bama1
I have been heavier most of my life. I can lose 20 lbs with the best of them. My problem has always been that I gain 25 lbs back. I just can't seem to keep the weight off. When I met my husband I weighed 160. (15 years ago) I felt really good about myself. At the beginning of this I weighed 249 1/2. Don't know why that bothered me when 240 didn't seem to. I guess it did but the almost 250 slappedd me across my face. I am a twin. I have always been heavier than her. I am sick of being the "fat one". My nik name as a kid was garbage gut motor mouth. Doesn't feel real good when you get called that. Anyway. I am just sick of being fat. Sick of wearing the CPAP machine every night. Sick of shopping in the fat lady section. Sick of not being able to breath when I bend over to tie my shoes. Just sick of alot of things. I have decided that I am going to take care of myself for a change. I want to be happy and healthy. My kids get mad because I don't want to go to the grandkids soccer games and things. They just don't realize how tired I get and how miserable it is for me. Hopefully after losing my weight, I will be able to enjoy it. I am looking forward to this surgery. I haven't told alot of people. Don't want to hear the negative remarks. I may tell people later.
