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The body mass index says I am at a normal weight. Normal.  NORMAL
What was I before?  I am not sure I know how to be normal.  I don't think I want to be in that crowd.
I don't want to be fat, but I think I can be thin and remain just as eccentric and abnormal as I ever was.
I don't need or want to fit into someone Else's concept of what I should be. Fat or thin, I am just me.
The same person is in here. Why do people suddenly treat me better. People smile at me, clerks want to wait on me.
Men talk to me now. No man has said a word to me for 10 years. Now that I am normal they feel it is alright to be seen talking to me.
I wonder what they would think if they knew just 11 months ago, I was the fat chick they hid their eyes from.

I am grateful for my new found health. I never want to go back. But its going to take a while before I want to be friends with the people who wouldn't talk to me 11 months ago.
I need to have all of the requisite plastic surgery to repair the damage the fat did to my body.  The scars will be a living testament to my long battle with weight. I will never be able to walk away from the battle scars.
I wonder how the man who chats me up will like me when my dress hits the floor and he can see me. What will he think, what will show on his face?
Will I even care what he thinks or will I be NORMAL and cry........                                                                               1-23-09

Hello, is anybody out there?
I don't know if this blog is public of just for me. Anyway if you can see this, hello. Its nice to be here. I have been reading your postings for a while. I have a surgery date for aug. 1st.
I have to go on a liquid diet for 2 weeks before surgery, how was that experiance for any of you?
You are all so friendly and helpful to each other, I know my friend list will fill up fast. I am looking forward to knowing all of you.