Becky2
It's been 5 months!
Nov 04, 2006
Five months have passed now since my sugrery. I'm feeling wonderful and so far have lost 97 pounds (total from my highest weight). I can cross my legs, tie my shoes, go on rides and fit in the seat, run, jump and do an assortment of different moves with my preschool children and life is good!
We had a group picture taken at work the other day. We teachers all climbed on the play structure and had it taken. When the photo came I couldn't find myself in the picture! I had no idea I looked like I did! In my brain I'm fat and large still. It sometimes feels like an old friend has died and I can't find her anymore. It's the weirdest feeling. I don't want this "old friend" back, it's just like missing someone cause their not there feeling. My closet looks different, small clothes hanging in it now and my face is so weird to me. I can feel bones in my face when I put my makeup on! It's like feeling someone elses face!
My husband and my daughter stare at me all the time. My husband says it's like having a new wife. He just gawks at me all the time! It's kind of nice and kind of scary. I think it's putting pressure on me to lose the rest of this weight and that's the part I don't like. The old me wants to fight it, you know....don't MAKE me lose weight. But the new me knows I can do it now! I have the "tool" to do it with for the first time in my life! What an empowering and awesome feeling it is! Praise be to God!
