Thank you all so much for your kinds words and support, I am not nervous yet, although people seem intent on making me feel that way. I would be lying to say I am not somewhat anxious about my boyfriend who I know cares about me a great deal, he seems so freaked out by the thought of me having the surgery and then NOT being able to eat ANYTHING, (his boss had it) I hope he will just get over it because it is really starting to bug me and I finally straight out asked him if he thought he would not be attracted to me anymore or something, he obviously likes big women to have wanted to be with me, he was a little angry that I would even think that. I have heard that sometimes you lose "extra" weight in the form of a spouse or significant other with this surgery, I hope this is not the case but am preparing for it if that is the case. I am not an insecure person or haven't been, and it is so ironic to think that he would not want me were I to be thinner, of course I could be totally projecting this onto him and he may just be genuinely concerned, but the truth is that I am not doing this for any reason other than my health, I certainly would not even be allowed to do it were there not a real good reason, Insurance companies would just rather not if they don't see they have to. Well anyhow I am getting anxious and I cannot wait until next week I go for testing and physical at the doctor and my Pre-op class, then it will be days before the surgery. I can't wait to be a loser, sounds like good company to me!!!!