Linda S.
knee replacement and alone-ness
Aug 08, 2009
My Pookie will be alone,and I feel badly for this. I could no longer bend to my daughter as she became worse and so disrespectful. She has many lessons to learn.
Anyway,I shall leave Pookie's food in a feeder,and many bowls of water. If I am gone too long,I will have to ask the apartment manager to check on her. She has pads and a special place to go,but she will probably be so mad that I will have messes.
I hate leaving my baby alone,she is my best friend. I pray to all benevolent forces to get me in and out,for my baby.
I will tell my brother who lives in New Mexico,if I die,to ask the manager to take my dear Pookie,and I am leaving him plenty of money to take care of her,my insurance policy...smile.
If I get permanent disability,which I should get because I will never be well again,I will move to New Mexico,and be with my brother,his family and friends.
My daughter has cost me so much,including my last marriage,which I am happy to not be in.
I always placed her first,but it was for my grandchildren,she has used this on me for years,plucking me dry.
She has never had a job for over 9 months in her entire life. They say she is bi-polar,I say she is evil.
Oh,I have lost 317 pounds.
hmmmmmmmmm.....
Jul 23, 2009
I was always fat,however,about 6 years ago,I had to go on massive steroids to live and I got way to fat to exercise or move.
I am grateful for the gift of WLS. It is a start,but one has to do the work.
Merry Christmas
Dec 20, 2007
Merry Christmas!! What a difference a year makes.
Hugs to all!
ONE YEAR
Nov 13, 2007
IN ONE YEAR, I HAVE LOST 231 POUNDS!!!!
I thought I was 330 here but was 390,other pic 476 sigh
Nov 13, 2007
Highest weight 476,huge belly and legs..
Nov 13, 2007
My Disease...
Jun 13, 2007
Trigeminal neuralgia is a condition that affects the trigeminal nerve; it is characterized by a sudden, severe, electric shock-like or stabbing pain typically felt on one side of the jaw or cheek. The disorder is more common in women than in men and rarely affects anyone younger than 50. The attacks of pain, which generally last several seconds and may be repeated one after the other, may be triggered by talking, brushing teeth, touching the face, chewing, or swallowing. The attacks may come and go throughout the day and last for days, weeks, or months at a time, and then disappear for months or years
The Disease
Jun 13, 2007
Areas 1 2 and 3 are the pain areas.
Pain
Jun 08, 2007
Well,I am back to the pain doctor on 6/13. Pain has subsided,but is still there, it has become a part of me now. I am up to 2700mg on my med, since the highest I can go is 2800, I guess I am maxed out. Other than accepting that the pain will never totally go away, and wearing pain patch on my face, things are good, I am happy, and look forward to going back to work soon. Olivia (daughter), is having wls on Monday, I am so excited for her. I ask God to pray for my distracters, and to help me heal.
I waver between a lost of 165-168...LOL. Do I really care?? I think life is going to get better, and I admit I don't want to hear anything but cheer and butterflies, there is enough reality in living for me. Blessed be...oh next, I have to go and make sure there is not a tumor in my head...LOL.
God bless us, everyone!
I OVER ATE TODAY
Jun 06, 2007
Post Date: 6/6/07 3:39 am
Linda,You can't change yesterday but you can change today. Tell me, "WHAT ARE YOU EATING TODAY?"
You have figured out some of the reasons you strayed, now get back on course and continue to follow your plan. Here's my hand, I'll help you along. It's going to be okay.
Do you want me to drag you by the ankle on this bumpy journey? There are lots of bumps in the road so you might rather walk arm in arm with me.
Annette Cherish yesterday, Dream tomorrow, Live today 
This is her Letter, I need to read it, and remember.
