AprilP
October 6, 2003 October, 10, 2003 October 15, 2003 November 6, 2003 November 18, 2003 November 20, 2003 November 27, 2003
Hello. My name is April and I live in Central Kentucky. I am 23 years old. I have been unhappily overweight for about 10 years.
After numerous of FAILED diets, I have decided to Proceed with Weight Loss Surgery. My consult is Scheduled with Dr. Randall Bolar in Lexington, KY on Friday, October 10th. I am soo excited. I have had this scheduled since the first part of JULY..the wait has been long!! I was born in Owensboro, Kentucky and lived in Marblehead Mass. a couple of years before moving to Central Kentucky at the age of 8..This is "home". I went to College and obtained my Associates degree in Science and obtained my Certification in Medical Assisting. I love this website, and am blessed to have found it!!
Well, today was my BIG day..my consult with Dr. Bolar. He is a wonderful person, and I am very glad I have chosen him for the surgery. I had a lot of my paperwork the insurance would need, so I am just waiting on two things.. #1-A physical, which I am having monday, including some blood work, and #2-my psych. eval on Tuesday. Hopefully all my information will be received by Dr. Bolar's office by Friday, the 17th and onto the insurance company...Bluegrass family health. Dr. Bolar feels I will do well, and I am going to be able to do it lap rny. Again, he is wonderful! Weight today was 257..can't wait to see those numbers dropping!!
I've had a busy week getting everything I need done so it can all get submitted to my insurance comp ASAP. On monday I had a physical with my pcp including lab work. The results of the labs weren't as bad as I expected. Total Cholesterol-212, HDL-49, LDL-149, Triglycerides-68
Yesterday was my psych. eval. That was interesting. They pretty much wanted to make sure I'm mentally stable to have this change in life. I had to take a 360 question test that practically asked the same questions, just re-worded them. I felt like saying "for the 100th time, NO I'm NOT suicidal."
Now I am playing the waiting game. All this information will be sent to Bluegrass Family Health as soon as Dr. Bolar receives it all from the other Doc's. So, hopefully by Friday of this week or Monday of next week the information will be sent to the insurance. I'll update you all as I find out info!! God bless!!
Just thought I'd update real quick. The insurance has had my case in "review" since last monday. WHAT?!?! It's only been a week and a half?!?! I am so scared it will be denied, even though I have everything they want...have jumped through all their hoops. Just wanted to update you all on my progress. I'll update next with the insurance's decision!
Ok, I know I said the next posting would be final word from the insurance. But it's not. I haven't heard yet. The insurance told me "you can call every day if you want", so I am doing just that..lol...But as of now I am "on hold for review". Only one person does all the approvals for this surgery. I just pray she's in a good mood when she gets to mine!! lol.. They said they will have a final answer by the 27th of this month..which just HAPPENS to fall on Thanksgiving. So maybe I'll know something before the holidays so I can get that last BIG meal in. I just wanted to update you all, even though there's not much to update about. Also, thanks so much to everyone for their prayers, love, and support. It means so much to me. As those of you who personally know me know, I am NOT a patient person, so this is not an easy process (waiting). But I know it's part of it. Again, thanks to all!
Hey Gang. I attended my first Local support group meeting for patients of Dr. Bolar's tonight. It was GREAT. I also talked to Amy from Dr. Bolar's office, and she said that Dr. Bolar is having surgery next month and will be out of the office and not performing surgery much at all next month. However, they have ONE opening for surgery. Who ever gets the approval first can have it. She told me I could call in the morning and that Kim in Dr. Bolar's office would call Bluegrass Family Health to see what's up. She said it only should have taken 3 weeks, and it's already at 3 weeks and 4 days (yes, I am counting the DAYS!! LOL). If anything, she said January is WIDE open right now, so if anything, no later than the first of January(after we get the approval that is).
The support group was awesome. One gentleman got up and gave his testimonial, and he had lost 193 lbs since April 21st! That's like 7 months! WHOA!! He looked great!! Also got to meet Tina, who I met on ObesityHelp.com. She has the same insurance as me, so she's giving me a lot of moral support!!Well, maybe I'll have some good news to post tomorrow! Until then, god speed!
Happy Thanksgiving!! I know, I'm terrible. it's been like a week since I updated. Did not receive an answer the next day as I was hoping. In fact, I still have not received an answer. As I've mentioned before, i'm NOT a patient person, so the wait is killing me. I did call Kim that Friday as I previously had mentioned, and she said that one day in December was taken, and it will be January before I have surgery. I was pretty bummed out, cause I was wanting November!! LOL...but, at least I'll get through all the holiday's without any problems, right?? BGFH is closed Today (obviously!) and tomorrow..so that means I MAY find out something on Monday, But I'm not gonna hold my breath. Happy thanksgiving to all!!!
December 1, 2003
Just heard something that I didn't want to hear... "DENIED"!! WHAT?!?!? The insurance reason is that the weight watchers program I did for 6 1/2 months wrote the date next to the sticker instead of ON the sticker. Can you believe that?!?!?! I called the corporate WW and they said it was between me and the local meeting branch. So, I called them and she verified that they write the date to the side of the sticker, but they said it's between me and corporate. They won't give me anything in writing or a verbal verification..nothing...said it's "out of their hands". Oh joy..a run a round game!! Just what I need.
So, next I was on the phone with my angel from Florida, Sherri. She is GREAT!! She three way calls the insurance company and we are trying to fight this ruling. A date is a date. On or beside the sticker. We got the run a round at the insurance company, too, but Sherri never let up until we got someone who is actually pretty high up in the company. She is giving my information to someone who is "suppose" to call me back today. We'll see. I'm not gonna take this sitting down, and I am definatly not giving up!
Kim at Dr. Bolar's office said they don't handle the appeals, that's up to the patient. I can understand with the patient load and the amount of appeals, but without Sherri, who knows, I may have given up. I wish they could do something, but insurance's are tough..but I'm gonna be tougher!!
December 1, 2003 (still!!)
I got a call back from someone today at my insurance, like I was "suppose" to!! I couldn't believe it! She said it had NOTHING to do with my weight watcher information. (Gee, imagine they change their reasons when I decide to fight it?!?!) That I meet the criteria, but am "borderline" to get approval. Meaning, I barely meet their criteria. But I DO meet it. I told her I would do anything to have this surgery, and told her a little bit about me and my obesity history. GET THIS!! She is going to have the Doctor over that department re-review my case tomorrow and call me. If they deny it again, I've got some appeal ideas thanks to Sherri, but I am hoping for the best!!! I feel that everyone is right..these insurance companies want to see who will lay down and take it, and who will stand up. Well, I'm standing WAY up!! I will get an approval!! Will update soon with good news (I hope!)!!
December 2, 2003
Well, I didn't get the good news I was hoping for.. But hey, I should be getting used to that, right?!?!?! They said I am the "lower end" of the requirements. However, I do MEET their requirements and have jumped through their hoops. So, now I just need more amo. I am seeing a pulmonologist tomorrow to get scheduled for a sleep study. I never made time for it before, even though my doctor has wanted me to have one for a while now. I figure the more I can prove it is medically nec., the better of a chance to win my appeal I have. I am getting everything together for my appeal, and am even thinking about switching pcp's to a doctor who will actually SUPPORT this decision, and be on MY side. My current pcp says it's "easy to lose weight". This comes from a man who weighs 90 lbs soaking wet. So it's easy?!!? I guess that's why it's a nationwide problem?!?!? Man, some people just don't get it! Well, other than that, nothing new, other than a dead end..but not for long. Soon I will have a date, just wait and see!! :)
December 3, 2003
Well, my third day in a row writing. But today was a much better day for me. I met with the pulmonologist, Dr. Westerfield, and he feels I have sleep apnea and scheduled me for the sleep study. At first, they said they are booked until the 20th or so of January. I explained to them that I would take a cancellation at a moments notice because I am trying to file an appeal for wls. She said "tell ya what, can you come in on Friday?" (today is WED!!) I said "YOU BETTER BELIVE IT!" And the doctor seemed in favor of the surgery, so I am very hopefull that he will be able to prove I have this co-morbidity and write me a letter for my appeal. Like I said, I'm not giving up.
And a huge thanks to Sherri. I can't say enough WONDERFUL things about her. She has been my biggest source of strength through this. Without her, I wouldn't have the determination I have. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!! I love you!!!
Well, Friday will be my sleep study. I have to be there at 8:30.. WHAT??!?!?! I am normally up until 10 or 11. Man, I better go sleepy!! It'll be different... NO dog in the bed with me. I can hog the bed instead of sleep on the edge!! She's a little dog, but takes up the rest of my queen bed!! LOL. And I will get to see Dr. Westerfiel on Wed. Man, a good day for a change!!! LOL... I will update after the sleep study!! TTFN!! TA TA FOR NOW!!! LOL
December 12, 2003
Is that a LIGHT at then end of the tunnel I see?????
Thought I'd drop in and give a quick update. The sleep study went fine, and I got my results on Wed. NO sleep apnea.. but I do have "chronic fatigue" due to my obesity. The doctor is writing me a letter for my insurance. He said the only way I'll be able to get normal sleep is to lose this weight. And it gets even BETTER!! Today I saw a new pcp who I LOVE! Her name is Dr. Jessica Pennington, and she is SOO supportive of this surgery, and is gonna write the letter for me!! She is new to the area, and pretty fresh outta school, and was so understanding. She went over all of my medical and family history, and is gonna work on it and it should be ready next week. So hopefull I'll get the two doctor's letters and get mine in the mail to them next week. I chose to leave my previous pcp due to the fact that he was not supportive of this surgery. This is a big step, and I want a doctor who respects my wishes, understands, and is SUPPORTIVE!! And thank GOD I found her!!!
Is that a Christmas Approval I hear??? Again, a special thanks to Sherry for everything!! You are GREAT!!!! Well, that's it for now!! Cross your fingers for me!! Will update later when there is new news!!
January 12, 2004
Has it really been one month TODAY since I updated?? I'm aweful!! Well, I finally got my appeal in the mail today. My pcp was out like 2 weeks at christmas, and I just now got the letter from her back. Amy at Dr. Bolar's office said to give them about 2 weeks, and then call. Hopefully it won't take the full 30 days!! That drove me crazy last time.
On a DIFFERENT note, I started a new job. It's very close to home, and I love it. I haven't told them about surgery yet, and decided to wait until I get approval to tell them. I have told them I tried in the past but was denied.... I just didnt' tell them I've appealed yet. I know that is aweful, but I dont' want to put my job on the line, and then get denied again. So, I'll cross that bridge in a few weeks, I HOPE!!! Hope everyone has had a great holiday and new year!! Cross your fingers, eyes, toes, hair, arm, and legs for me!! LOL.... Until next time!!
February 10, 2004
APPROVED!!! HAPPY DANCE!!! APPROVED!!!
After the longest time I'm FINALLY approved! Happy dance!! Happy DANCE!! I didn't find out until right at 5 tonight, so I have to call to get my date in the morning. I'm hoping for Feb. 26th. Man! I never thought it would be the rush of emotions it was when I heard it. The customer service tech put me on hold to research it and came back and said "April, today is your lucky day". I busted out in laughter and tears and said "was it approved??" She said "YES!! Now call your surgeon and get you a date!!"
I couldn't have done this without the great friends I have here and with Obesity Alliance!! A special thanks to: Sherri, Suzy, Jill, Melissa, Jennifer B., Dawn, Christy, and even MORE I am probally forgetting... THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR ALL'S SUPPORT!!! A special thanks to my "sister's"!! LOL.... Will post tomorrow with a DATE! OMG!! A SURGERY DATE!!
Happy Valentines Day!!
February 14, 2004
Ok, it has been more than a day, but I have a surgery date!! It's February 26, 2004. ELEVEN days from today, with my preop this week on Thursday Feb. 19th. My work has authorized my leave, and even though they tried to change my mind, I stuck to what I wanted and just told them I was getting it. I'm going through a big rush of emotions on just my surgery!
On a different note, on Friday the 13th, I lost my brother-in-law. He and his brother were both killed in a car wreck. He has an 8 and 10 year old left behind. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers. Will post more later.
February 19, 2004
Pre-op's
Today was a long day of preop testing. It started at Samaritan at 7AM, and ended around 3 this afternoon. The testing I had were: EKG, Labs (cbc, cmp, lipid, tsh, ua, etc), ABG (OUCH!!), chest x-ray, ultrasounds (liver, kidney's, etc), a history and physical with the internist in the hospital who is WONDERFUL, and a lot of questions and answers. I'm BEAT! LOL. The h&p was last, and I got the big GREEN LIGHT for surgery in one week from today. I'm feeling really good about it all. The support, thoughts, and prayers through all of this (surgery and my brother-in-law's death) has been incredible. I cannot thank everyone enough for their continued prayers and support through all of this.
The countdown is officially on!! 7 days and counting!! WOOHOO!! Will post more later.
February 25, 2004
Less than 24 hours!! I'm doing better than I expected to be at this point. I'm nervous, but not too bad. I guess my fears are more of the "unknown". I'm so excited though!! I have to arrive at the hospital at 7AM for a 9-9:30 surgery. Tonight, the hospital is providing a hotel in lexington for tonight, and tomorrow for out of town family while I'm in ICU. I think that's really nice. I don't know what else to post. This is a whole new feeling for me, and those of you post op reading this know what I'm talking about.. those of you preop will soon learn!! LOL.. I guess I'm off to pack for the hospital. Will post from the losing side!!
March 2, 2004
Well, it's offical. I am a LOSER!! I am now five days post-op, the surgeon did lap!! And I am doing MUCH better than I expected! So far, this has been easier than my gallbladder surgery.. the pain that is. Nothing else is easy about this, which I knew going into this anyways. But if anyone is reading this profile who is preop, it's not easy, not matter what anyone says. A lot of people told me I was taking the "easy way out". Nope. lol.. I am really excited to advance my diet to the FULL liquid. These choices aren't the best, but oh well. I came home on Saturday and I will see Dr. Bolar this Friday, March 5th. The only BAD things to speak of were
#1- The main floor after ICU at the hospital were aweful. There is a HUGE list of things that just weren't done well or at all. They acted like I was the BIGGEST inconvience in the world!
#2- Removal of the Drain tube. OK, I as a CMA have removed a TON of drains. You DON'T make several YANKS to remove it folks!! LOL. That has been the WORST pain with the surgery. My nurse made several (about SEVEN) forceful YANKS and then just was pushing all around like I hadn't had surgery. HELLO?!?! SEE THE INCISIONS??? LOL...
My angels did great on keeping everyone posted, so a special THANKS to them.. yes, I am lucky and have 3 angels!! One of them lives here locally, the other are my friends Suzy and Sherri, who I have talked about a lot in my profile... THANKS TO ALL OF YOU!!!! MUUUAAAHHHHHH
Well, that's it for now. I stay real tired (as normal) so it's off to bed I go!! TTFN!!
March 30, 2004
Well, here I am realizing "I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN FOREVER!!" So many things have happened, but most importantly, I am SHRINKING!! WOOHOOO!! At my one week check up I had lost 22lbs!! He told me the next time he saw me, I may not have lost much more weight, since my body had some catching up to do, as far as fluids go. So, I went back at 3 1/2 weeks, and he had been right. I had lost another pound taking me to only a loss of 23. I know, smack me.. "only a loss". I would have never lost that much weight any other way. Heck, I did weight watchers forever and didnt' even lose that much! Well, when I hadn't lost more than that (again, smack me, I know) I decided to hit the YMCA harder, esp. now that I could with the Doctors permission. Since then, the weight is really coming off. I saw Dr. Bolar one week ago today, and when i was in his office today (i'll explain that in a second) I had lost... get ready... 12 lbs in a WEEK!! I about fell off the SCALE!! I now weigh 232. A huge drop from 267. I haven't weighed 232 in about 4 years or so!! So, I am at my teenage weight (i am 23).. lmao!!
Well, yesterday was my first day back to work. I am a CMA in a doctor's office, as I have mentioned. Our phlebotomist was drawing blood from a 4 year old, and the other clinical person was at lunch. That left ME to hold her arm. No problem.. UNTIL the legs starting KICKING me in the STOMACH!!!! I'm not kidding when I say this child got numerous swift kicks to my stomach. I couldn't believe it, and it was only 12:00 on day ONE! I hit the floor and felt a huge rush of sweat and pain come over me. I sat down at my desk, and still.. the pain was there... Now, keep in mind, i'm a wimp, BUT I only took one dose of my pain medicine a day for the week after surgery.. not every four hours... just at bedtime.. so I'm a wimp with a high pain tolerance... lol. Today, still there. So Dr. Bolar said if I wanted him to see me, he would work me in. He is awesome, btw! And the good news is no damage, other than some bruising starting, and a little inflamation. I can handle that though.
Other than that, all is well. ANYONE reading this... MEASURE YOURSELF BEFORE SURGERY!! I forgot to get my measurements, and i know i've lost inches.. I've dropped one size in clothes, and in some clothes, TWO sizes!! I am afraid I will wake up in the morning, in the old me's shoes!! Well, I will try to do better about updates... Until later... TTYL!!
April 14, 2004
Well, what a few days I've had. Starting yesterday, I had a lot of trouble keeping anything down. Not even liquids. Finally called Dr. Bolar and he had Lorna call me, and Dr. Bolar felt it was a Stricture I had. I had a "scare" of one before, but before I had a chance to talk to his staff, it "resolved". Well, went in today and sure enough, a stricture.. almost completely closed. Dr. Wolford said I should have come on in last time, even though I felt it resolved. He said he feels where it was so swollen I'll be back.. GREAT.. lol. It wasn't too bad, but I did wake up half way through it and remember gagging like I was gonna puke and fighting them trying to get the scope out of my throat and mouth.. but, it wasn't on purpose.. I was medicated. I wish I hadn't woke up and done that, because now my throat hurts pretty bad. Tonight so far, all liquids and foods have stayed down, and food is sitting very comfortably, verses before it would really sit like a rock (wonder why?? lol) They said for 24hrs. I couldn't drive or anything, or it'd be a DUI from the meds. So, they went ahead and released me to go back to work on Friday. LUCKILY my work is being very understanding (SHOCK!!) and just wishing me well. I work in a small office, and when one person is out, it affects everyone... but I sure can't help this. Over the last few weeks, I've also had trouble getting more than an ounce in at a time, so my weight loss has slowed down.. probally in starvation mode. I guess Mr. Pouch never emptied, and I couln't eat much wihtout pain... maybe now I'm on the road to some more weight loss!! WOOHOO!! Well, that's it for now! TTFN
May 18, 2004
Hello beautiful AMOS family!! I know I havent' updated my profile, and feel aweful that I was so active before, but not much after. Since my last post, I had another (#2) stricture, and since that was fixed, life is GREAT! I am able to eat about 4 oz. at a setting, based on the consistancy of the food. I'm now down.... DRUM ROLL PLEASE..... 57 lbs! I can't believe it! On another note my husband and I have divorced. It is NOT related to my WLS. I don't feel like this is the place to get into details, and that's why our marital problems were never mentioned in my prior posts... there is a place for everything, and this isn't it..but I am really doing GREAT, and am happy about things. I finally have "peace" so to speak.. Things in my life are working the way God wants them to. I am asked almost DAILY if I would have the surgery again.. YES! YES! YES! Well, that's it for now! TTFN!!
August 30, 2004
Well, I've just been terrible about updating my profile!! I'm now down a total of 72lbs, and my bmi is down to 29.6...which falls into the category of..are you ready for this... "OVERWEIGHT"!! No longer obese! Woohooo!!! I can't get over it. I've been on a long plateau, and realized I was breaking some big rules.. Mostly I was back in the habit of drinking with meals. I don't know how I transformed back into that habit, but I did...a slow tranformation, but enough to cause a plateau. I also wasn't excercising as much. I'm really trying to do better, but with all the life changes since surgery... surgery itself, strictures, a divorce, a new job, living with the parents, moving out, moving BACK in with my parents... it's just been a rollercoaster.. not necessarilly all bad, just changes...it's just been a lot of adjustments! Learning to date again, and dating while thinner..what a learning experience. Along with dating, I changed jobs (as I mentioned above breifly). I changed jobs for more money, better benefits, better EVERYTHING... now in an OB/GYN office, and LOVE IT!! Life is finally in the spot it needs to be in for me. I'm dating a wonderful man who I'm just crazy about. Told him about my WLS on the first dinner. No secrets. He's very supportive of me, and I just can't say enough great things about him! Well, that's it for now.. Will try to be better about updating you all! :) Keep smiling!!
October 1, 2004
Well, I only went a month without updating this time.. aren't I on a roll!?!? LOL. Well, have a great story to tell...This past weekend me and my boyfriend went shopping (a man that'll shop..how awesome!! LOL) And I originally was in a size 24 or 22 before surgery. I've been in a 18 pretty much lately..some bigger 16's have fit, too. So, I start with several pairs of size 16 jeans. As I go into the fitting room, I am prepping myself for disappointment..thinking these jeans won't fit (too tight).. WRONG!! They were too BIG! WHAT?!?! I couldn't believe it. The next size down is a 14, which I haven't seen for as long as I can remember. And they were the winners. A FOURTEEN. I just can't believe it! Down to 189, and just so happy with that. I wish it were more, but I will take it. That's a total loss of 78lbs. 2 more to go to 80!! Woohooo...
As far as everything else goes, life is GREAT. My boyfriend is still putting up with me..lol.. And I'm just crazy about him, as I have mentioned. My job is also great. Life is great, and I'm loving every minute of it! That's it for now, will update later!
October 25, 2004
Well, in just a few short weeks since I last posted, the size 14 jeans I bought are getting LOOSE!! That's so exciting! Having to slowly buy some winter clothes. All my old sizes look like I'm a kid wearing my mom's clothes..lol.. and they make me look a lot bigger than I am. At this point looking bigger than I am is not a good thing..not that it ever was..lol. I've also moved in with my boyfriend, and have joined a gym nearby. I actually am starting there tonight. It just opened today. It's like Shapes, just a different name. I'm really excited. I've got 34lbs to go until I reach my goal of 150. I can't believe it's getting so close! Hopefully starting a good workout will jumpstart my weight loss...but i'm still happy with it! That's it for now!! Will update later!
December 9, 2004
Happy Holidays to everyone!! I'm doing fabulous, and down to a size 12 now. I knew the 14's were getting loose, but no clue that I was already down a size! It's hard to believe this time last year I was fighting an approval, now I'm just fighting my remaining 28 lbs! I'm down to 178, and haven't see this weight since High School. It is amazing. I've also Changed gyms, because I wasn't getting a good workout. The gym didnt' even have a treadmill. So, me and my boyfriend joined a co-ed gym and are working out together, which is a blast.
All other things in my life, are still just fabulous. My boyfriend and I have the tree up, ready to spend our first Christmas together. I am cooking a Christmas Eve dinner for his folks, and am so nervous about it, but excited at the same time. Luckily I've been around them enough that I'm not worried about making a good impression... just hope nobody gets food poisioning!! LOL
I have also Changed my last name BACK to my maiden name of Postlewaite. So, that's a good change for the sake that I dont' have my ex's last name anymore!! WOOHOO!!
My job is incredible. For the first time since graduating college (5 yrs ago) I can say "I love my job".. and it's past the first week..lol. I'm going on 6 months, and generally look forward to going everyday. I work in an OB/GYN office, and just love the relationship I have developed with the Doctor I work for, as well as my patients. It's a great feeling to help people.
Well, that is all for now. It'll be after the holiday's before I update, unless anything major happens... So Merry Christmas, and Happy Holidays to Everyone!!
January 2, 2005
Well, Happy New Year to all!! I'm now down a total of 92 lbs, making me weigh in at 175. I can hardly believe it. My clothes are getting bigger, but that's a good thing. Unlike my "girls", if you know what I mean! They are shrinking! But it's a price I'm willing to pay for a smaller waist.
Made it through the holidays just fine, despite everything that happened.... Went on a road trip with my boyfriend to western kentucky to meet my family, as well as a couple of concerts by one of our favorite bands. Got a speeding ticket 30 minutes after leaving home.. lovely. And in addition to that, on the way back home from the second concert, we were in Illinois at this point.. I hit a big 8 point buck while driving HIS car. $3,000 in damage. Talk about feeling like crap! I know we are lucky no one was hurt, and it could have just as easily been him driving, and I did everything I could to avoid hitting it... but still. It's his car, and I was the one driving. Oh well.
Things are still going great. I'm glad the holiday's are over so I can get back on track. I'm one of the people who can tolerate sugar in moderation without dumping. Now, I don't sit down and eat myself to death, but I will take a bite here and there of something sweet if I really want it, and I've had absolutely no will power through the holidays. I wish I DID dump so that I wouldn't be sooo tempted to go off the path from time to time. But, I normally don't eat much sugar, just the holidays' got me :) . I'm gonna do better though!
Just 25lbs to go to reach my "goal" of 150. The thing that I'm bothered by is that I'm not sure when I get there, that I'll be 100% satisfied. Then again, I don't know if I ever will be. I still see a fat person when I look at myself, and I wonder if that will ever change? I'll probally just re-evaluate it when I get there. I'm 10 months post op now, and I'd love to hit that goal by the time I reach my one year mark. Now, if that'll happen or not, who knows. I'm not gonna be disappointed if I'm not there on my re-birthday, because I know I'll hit it at some point.
Well, a longer post than normal from me, but hey, I'm a woman, we tend to get long winded at times! Hope everyone is doing well, and hope this year finds everyone healthier and happier!
February 25, 2005
Wow. Tomorrow is my "re-birthday". I can't believe it. My total weight loss is 94, taking my weight to 173. I had hoped to hit the 100lb mark by this time, but beggars can't be choosers, and to be honest, I've really slacked lately. I stay so cold that going to the gym hasn't even felt like an option. I come home from work and literally put on long johns, and sometimes another layer of sweats and get under a blanket. Not depressed or anything.. just FREEZING!!! LOL
Also, started a new job, much better pay, and off every Monday. Makes for longer days the rest of the week, but I'm loving the extra day for myself!
Well, I guess I'm gonna reflect for a moment on the last year since my "rebirth". I've gone through a divorce, moved more times than i can count, sold a house, had to give away my dog, a few deaths, a few new jobs (each change was to better myself..usually by a big pay increase), meeting the love of my life and sharing my life with him(we're not married...yet..), and more things than I can even begin to write on this page. My life today is so different than the person I was a year ago. Just think, this very hour one year ago (10pm) I was in a hotel room on a liquid diet (getting in every last ounce until midnight) writing down my thoughts for my family "just in case". I think a lot of us did this. Now I sit in a new place in a new life in a new body one year later, thinking "this has been one hell of a ride." And ya know what??? I wouldn't have missed this for anything!
August 7, 2005.
Wow. It's amazing when I look on my profile and realize it's been so long since I posted! A lot has happened in the last (almost) 6 months. My s.o. bought a house that we are living in. We also adopted 2 dogs.. An 8 month old huskie female named Bailey, and a 6 year old lab male named Duke. They are a joy, and have added so much to our home and lives. They've taken away our mornings of sleeping in though!! LMAO.
I'm now down a total of 109lbs and weigh 158. My BMI is now 24! That is the "Normal" Category. OMG!! It is amazing to say those numbers. It's hard to believe. I'm only 8lbs away from my initial goal, but that is no longer my goal. I'm not sure, but as I've mentioned in the past, there is not a "number" that i want to obtain. I want to reach a spot where I am happy with my body and the way it looks, and the way I look in certain cloths.
I am begining to get comments like "you are getting too skinny" or "you need to stop losing weight". My supervisor even told me "I am concerned about you".
Here's the story guys. I do not watch what I eat. I eat VERY small meals because I cannot hold much at once, but I am a snacker through the day. I drink soda (usually C2, but sometimes the "real deal") and drink with meals. Go ahead people, slam me. LOL. I still lose the weight, and do not eat in large quanities or anything like that. I don't dump on any food...except Ice Cream, and other than that, the only other food I CANNOT eat is Rice. I get my main source of excercise currently from work and walking the dogs.
I know there are a lot of people who may slam me for the above statement, but I'm not gonna get on here and lie and say "I'm doing...this" when i'm not. I'm not accusing anyone of that, just saying I'm gonna be truthful. I still would have this surgery again in a heartbeat! I regret nothing about the surgery.
Hope all is well with everyone out there!!
September 13, 2005.
Well, it's amazing how the weight loss after surgery works. You'll go weeks without the scales moving in either direction...and then BAM. You've lost a few pounds without even realizing it. I am reaching my "goal" quickly, and am excited about it! (even though, as I've said.. my goal is not my stopping point....read my previous posts..)
The last 2 days haven't been easy on me. My S.O. is in Dallas doing training for work. I miss him terribly. I cried for like 4 hours STRAIGHT last night. What a girl I am being! LOL. Monday's are my day off (in addition to Saturday and Sunday) so I had all day AND all night to miss him. Today was a better day. Back to the grind. However, nothing changes the fact that tonight I am missing him. Tomorrow evening I'm going to dinner with my dear friend Brandi. Thursday will be major cleaning night. So, maybe if I keep busy, Friday will be here before I know it... that's the day he is coming HOME!! :)
March 3, 2007
Wow.. has it REALLY been almost 18 months since I posted on here? WOW! Time has flown. I still have no regrets about my surgery and have been maintaining my weight since my last post. Of course with holidays and other things, the scale bounces back and forth about 5-8 pounds, but that's to be expected. I just recently had my 3 year re-birthday and just like I can't believe how long it has been since I last posted, I cant' believe it's been 3 years since I had my life changing surgery!
Shortly after my last post, my ex-husbands wife (at the time she was only his girlfriend) began to contact me through here pretending to be someone interested in surgery. It has made me post less on this and other things..as well as trust people less as well. This went on for a short time before I realized it, and once I did, I played her game right back with her. Before all was said and done, this crazy chick made up about 4 different people to contact me under. That is CRAZY!
I have also gone back to school and am doing part time classes, and will have 4 semesters after this one. Yes, that is 2 years total, but saying 4 semesters sounds much better! ;)
I still work in Pediatrics and absolutely love it. It is my true calling.
My boyfriend is now a fiance! He proposed on August 16th when we were on vacation in Kiawaha Island SC. We stayed at a 5 star resort, and he proposed at the 5 star restaurant. It was everything a girl could have ever asked for!!!
Surprisingly, that is about all to report. After 18 months, my life is still pretty ordinary. I do have a few other sites you can check out...
aprilsrealilty.blogspot.com
www.myspace.com/april_1257
Until next time..and hopefully it won't be so long... take care everyone! Happy losing! :)
