Blink
6/13/2007
Jun 13, 2007
Well, here I am approved and tring to get ready to have surgery. I find myself reading all of the research and articles that I began with all over again. I am a bit scared about the life change. I am not one bit scared of the surgery itself. I am terrified of the 10 day pre op liquid diet. I have received a great deal of sample protein shakes and such. I have not tried any of them yet. I think I will save them for after my surgery and hope to cut a few $ off of the cost of the 1st month. I am getting cheap here. Everyone is wanting their money up front but not a soul has billed insurance. They expect me to pay it and then get reimbursed. I only have a $1200 total out of pocket. I have already met a little over $400 of that. Yet the hospital wants the total $1200. They called my insurance to see what they pay but they didn't bother to ask if I had met my t.o.p. Oh well. In addition to that my hubby is getting tired of hearing about it. Especially now that he has came to understand it isn't free. That we have to pay something. The tight ass. Please excuse my vocabulary.
I am just so frustrated at the moment. It seems as if this thing has been a fight all the way around. To think that pple say this is the easy side. Maybe God is telling me that I shouldn't have this after all.
I am just so frustrated at the moment. It seems as if this thing has been a fight all the way around. To think that pple say this is the easy side. Maybe God is telling me that I shouldn't have this after all.
4/19/2006 Eating like my last meal already
Apr 19, 2007
For the past couple of weeks I have ate and ate and ate. I don't seem to be getting full. Everytime I turn around my stomach feels empty and the only thing I can think about is food. HELP. I haven't even gotten a date yet. If I continue at this rate if something prevents me from having this surgery I am going to HUGE. Then what.
My hubby says that I am greiving over loosing my "Momma Cat". Maybe so. If that is the case I need to find another vent.
OOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHH
My hubby says that I am greiving over loosing my "Momma Cat". Maybe so. If that is the case I need to find another vent.
OOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHH
4/9/2007 Getting off the drug
Apr 09, 2007
I have went all weekend with just a couple of drinks of soda on Saturday to help get over the head ache. I didn't have any yesturday and I haven't had any caffine today. I am a bit more sluggish but I think I can make it now. I didn't kill anyone today at work so I think I will be okay with it.
4/4/2007 Phsych eval and ultrasound
Apr 09, 2007
Well I have two additional things out of the way. The ultra sound was cool. No big deal I have a gallbladder and it appears healthy.
The psych eval was okay. I know he thinks I am nuts. He is almost on the top floor of a glass building. Seeing that we are on the edge of the Smokey Mountains he has a wonderful view. I was tired and he had it warm and it was beautiful and rush hour I could just look out his windows for hours. I am sure that he noticed that I kept looking out the window. He probably thought I was hideing something. HE HE HE Oh well. This guy does his evals in two visits instead of one. Guess I get to wait a bit longer. I see him again on the 25th.
The psych eval was okay. I know he thinks I am nuts. He is almost on the top floor of a glass building. Seeing that we are on the edge of the Smokey Mountains he has a wonderful view. I was tired and he had it warm and it was beautiful and rush hour I could just look out his windows for hours. I am sure that he noticed that I kept looking out the window. He probably thought I was hideing something. HE HE HE Oh well. This guy does his evals in two visits instead of one. Guess I get to wait a bit longer. I see him again on the 25th.
4/2/2007 Please give a bit
Apr 09, 2007
I think that life is tring me at the moment. I have had my husband in the ER then the MD. We both have Pnewumonia. My B/P is out the roof. Please someone help take a bit of this strain off. A lady at work is giving me grief. I understand she isn't happy with her pay and that she doesn't enjoy her work anymore. I am sorry find something else. Yes I am assistant director but I have nothing to do with the pay and it isn't my fault you got caught lieing on your application and have had your duties cut. Your lucky you didn't get fired. Oh please give me a bit of patients to not hurt anyone during these tring times and also please give me the willpower to keep from pigging out on that cake on the counter at home.
3/29/2007 First Consult
Apr 09, 2007
I had my first consult today. YIPEE. I do not have to go through the 6 months of weigh ins. I only have to get a MD record for every year for the past 5 years that shows my weight. I have to have an ultrasound, EGD, and my psych eval. I go for my psych eval next week. Wooo Hoo they scheduled my ultrasound for the same day. Two birds with one stone (or trip). The surgeon said that I should have no problem taking off most if not all of my weight. Oh I can't weight for this. I am so excited about getting to ride bikes and play ball with my boy this summer.
I learned that I have shrank a couple of inches in the past couple of years. Which at the moment isn't bad because it increased my BMI and put me comfortably in range of qualifying. I really now need to work on getting my body in the mode to do this. I need to get off of the caffine and carbination. Cut out sweets and do my best not to get into this last supper state of mind.
I learned that I have shrank a couple of inches in the past couple of years. Which at the moment isn't bad because it increased my BMI and put me comfortably in range of qualifying. I really now need to work on getting my body in the mode to do this. I need to get off of the caffine and carbination. Cut out sweets and do my best not to get into this last supper state of mind.
3/28/2007 Nutrition Class
Apr 09, 2007
I went to my nutrition class tonight. That was a joke. I am not sure if it was because I already knew all that she said because my sister went through it or if this lady was just out of it. She said several times that "I don't know I never had to go through it." Hey she is naturally thin good for her. The lady in front of me said that she could just sit on her and let her get a feel for what it felt like to be heavy.
It was so funny. At the end of the class I asked if she had any suggestions for someone who is always on the go. Now this is a nutrition class so you would think that she would know that I meant food. Well she came back at me that I needed to get my husband to help and needed to make sure that I take time for myself and get a long bath in at night and relax. Well Duhh. Then I corrected myself and said that I wanted to know about some foods that would be good for on the go. I still don't have a clue what is something good I can eat on the way to my next client or for dinner when I am on my way to the ball game. Oh well. I will learn I am sure.
It was so funny. At the end of the class I asked if she had any suggestions for someone who is always on the go. Now this is a nutrition class so you would think that she would know that I meant food. Well she came back at me that I needed to get my husband to help and needed to make sure that I take time for myself and get a long bath in at night and relax. Well Duhh. Then I corrected myself and said that I wanted to know about some foods that would be good for on the go. I still don't have a clue what is something good I can eat on the way to my next client or for dinner when I am on my way to the ball game. Oh well. I will learn I am sure.
2/19/2007 Weighting
Apr 09, 2007
I am so tired of this weight and waiting. I think I am going to loose my mind. I have to wait until next week to get things rolling. My nutrition class is on the 28th and my first consult is on the 29th. I am so tired. It litterally hurts to carry all of this weight around.
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VA
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42.8
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Surgery
06/29/2007
Surgery Date
Feb 05, 2007
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