BLB1973
I'VE BEEN FAT MOST OF MY LIFE, PERHAPS SINCE I WAS 7 YRS OLD. KIDS IN SCHOOL WOULD TEASE ME CNA SAY I WAS FAT BUT WHEN I LOOK BACK ON PHOTOS OF MYSELF THEN I WASN'T FAT BUT IALSO WASN'T A # 2 PENCIL I WAS NORMAL OR AVERAGE. SO I GUESS I TURNED INWARD AND BECAME AN EMOTIONAL EATER. MY MOTHER NOTICED A BIG WEIGHT GAIN BUT DIDN'T DO ANYTHING FIGURING WAS A PHASE BUT WHEN IT DIDN'T GO AWAY SHE BROUGHT ME TO THE DIET CENTER AND I DID PRETTY GOOD BUT WE MOVED AWAY OUT OF STATE AND SHE STOPPED TAKING ME AND BEING 13 I REALLY COULDN'T BRING MYSELF SO I TRIED TO KEEP IT UP BUT KIND OF IMPOSSIBLE FOR A 13 YR OLD TO DO ALONE SO WENT BACK TO MY BAD HABITS.
A FEW YRS AGO I STARTED MAKING SOMEWHAT OF AN EFFORT TO LOSE WEIGHT BUT DIDN'T DO IT THE RIGHT WAY ALL THE TIME. WOULD SKIP MEALS AND THEN OVER EAT AT DINNER. BUT IT DID WORK FOR A BIT UNTIL I COULDN'T TAKE THE HUNGER ANYMORE SO STARTED EATING MORE MEALS AND WELL GOT STUCK FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME. BUT I MANAGED TO GO FROM PROBABLY 330 LBS OR MORE TO ABOUT 290, THEN I GOT STUCK THERE FOR LIKE A YR THEN GOT TO THE 280'S AND AGAIN GOT STUCK. GOT A BOYFRIEND WHO WAS PRETTY OBESE WITH NO AMBITION TO CHANGE THAT AND SO WE ATE ALOT OF KRAP. BUT HE'S NOT HERE ANY MORE AND I'VE PUT FORTH GREAT EFFORT. JOINED A GYM WITH MY FRIEND WHO ENDED UP HAVING SURGERY FOR HER WEIGHT LOSS SO WE GO TOGETHER WHEN WE CAN. SO SINCE JOINING IN JULY I'M DOWN 30 LBS SO A LITTLE OVER 100 LBS TO GO, MAYBE MORE ONCE I GET THERE BUT ONE THING AT A TIME. IT HASN'T BEEN EASY, ESPECIALLY WHEN U SEE UR FRIEND LOSING SO FAST AND SEEMINGLY EASILY CAUSE IS JUST THE NATURE OF SURGERY. JUST HOW THAT GOES. BUT ALL I CAN DO IS KEEP TRYING AND I'M SURE I WILL FAIL HERE AND THERE ALONG THE LINE BUT AS LONG AS I KEEP TRYING IT SHOULD WORK OUT.
