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I went back to the doctor yesterday - i missed my appt with the dietician because i got up late and me and mama stopped for breakfast. Oops :) We got to Dr. Mitchell's office about 45 mins early and they took us right on back. That has never happened b4. It was actually kinda quiet in there. It was nice. I got on "Tanitia" and weighed. It said 205.5 - So that means i have lost 33lbs all together. When Melissa came in to check me she said that she had already decided that i could probably have a fill and then she saw my numbers. Apparently i have been doing "to well" on my own. I have lost 13lbs since last appt 6 weeks ago. She said she doesn't know how much longer i can keep it up and continue to do this on my own but until i can't any longer i can't have a fill. Soooo i go back in 6 more weeks and we will see then if i qualify for a fill. I guess it is good that i have done so well on my own - i am just so ready to be under 200lbs. Melissa said i will be there soon enough. Melissa miight weigh 110lbs with her winter clothes on. I am impatient - always have been. Oh yeah, still want some Mt. Dew - just thought i'd tell ya'll that so u didn't think i had forgotten. I haven't :)  T

I added another picture this morning and it will not let me make it my profile picture. That makes me mad because i hate that picture. It keeps saying the file is to big. Imagine that.....ironic huh? haha - I call this my fat girl website and i can't change my picture because the picture of me is to big.

It has been a decent week. I have lost 1lb. I am getting very anxious to be under 200 though so it seems like i am not losing at all. Don't get me wrong this is the best thing i have ever done for myself and my health i am just an impatient person. I guess it helps that i realize it.

Hope all of my WLS friends are doing just as well if not better than i am and to my family and friends who read this religiously - thank u - thank u for your support, your love and your understanding. It really means alot more than u will ever know. It is a rocky road - but so is life and without you i might fall down but you keep me strong and standing up, most importantly with my head up high. I love u all.

Ton-Ton  :)

2 MONTHS POST-OP - YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It has been an okay week - my weight has been kinda crazy. I weighed on Thursday and it appeared i had gained over a pound - i thought being stuck was bad but gaining is horrible. I'm pretty sure the fact that i bought a gallon of milk last Friday didn't help b/c while it was here it was all i wanted to drink. Milk is fattening. Lots of calories and fat. Water gets old though. Anyway, got rid of the milk went back to drinking my water and when i weighed this morning i was at 208 even. That is .4 less than my lowest so far. 30 lbs down. Still have 38 to go to get where i want to be. That will still leave me overweight but i have been fat most of my life so "overweight" is acceptable to me. Still miss my Mt. Dew but i'm sure it would have the same effect as milk. So i can't have it - EVER.....EVER!!!!!  If i can lose 9 more lbs i will be under 200 - i haven't been under 200lbs in so long. Gosh  i hope i can get there. I'm ready for this to be LIFE AS I KNOW IT.

Hi ya'll - it has been a week since my last post. I am doing well. I have lost 1 more pound since last time and i am trying to be happy about that. I am beginning to feel more hungry now. 3 days will be 8 weeks post op. It still doesn't  take a ton of food to fill me up but more than i had expected. I knew the weight loss process would be a slow one with lapband and i am okay with that ( i have to keep reminding myself). I didn't get to be a chunky monkey with a basketball head overnight....right?? I am really hoping that i qualify for my 1st "fill" when i go back for my follow-up appt on the 29th. I think it is time - doesn't mean they will agree. We all know i ALWAYS have an opinion even when it doesn't have to do with me so ya'll know i definitely have 1 now. I just want to know things are going like they should. I think the 6 week pass may have been to long in between for my sanity. When i was going every 2 weeks - i had them to tell me things are on track....even if they are now i think i need that reassurance. I'm needy that way. Still want Mt. Dew - still can't ever have it  and that's okay just thought i'd let ya'll know the craving isn't gone yet. Thanks 4 keeping up....b4 long this will just b LIFE AS I KNOW IT :)  Love ya'll
Journey Rocks...right Harold???

It's bedtime - i haven't updated in over a week so i felt i needed to do this before going to bed. Not a whole lot has been going on. I started "regular food" on Wednesday. So my 1st regular food dinner was Japanese. My favorite. Really it was just steak, chicken and veggies. The same as i had been eating - even cut up into small pieces but it is just cooked differently and i love the flavor. It hurt my feelings to have to cover my plate so the chef couldn't put the rice on my plate but i'm playing by the rules. It's no fun but i decided b4 surgery if i was gonna do it i was gonna do it right. So i will wait until Christmas b4 i attempt rice or pasta. Maybe by then i won't want any of those things. Maybe by then i will be over my desire for Mt. Dew too. That is still the hardest thing. I thought after 7 weeks w/o it i would quit wanting it. Maybe in week 8???? You know life is pretty good if the worst thing after this surgery is my wanting Mt Dew - i'm a lucky girl and this is just becoming "LIFE AS I KNOW IT"

I went back to Dr Mitchell and the dietician last week for my 4 week post op check. Everything went great. They were really pleased with my progress. I asked if i could have a "fill" and my answer was NO. Apparently i am right on track - doing everything i am supposed to and having the success they want to see. 4 weeks out i have lost 20lbs in all. Most of that was from the first 8 or 9 days but i am only suppose to lose 1-2lbs per week so i am "on track". Things went so well that i don't have to go back to see Dr Mitchell for 6 weeks. Still have to go see the dietician in 2 weeks to progress to regular food. Soft food is going well and hopefully i am doing better with my protein. Today at Sam's i found protein bars with only 2g fat, and 20g protein. The calories are a little high but 1 thing the dietician said i need to do better about is breakfast. So these protein bars are going to be my breakfast know. Of course they are expensive. What isn't these days??? I think they may be worth it though. Just got home from the beach and things (food) went really well over all. I have some great family and friends who were with me and they were very understanding when it was time to go out to dinner and they had to work around what i can eat right now..still being on soft food and all. They pick on me though because i look at the nutritional information on things and tell them what food has "no nutritional value". I guess i see how it is funny but i need to be very careful about filling up on food that won't benefit me at all. The hardest thing this whole weekend was no mountain dew. I don't keep it at home so i don't want it and i'm not tempted - however it is also the drink of choice for Sonia. So all weekend i had to look at it and want it and NOT screw up. I'm glad that part is over. Ok - till next  time :)

It's Wednesday - i have been back at work since Monday and i have had a great week. I have been feeling super. Who would have thought that 1 week would have made such a huge difference in how i feel. I am a little tired when i get home from work but that's nothing new. I have been tired for yrs normally b/c i was fat and unhealthy though. I am pretty sure i am struggling and possibly not succeeding getting all of my protein and fluids right now. Not for lack of trying - it's hard. I'm not whining just fessing up. I bought beans (legumes) yesterday. They are a great source of protein and since i am not a huge meat eater i think i'm gonna give the legumes a shot. As far as fluids go i think i am doing great - i drink water all day. Anyone who knows me has to be proud. The dietician doesn't know me and probably won't be so proud because even drinking water all day i'm still not drinking 80oz. and i know i'm not. Gotta do better with my protein shakes too. Got fresh milk yesterday - no excuses. :) Love ya'll

It has been a pretty good week since my doctors appt. I have been trying to stay busy w/o over doing it. I REALLY do have to go back to work on Monday no matter what. I'm already not sure how i'm gonna pay the bills this month. Oh well, i'll figure that out later. Sucks not to have a significant other for sooo many reasons. Emotional support 1st and formost - of course :)  I have seemed to have a lot more energy now that i can actually have food. I have been truly blessed - i have not 1x felt sick, nauseas or any of the most horrible things i had imagined. When eating i had been feeling a slight tightness and i knew that it was time to quit and i did. (I've never done that b4) Then it was really strange b/c last night i didn't feel the tightness but all of a sudden it was like the food was backed up in my throat. I didn't fill sick - just like it was there and had no where to go. That happened again tonight. I guess i ate more than i had been eating but i don't think i had eaten a lot. It's a "different" feeling. Still gotta be better than dumping though. Picked up my nieces today (4yrs old and almost 7yrs old) I think i blew the 10lb weight limit. Probably why i'm hurting a little now. They're worth it though :)

I START PUREED FOOD TODAY - YIPPEE!!!! Today was such a long day. I left home this morning at 7:15am to go and pick up mama. We had to be in Pinehurst for my appt with the dietician at 10am. Then my appt with Dr. Mitchell was at 11:30 (yeah right). I actually met with the nurse practicioner at a little after 12:00 and she took out my stitches, weighed me etc.... Turns out of all the weight i have lost all except 1 pound has been fat. 1 pound was water (fluid) so that is really exciting. They were excited for me about that. When I finally saw the doc he was pleased with my progress. However; not at all pleased i went to work yesterday. After how i felt yesterday and how bad i was last night (i had only taken pain meds 2x since surgery until last night when i took it 2x) i agreed to wait until Monday to go back to work. Anyway, i dropped mama off at 5:05pm and got home at 5:30pm. It was longer than a work day. (And driving isn't the best on the incisions) Okay i am going to bed now - thanks for caring. Love you all who really do :)

Today sucked - I worked with Becky Boswell and she was as kind and helpful and understanding as anyone could have asked for BUT unfortunately it didn't change the fact that it took everything in me to make it through the day. Everyone was soooo kind asking how i was doing and of course they didn't want to hear the truth that i was hurting like hell. So i just kept saying "fine" or "okay". Every now and then i would say "i am hurting a little". Between the two larger incisions in my stomach hurting, pulling, stretching whatever in the hell they were doing and my zero energy (surely from lack of ....anything). Anyways, i think i start my vitamins tomorrow hopefully they will help me to feel better physically. The incisions are getting better day by day and b4 long you won't even be able to see them. The port incision is still sore though (Dr Mitchell said it would be). Like i said in my last entry i think i realize why Dr Mitchell insist upon 4 weeks off work. Not just time to adjust to your new routine like i had originally thought. Oh well see the doc tomorrow - we'll see what he has to say.........i'll let u know then