Bigdeb
My Personal Words.....
Mar 21, 2007
My body has changed like the wind on a early Spring day; sounds of bones rubbing that was once lubricated with layers of my life. Patiently waiting and anticipating the numbers as they slowly creep down; on the edge if no change. In the mirror is where I have found myself; wondering who the face is staring back at me. It's different, passionate, profound, and puzzling to think I have been buried this long. Thirty-plus years of prison within the walls of flesh, wondering if an escape was even possible. Everything has changed; the sun is brighter because I go and see it now. The moon is more clear because I care. The air is scented with smells that I haven't experienced since the age of 13. To some or should I say most; my words won't mean much and may seem ridiculous; but life is beginning again. I know why the caged dog barks, the homebound elderly person cries, and the baby in the womb kicks. A way out is there; you just can't do it alone.
*I dedicate this to my one and only; Brenda * I love you.
I'm Feelin' 
Walkin'......
Mar 13, 2007
YADA YADA......
Mar 07, 2007
Bigger Things.......
Feb 26, 2007
- Things are bigger......
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My honey sleeping on the couch......she looks so rested. I wish I was! I spent most of the weekend studying and catching up on homework and papers. I think I'm now up to speed with the rest of my classmates; but we will see. I skipped out early today; feeling the pressure of my Practice IV Mid-term tomorrow. I'm going to put in some extra study time today and hope for the best! As of for the weightloss, I'm at a stand still right now. I haven't lost anything in 6 days which is frusterating; but I do realize I'm coming off of a 8 lb. weightloss the week before. So, I have to hang in there. Doctor Z. started me on "the little purple pill" (Nexium) to help me with the digestive juices. I think they are working because I haven't been sick all weekend ! I was coming to the end of my rope, let me tell ya! I really couldn't eat anything without getting sick..... I just couldn't understand why I couldn't eat that 24 oz. t-bone... what's up with that? hahahaha....now you know I'm just kidding on that one! No more 24 oz. of ANYTHING for me anymore ! I must say that many things around me are getting "LARGER" and not smaller.
1. My car.....It must be getting bigger, because I have more room behind the wheel.
2. My clothes....I look like a hip-hop artist, now all I need is the "bling".
3. My EGO.....I think I'm the shiat right now, let me tell you, everybody wants me.
4. My bathroom.....Me and Bren can actually be at the sink at the same time without bitchin'.
5. My front door....Yeah, when I walk in now, I don't polish the door jams with my hips; weird.
6. My couch....I used to be able to reach the remote from either side; now I have to get up.
7. My refridgerator space.....wow! I never knew how big it was without all the carry-out.
8. My bed.....We finally have enough room for our cat; booboo kitty.
9. My school desk....ok, I feel adults need tables instead of desks anyway; however for the last few years, I have been jamming myself into a college desk made for tweenies. I can now fit comfortably in the desk without getting scuff marks on my white shirts. happy happy joy joy!
10. Last but not least...My closet.....more room for "smaller" clothes. Cha-ching !!!
Ok, well maybe I should study; hence the reason I'm home today :)
I'm Feelin'
Snow Recovery 2007....
Feb 16, 2007
- Snow Recovery.......
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Here is a few pictures from the last week during our Blizzard 2007 in Ohio.... We are finally dug out and back to normal. Well, as normal as it can be with 10-12 foot snow banks from the plows. It took Brenda and I almost 3 hours to dig enough snow from our cars to move them out of the parking spaces. Brenda's little red Honda doesn't do well in the snow; we found that out as she didn't even make it to work on Wednesday and classes were cancelled for me. We ended up trying to stay warm and off the streets. So, we survived ! Here's some pics :)
I'm Feelin'
Graduate with a Hole in the Neck.....
Feb 12, 2007
I'm Feelin' 
Another One Bites The Dust.......
Feb 04, 2007
- Another one bites the dust.....
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Yes, as in the day's of old..... Another one bites the dust. The term we often use in stating the fact that someone has decided to get married. My youngest sister and her fiance has finally decided to tie the knot. We are very happy for them and hope they enjoy a wonderful life together. Here are a few pics from the weekend adventures of the first dress fitting.
Sister Lorie & Deb..... She's gonna make a pretty bride :)
My mom & me waiting for the show.....(It was freezing in the bridal shop)....
Sisters acting "CRUNK".....(or were we acting?.....)
The Train......(and no, you can't ride!)......
I'm Feelin'
Fuzzy Pumper Madness......
Jan 29, 2007
Had fun this weekend teaching the kids how to use the fuzzy pumper barber shop.... I think I enjoyed it more than they did!! Man, when I was a kid; we had playdough too. But we had to press pennies and nickles in it to make shapes. What's up with that!!
Chloe and Aliza are telling Aunt Deb ..."why it have green hair Deb"?
Aliza and me waiting for a capsule farm animal to grow...... *sigh*.......
I'm Feelin' 
Scales, Degree's, & Bikini's....
Jan 26, 2007
Well, today was my 1 month check-up and I must say that I was pleased. I have lost 38 lbs. since surgery which brings my total to 104 lbs. All of my blood work is looking good except I'm a little low on my iron. I have to have that damned IVC filter removed in 2 weeks (which I'm NOT looking forward too at all)..... But, it's all part of the plan. Sooo.... alot of news this week really. I finally received my Associates Degree in Community Service Social Work this week (which was exciting); but unless you have a party and stuff, nobody really cares. So, I guess I will celebrate when I finish my Bachelors (already in progress). I will be looking for a place to intern by the Fall; I'm seriously thinking about interning at a bariatric program. I feel there is a need for emotional and service support in some of our local programs. A friend of mine had her surgery done at St. Vincents, and they REALLY have some loop holes in the program.....So, I guess when it's time, I'll send out my requests to interesting prospects. Our Summa support group is going good; we had a great turn-out last night and had alot of fun with the protein exchange. Dr. Z. cleared me for a soft food diet as of today and I can now exercise......exercise you say? haha... Last year, I would have laughed at that statement; but now, I actually feel like I can do something other than lat pull-downs. haha... So, we will see how that goes. I have been walking at school between classes, around the damn common area's.... Hey, it's too damn cold outside to walk right now! Speaking of cold..... It's like 19 degrees right now and snowing. Winter has finally arrived in Ohio! That's ok though; because we are one step closer to Summer, swimming, sun, & tans...... And...Bren in a bikini! Can't wait ! Ok, well, I'm gonna go and do something constructive for a change......Don't ask what; I have no idea.
I'm Feelin' 
To Stripe or Not To Stripe....That is the Question....
Jan 18, 2007
So.... Hope you all have a great weekend and I'll check in soon !! I'm Feelin' 
