Braggs32
Hello OH community My name is Adriana,32, Boston Mass, mother of two wonderful girl's age's 5&9. I have already had the GB surgery in June of 06". My starting weight was 359lbs and I am currently 173lbs. I feel so blessed to have gotten my life back. I would have never thought that this would have ever been possible for myself.
I have always been over weight all my life,never had I been a "normal" weight not even as a child. My childhood was tough to put it mildly. It only got worse the older I got and the weight was the reason I missed out on alot of experience's with friend's and family. I always felt so alone and that made me depressed and that led to alot of comfort eating. I ate late at night,in the middle of the night and whenever I was feeling anything,happy,mad,sad,glade didn't matter.
I had tried several diet's over the year's and had some success with WW,diet pill's,starvation,Slim fast (I was always still hungry ) you name it I tried it. I felt like the biggest failure,loser, what was wrong with me that food was my drug of choice. why could I not have the luxury of having a drug habit or a drinking problem I used to think, at least I would be skinny and sick. (sad I know) I would have sold my sole to the devil to be thin. I had reached a point in my life where I really did not want to keep existing if this was going to be all my life was about. I was not able to keep up with my very small children at the time,I could not do laundry because the basement stairs were to much for me to handle and my knees were in such bad shape. I did not leave my house for day's at a time because going out was such an ordeal. Not to mention people starring at me and children pointing and laughing. I was living in hell on earth. I wondered why god did not love me enough to either take my life in my sleep or just take the hunger that I was always feeling away." Why me" I asked myself every day. I'm a good person,good mom, can't I just catch a break......................
I decided one day like many others before in the past to take control of my life no matter what it took. This time was different tho and to this day I feel like god answered my prayer's. But the difference was I was given the strength within myself to make and follow through with my transformation. It was just different this time. I felt strong,hopeful and never did I think of giving up. I reached out to the OCC@NEMC in Boston Mass and that's where I found acceptance,respect,friendship,encouragement and strength. I followed there program went to my meeting's and got a surgery date for the GB that changed my life. There are no amount of word's that can express the gratitude,love,respect for the team in the OCC department. Not just for taking such good cair of me during and after my surgery but for treating me like a person from day one. Life Is to Be Lived,So Live it..........
