barbaraislonely
I am a single,white,female, my starting weight was 355 I am currently 250 and hoping to lose 70 more pounds. I have basically dieted off and on for 30 years ,yoyo dieting has gotten me this FAT.I started gaining weight at around13 but when I had my son{age 22} I got serious about losing weight and I went from 220 to 163 in about 4months by eating about 500cal. a day. I never really knew how much harm I was doing to myself back then! I kept that weight at 170lbs for a year and then when I binged I gained it all back plus more in about 3months,thus began a vicious cycle! I did'nt become obsessed with eating until after many years of yoyo dieting! I never really knew I WAS obsessed until my gastric bypass, I think about eating way too much I just cant eat like that anymore without vomiting"Thank You LORD"!!! Gastric bypass is NOT a cure for obesity and food obsession but it IS a great tool to help retrain your way of thinking! I used to wait all day to eat and then eat way too much because I was ravenous! Now I have an alarm on my cell that goes off every 3 hours so I remember to eat 5x a day,my hardest part is getting myself to drink my protein shake for without it I CANNOT get enough protein,therefore I am NOT losing as fast as I should! This is one horrible battle that I am determined not to lose!! I have not been too lucky in LOVE either but I've been told noone will love me until I learn how to love myself and I CANT love myself when I am so FAT! Now that I've lost over 100 lbs.I am starting to like the new me especially after I got a breast reduction 3 months ago, when I get my tummy tuck and lose another 70 lbs it will be alot easier for me to finally accept myself! I have gone from a size 24/26 to an 18/20 and already am lovin that! I am such a loving person and have so much love to give {to the right person} but I am not going to ever settle for someone who is not right for me,waited too long to settle now! I just pray everyday that GOD will give me the grace and will power to do what I have to do make the rest of my life have a better quality than the first half has had!