AngelaT

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Well, its true when they say you can gain it back.  I started a new job as of 10/04/2010 and I have gained weight ever since I started this job.  It has truly been rediculous.  This morning I weighed 227.5.  I need some real help.  Today is a new beginning and I will be back to 180.  I need some support.... some something....I'm not sure what im going to do.

Well I'm working on year 3 now.  I have plenty of restriction and still dump and get sick.  But i eat whatever I want.  When I am depressed and overwhelmed I still use food as a crutch.  My weight fluctuates between 178 and 185.  For the most part my clothes still fit but i tend to go with the clothes that are not binding.  There is seriously something wrong in my head as to why I still eat the bad foods knowing i'm going to be sick.
I am a mess!
Angela

Well its been awhile. I'm still around.  So I haven't been that good about my eating but i have made it down to 175 and now i'm back up to 180. I can definitely wear a size 8 now.  My weight is still high but i wear it really well. I look really skinny but i know i can do better.  I'm in no hurry to lose any weight. I'm happy where i am.  Anything lower than 175 is probably wont look good on me.  I like my thickness but not too thick.

Love you all,
Angela

I'm here for my monthly check in if anyone cares.  I weighed 182 this morning.  My clothes are really loose so i'm assuming i could probably fit into an 8.  But we all know my weight goes up and down so much.  Last night I went grocery shopping hungry......wrong thing to do! I bought everything in sight!  So pray for me!

I wish I had money for plastic surgery! oh well.

Love you all,
Angela

But that quickly I can lose the weight with a little dedication.  As of this morning i am down 7lbs and it only took me a week. Can you believe that! Anyways I got 5 to go.
love you all,
angela

OK so its been awhile.  Here are some quick updates.  I had surgery for a lipoma tumor in the muscle of my shoulder.  Had it removed so i was out of order for the past week or so.  I ate out every meal and no exercise so needless to say I have gained weight and it sucks.  It seems that the weight is so easy to gain back.  It is still a life time struggle for me and will always be. So this week i will try and walk cause I can't do much else and eat a little healthier.

So right now I am about 12 pounds over where I want to be. I am determined to get it off.  I need to lay off the carbs....simple as that!

I swear weight loss surgery turns your life upside down and side ways.  Its definitely not for the weak!

Love you all,
Angela

losing all of this weight makes u do some stupid isht!  This weekend i lost a really good friend over something i did that i wish i could take back.  My heart aches cause i really hurt their feelings in the worst way.  i havent been able to eat or drink.  my stomach hurts because of it. How am i going to get over this?
Angela

so i have come to terms that 185 is the number i am going to stick with.  I am back in the gym and i am wearing an 8/10.  It is what it is....

I went to the doctor yesterday and he said I need to lay off the exercising and let my body rest.  I'm really sad about this cause I feel like I lost my best friend.  Food was my best friend and since we are no longer BFF's exercise is and now I am without it.  Whats a girl to do?  Exercise is my outlet.  It clears my mind and now i'm so stressed i could kill someone
So now i'm waiting to get ahold of Nancy the RN to see if i can do yoga or tai chi.  I need to do something.  I just feel so bottled up.

Angela

Well I had surgery and it wasn't so bad.  I was in and out.  But now my digestive system is all messed up but this too shall pass.  I did lose weight.  I'm back down to 185 where I want to be.  My clothes are hanging off me and my boots zip up so easy.  Life is good.

Angela