be able to get into them sooner or later. Gives me something to work towards. Being a teacher is great. I've got two weeks off for Winter vacation and don't know what to do with myself. Now that I'm bored as hell because of no drinking or smoking my new past time has become shopping! So as usual I'm broke as hell after a week of splurging. Feeling great and looking better, 2009 will be my year!! Can I get an Amen! Peace. 

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Athens is layed back and cool

Oct 09, 2008

Wsssuuuuaaaappp my peoples! I know long time no hear. Well when ever I try to write with this new labtop I'll get like half way finished with a post and it will bring me back to the homepage!!! So I am now typing ever so carefully so that it does not happen again because I know it is a button I am pushing and it is sooo annoying! Talk about aggravating, Well school is going great. I love my bad ass kids! I am never bored and I am payed  a decent salary with the summers off so I can not complain. Athens is a small college town and any big event revolves round UGA football and I hate sports. Needless to say I take the 45 min hike to the ATL to party. Well my hubby and I only party like 2 to 3 times a year anyway and I recently did for my 31st B-day. Had a blast. We were drunk off of some drink called a blue mother fucker...in white establishments called Tokyo Tea,,,excellent drink. I am looking sexy and I do apologize but Nov 1st when I buy a new dig. camera I promise I will take a pic in that brown and white dress that I have posted in my pics now and give you a few months before and after shot. It is a world of a difference! I have a protein shake for breakfast. Mind you I am feeling like I am starving  by lunch but it is an ignorable hunger.  Thank you Lord. By lunch I feel like I am statrving but I am only able to eat 3/4 of a Lean cuisine.. Newbees the surgery works! It's slow losing but the weight does come off and slowly but surely you will be able to bring your sexy back!!!!! Love YA ALL!

Athens GA here I am!!

Aug 03, 2008

Well I've finally made the move to Athens, it was hectic of course. I love my new house! It has a garden tub and the bathroom is huge. The kitchen is huge with an Island. The den is huge and it has a deck and a formal dining room. Loving it. I start teaching tomorrow. I am sooo excited. I got another 1 cc fill before I left SC.  I really feel this one is going to last me a long time. I can't eat before 11. I can only eat a little and I get full fast. It is perfect. Don't hardly think about food which is wonderful, even with foods I love I can't eat much. I start teaching tomorrow! I am so siked. Can't wait. Yipee! Wish me luck. 

THE MIRENA FROM HELL!!!!

Jun 28, 2008

WASSUP? Hope everyone is good. Well I'm feeling alot better. Girls let me give you the low down. If any of you are thinking of birth control don't get the Mirena (IUD) inserted! I had it in for about a month and then my period came heavy for like nine days so of course I was like what the fuck is going on. I decide to blod it and low and behold I come up on this site called where it was referred to as the Mirena from hell. I had been having a lot of issue the past month and did not tie it to the Mirena. Every person on there was complaining about their skin breaking out which I blogged about earlier this month, not being able to lose any weight despite diet and excercise which I have been going through all this month, being VERY short tempered to the point where it has destroyed marraiges and affected childre, yep Ive been blacking the hell out on my family, and spotting evry damn day which was happening to me and was gross. They even talked about their hubbies feeling like something was stabbing them, mine complained too and actually showed me a little hole it made on his shaft! Well of course I got the damed thing taken out at my one month checkup which was Tuesday and I have lost two pounds already! I had no idea all these things that I have been going through were tied to the damn mirena from hell. My short temper is easing back and my face is clearing up slowly but surely. I'm sure being that the thing last for five years it will take a couple of weeks for the hormones to get out of my system. Then the doctor had the nerve to tell me insurance does not pay to take it out and it's $120. Well of course I acted a damn fool up in there with all my harmones raging. The doctor was looking at me like . Well they gave me my damn money back!!

Slow and Steady wins the race!

Jun 04, 2008

Wassup my peoples? Hope everyone is doing well. My face is clearing up slowly but surely. I'm down to 224.5. Finally got back on the treadmill yesterday after like a month of just slacking. Only did a half mile on a 10 incline and then worked out some on the ab lounge. Low and behold this morning I was a pound down! Yippee. It's slow but I thank God for every pound gone. A new thing that I am thankful for is my greediness which I thought I would never get over is gone. I listed to the Doc on my last fill and started replacing breakfast with a protien shake. Since doing this I've started loosing interest in foods I used to love. I am eating much less and not so worried about what I'm gonna eat for lunch, dinner etc. It's a great feeling. My pants that I was raving about finally being able to fit in are now loose! I don't mean to give TMI but for those of you whoare thinking of having this surgery I think the only down fall for me is occasional constipation. I may go like evry two to three day when before the surgery I used to go twice a day.  I had to take a laxitive yesterday! Any who I had my first stuck moment today! Hubby woke me up from a nap to eat dinner. I know my band is tight in the morning but didnt think it would be tight after a nap. Long story short I took about four bites os Festival (like a hard dough bread that is fried) And while swallowing it started to hurt like hell. I put down my plate and satrted grimacing due to the pain hoping it would pass and just go down. Hell to the naw, it was not going down and I suddenly became very sick to the stomach and ran to the bathroom. After dry heaving and letting up a little bread I felt better. Needless to say I loss my damn appetite! I know I know, shouldn't be eating no damned fried bread anyway!  Yeah it's been a crazy day. I also killed my son's Python. Not on purpose. Don't ask me why but today I went outside and it's like 96% and I come up with the bright idea to put the snakes cage outside so he could get some sun. Thought he'd love it being that Python's are from the desert and everything. He was dead withing a couple of hours. My son cried for an hour. He is 7 and was infatuated with his snake. The snake was really little and my son had begged me for one for like a year. We've had him for like six months. I didn't stop to think that although Pythons are from the desert this one was a baby and probably bred in captivity and not used to the heat. Oh well everything happens for a reason because I was starting to fell creeped out thinking about the snake getting bigger and harming someone in my family. I mean he was very gentle but then again he was a baby.    

2nd Fill

May 23, 2008

Well I got my second fill. 1/2 a cc//nothing big. I notice a lile difference but nothing major. I have to drink slower. I have not lost anything since my fill on Monday, but then again I have not excercised so I guess I'm expecting a miricle. I know I need to get it together. Been thinking about joining a gym but my funds are tight. I feel my self getting really jiggly and I know I need to pump some iron!!!  I'm excited about starting my new teaching career. I'm a little stressed trying to find a new place and my skin is breaking out. I look like a teen going through puberty. Not sure if it's the stress of weight loss or what. I got my IUD put in on Tuesday. DAMN did that hurt like a MF. No more babies for 5 years. Thats kind of depressing but don't want to mess up with my weight loss goals. Been trying to slow down on the wine. I'm taking baby steps.

Got the J-O-B!

May 16, 2008

Well I landed a teaching postion at Rutland Academy in Athens GA. So me and my fam will be up and moving this summer. It is a school for  serverly emotionally and behaviorally disturbed children, so I'm sure I won't suffer BOREDOM which is always what happens to me after about six months on any given job. I will be teaching sixth grade Language Arts!!! Wopee. I've always loved English class at every grade level including college. I am totally siked and can't wait to start my new career. Uh I've been stuck at 228 for three weeks. Have not been excersing..feeling extra lazy. I get my second fill on Monday. Hopefully that will be the jump off because now I don't know if I am just getting used to the band but I don't get full as  fast as I used to and when I try to watch what I eat I am starving in like 3-4 hours. Well I'm keeping this one short and sweet. Later

Passed my Test!

May 02, 2008

Well hello my peoples. I passed my test for Special Ed teacher but failed the one for a general ed teacher by three points. Damned damned damn...oh well. I really wanted to teach special ed anywho. My wonderful fabulous 7 seven year old son has autism. He was my encouragement to teach special ed in the first place. I can't wait! These are the kids that the world has damn near given up on..sometimes even their parents loose hope. I will be the one to give them that hope back and let them know their child can learn, mabey just in a different way but they can learn. My son did not even start saying his first words until after his 4th b-day. When he was first diagnosed of course I was upset. Then I went through the anger. Then I went through the I can fix him stage. Now I am at a stage of peace and acceptance and sometimes when he does not want to join me in my world I join him in his!  I declare that boy is my heart. His name is Jah, which means prince of peace. My daughters name is Kymani and she is three and she can talk circles around him. Her name is my first and middle name put together, Kim Ann. She is something else. A drama queen, and very demanding. My son is really laid back and cool and most of the time in his own world playing WII video games. Two kids are it for me. I'm about to go to the GYN next month and get a IUD to insure no more babies for the next five years. Besides not having enough time or money or soul left for any more,(yes dear, children are soul suckers! ) I don't want to have to worry about the weight issues and I don't ever want to visit the chop shop(clinic) again. I've seen it one too many times. I'm about to have 4 days off of work, I work at Time Warner Cable doing tech support and I dont have any money, once again, to take a fab trip. I guess I'll have to stay local....damned gas prices.   Any who down to 228 lbs. It's still slow and I think I'll finally really see a differnce when I'm in onederland because right now, yeah theres a change but nothing significantly noticeable.  

My secret lover

Apr 12, 2008

The scale and I have been getting along just great. I'm damn near having an affair with it. It's on my mind while I recount what I've eaten for the day before I go to bed. It's the first thing on my mind every morning that I wake up. I frequently obsess over him because lately has been treating me soooo good. Telling me exactly what I want to hear. All the right words! All right well he doent tell me but he shows me. Arent we girls always saying actions speak louder than words anyway! OK enough of my nonsense, well I've uploaded my pics from Puerto Rico. I'm on vacation this week and damn I wish I had enough disposable cash to jump on a plane to somebodies exotic beach in the sun.... damn,damn,damn...grrrrr Anywho I've uploaded a few pics, sorry it took so long.  I'll soon upload some pics of my two month progress. Also I had a non scale victory. Let me see if I can set the mood for you. It was dusk and I as in my bedroom with the curtains closed and the tv on. I took off my clothes down to underwear and bra getting ready for a shower. I glanced in the mirror and was like damn you a sexy bi#*@. I mean my waist definition is coming back. The treadmill is lifting the booty back up to where it's  supposed to be! Nevertheless I walked into the bathroom and turned on the light. Looks a lot better in the dark lol!

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