bernadette
Oct. 19, 2006 - Today is the day!!!
Oct 19, 2006
Well,
Today is surgery day. I have contemplated this day for the last 6 months. I am still not nervous, but I do have to keep telling myself why I chose to do this. In case I forget after surgery, here were the reasons:
1. I ABSOLUTELY could NOT lose it on my own
2. I wanted to take the opportunity while I was young to make a change that would improve the rest of my life
3. I don't want to struggle with this weight the rest of my life
4. I want to break myself of the bad rituals and habits I have with food
5. I want to be beautiful again and feel good about myself
I won't post much here because I have to start getting ready. By the way, my husband is the most supportive man on this earth - and I am sorry for the last and next few months :) I get bitchy when I am hungry ;)*
Today is surgery day. I have contemplated this day for the last 6 months. I am still not nervous, but I do have to keep telling myself why I chose to do this. In case I forget after surgery, here were the reasons:
1. I ABSOLUTELY could NOT lose it on my own
2. I wanted to take the opportunity while I was young to make a change that would improve the rest of my life
3. I don't want to struggle with this weight the rest of my life
4. I want to break myself of the bad rituals and habits I have with food
5. I want to be beautiful again and feel good about myself
I won't post much here because I have to start getting ready. By the way, my husband is the most supportive man on this earth - and I am sorry for the last and next few months :) I get bitchy when I am hungry ;)*
Beginning the journey...
Oct 15, 2006
Oct. 2, 2006
Well, this is my first journal post. I skipped all the insurance madness because I didn't know how to post to my profile then, and I still can't seem to make the pictures work, but I did want to chronicle my journey. Reading others' posts have helped me so much that I wanted to help others who are also going on this journey. Anyway, my surgery date is Oct. 19 and approaching fast, and I have still not lost ALL of the 5% of the pre-surgery weight my surgeon wants me to lose. I have 10 total lbs to lose, which was cake in previous years. Somehow, I am struggling mightily with this small weight loss. Well, I guess that makes sense. I probably wouldn't be having WLS if losing weight was the easiest thing in the world. But, whatever. If 10 lbs is what stands in front of me and the biggest most powerful change in my life, I WILL MAKE WEIGHT NO MATTER WHAT! :)
Oct. 6, 2006
Well, my date keeps getting closer and closer. Unfortunately, I am having trouble losing the 5% my doctor requires. I have absolutely no discipline and I HATE dieting (gee, I wonder why I'm fat?)
Anyway, today I was thinking about possibly meeting my husband for dinner in one of our favorite restaurants, and the thought alone made me so HAPPY and content. Then, I suddenly realized that very shortly I no longer will be able to eat that way. Here is where I feel the "death of a friend" thing. It's scary, but I am brave :) Luckily, because I have been on the board for months before this moment, and because my surgeon was very thorough in educating me, I know what to expect. Well, I have 12 days since my final weigh in and 14 days before surgery, and I have about 5 more lbs to lose. I think I'll be fine, but it's period week and I do feel bloated, too. Can't wait until that's over.
On the good news, I bought a mountain bike and my hubby and I went riding last night for the first time in years. My butt hurt after minutes, and we only rode for about 20, but it was pretty fun to do that together. My husband is SOOOO sexy! I will post a picture here when I get a chance.
Well, this is my first journal post. I skipped all the insurance madness because I didn't know how to post to my profile then, and I still can't seem to make the pictures work, but I did want to chronicle my journey. Reading others' posts have helped me so much that I wanted to help others who are also going on this journey. Anyway, my surgery date is Oct. 19 and approaching fast, and I have still not lost ALL of the 5% of the pre-surgery weight my surgeon wants me to lose. I have 10 total lbs to lose, which was cake in previous years. Somehow, I am struggling mightily with this small weight loss. Well, I guess that makes sense. I probably wouldn't be having WLS if losing weight was the easiest thing in the world. But, whatever. If 10 lbs is what stands in front of me and the biggest most powerful change in my life, I WILL MAKE WEIGHT NO MATTER WHAT! :)
Oct. 6, 2006
Well, my date keeps getting closer and closer. Unfortunately, I am having trouble losing the 5% my doctor requires. I have absolutely no discipline and I HATE dieting (gee, I wonder why I'm fat?)
Anyway, today I was thinking about possibly meeting my husband for dinner in one of our favorite restaurants, and the thought alone made me so HAPPY and content. Then, I suddenly realized that very shortly I no longer will be able to eat that way. Here is where I feel the "death of a friend" thing. It's scary, but I am brave :) Luckily, because I have been on the board for months before this moment, and because my surgeon was very thorough in educating me, I know what to expect. Well, I have 12 days since my final weigh in and 14 days before surgery, and I have about 5 more lbs to lose. I think I'll be fine, but it's period week and I do feel bloated, too. Can't wait until that's over.
On the good news, I bought a mountain bike and my hubby and I went riding last night for the first time in years. My butt hurt after minutes, and we only rode for about 20, but it was pretty fun to do that together. My husband is SOOOO sexy! I will post a picture here when I get a chance.
