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I hope that my friends here will vote for me!! It surely would be greatly appreciated!!

Okay, I know, I know I'm forever apologizing about being so bad about posting my updates lol. Well, there is not to much to tell I'm still in a size 14 and the weight isn't going anywhere no matter what I do. Next month I've decided i'm going back to the beginning like when I first came home from the hospital. I'm gonna load up on the boost and broths etc... and go back on a liquid diet for a little while just to see what happens then. I hoping that I can make it to a size 12 and I'll be at my goal. I wonder how come the last few pounds are always so hard to get rid of? My family reunion is coming up in July and we will be in the sunny California sun so I'm gonna want to try to see what it feels like to be in an actual bathing suit. I haven't worn one of those things since I was a little girl. Well, we'll see how it goes and I'm gonna try to post updates in a nice timely matter unlike in the past .

Hey guys!
Now that my poetry book is complete I can start back visit this site more often! How could I not at least post one of my poems from the book here and share with all my friends here on OH? I'm posting this one because it's one we all here can relate to  and I would love to hear what you guys think about it so all comments are welcome. This weight loss journey has been an awesome experience and wouldn't change my decision to have the surgery for the world! I really want to work on those last few pounds so that I can look into getting all of the lose skin taken care of. Anyway, here's the poem and I'll check back in.....

 

 Fat

Standing from across the store

You stare at me as if you haven't any

Other place to look at anymore.

You make faces at me in disgust

You make me feel uncomfortable

In every place that I go and

My feelings feel unjust.

In my mind and heart

I’m not a bad person

Just overweight and oversized to be exact

I have needs

I have feelings in fact.

Others like you don't know what it's like

Being trapped

Mocked and shuffled to the side

As if we have no place here to coincide.

I'm tired of trying to defended my space

Here on earth

I used to put every bit of strength I had

To fight the snickering

Bickering about me being FAT

For what it was worth.

Realizing it's a waste of my time and people

Who stare from across the room

Have something deeper than the looks of I

Disturbing their narrow minds.

I found that through this ordeal

That's had me down

That actually

I am a beautiful individual and

This life has turned me around

To see all the things they don't

And won't see.

I am a beautiful individual

Mastered by the creator

Almighty God

He's helped me in so many ways that

I’ve survived something

Sent from evil

Now I’m okay

I have the

Best care possible because

I am truly blessed. 

Ivy Writer Media is pleased to announce the release of Exhale: Wordz From Tha’ Soul (Amani Publishing) by author and poet, Alesica Smith, a Cleveland native (www.poetikempress.com).

Known as the “Poetik Empress”, Ms. Smith will be debuting her first book of poetry at a book release party on Friday, February 6, 2009 from 6-9pm, at The Underground, 75 Public Square in Cleveland, Ohio. You are invited to share in the inviting sounds of jazz along with good food as the Poetik Empress shares her thoughts on the mic.

As a long time resident of Wickliffe, Ohio, Alesica discovered her love for writing at a young age when she penned her first story called “The Duck Who Loved Rainbows” for a class project. Having put her own dreams on hold for years as she tended to family and other personal obligations, Alesica found that she was unable to share her gifts with the world. Having overcome obstacles such as being hearing impaired, being labeled a slow learner during her early years as a child, and being told by a teacher that she could never learn another language because she could barely speak English, Alesica has compiled a book of poetry that reflects her struggles, trials, and tribulations, that life often brings our way. As a “30-Something” woman, Alesica states that, “I am thankful that God has given me another chance to share what could be my greatest moment in life, with others!”

Inspired by her three children and having almost lost her life to chronic asthma, Ms. Smith feels that all of her experiences in life have given her the strength to understand that life is too short and that writing helps her fulfill her goals and purpose in life, as well as the encouragement to pursue her other artistic talents that include drawing and painting.

Please visit www.poetikempress.com for a sample of her poetry. Ms. Smith is available for readings and book signings and can be reached at [email protected] , through her Personal Assistant, Ms. Marshette Anderson, 216.210.2710, [email protected] or through Ms. Kellea Tibbs at Ivy Writer Media at [email protected]

Hey all,
It's been a while since I've posted here! I did want to at least stop in and note how I've been doing and post about my book.
I still have 50 pounds to lose as my weight loss has sort of been at a standstill. I'm not complaining though! I've posted up new pictures (take a peek). My poetry book will be available for ordering soon on my website www.poetikempress.com the cost is $10.60. I am so excited this weightloss journey has brought me new beginnings and a whole new attitude towards life.

Wow it's been forever since i've last posted!! To date I am down to an even 200#'s! I was at a stall for three months at 210 and boy was I frustrated about that! Then, all of the sudden I started losing again evedently I must have started back to doing something right! Don't know what I could have been doing wrong. I signed up for fitworks and started working out and that hasn't been going to well since my asthma still is bothering me everyday. I think i'll cut back a little and work out here at home since I do have my own excercise equipment. Anyways I'm happy with the progress I have made and I have like 55 more pounds to go!! So, I'm very focused on losing all of it even if It doesn't come off as fast as before.

Well, it's been almost 6 mos since I had my surgery and so far I have lost a total of 86#'s! The things that have amazed me so far are:

1.) I can sit comfortably in a movie theatre seat and have space to move around.
2.) I am no longer out of breathe when walking up the stairs
3.) I move alot faster
4.) I can actually fit into a size 14 jeans with no problem!!!

I'm sure there is more wonder moments but I won't list them all here I just wanted to stop in and update my blog. Especially since I haven't been what u would call consistant with my blogging. Til' next time......

HEllo All!
It's been a while since I've been on here to post anything! Well, the reason being i've been sick and in and out of the hospital several times. The first time being in the hospital since my surgery in October was in December 27th  because I had really bad dry heaving and couldn't eat anything for almost two months! It got to the point where water wouldn't even stay down. I was in the hospital for a whole week going through all kinds of test trying to find out what was wrong with me. The doctors couldn't find anything so they sent me home. I think I kind of figured out what the problem was and why I was so sick. On my birthday Jan. 19th I ended up back in the hospital for a deadly asthma attack! I stop breathing and when I finally woke up I was in the emergency room and I was there for three or four days. Once I got home I noticed that the sickness from all the dry heaving and coughing up what looked like spit was gone. I think I had some type of bacterial infection because during the whole time taking antibiotics to help clear my lungs I felt better! So, as of today I feel pretty good other than an occasional bout of asthma. I'm hoping that will go away once I lose more weight but, right now I seem to be at stand still since coming off of those damn prednisone they do nothing but make me eat! So, til next time I'll see ya later.......

It's been 5 days since my last post about coming home and during those 5 days i've been trying to heal up and get better. When I came home my hand and wrist were hurting me so i figured maybe i had sprung it or something while trying to get out of bed well after three days of pain and not being able to use my hand at all I went to urgent care thinking maybe it's broken. Turns out that the site where my Iv was caused an infection that was spreading! So not only have i been struggling with trying to get everything down I have to take antibiotics for 14 days! I finally did get tired of drinking boost and had to get another flavor! I think that I am doing pretty well so far I have to go back to the doctor on Monday! Can't wait to see how much i've lost. I've also been in a funky kind of mood not wanting to be bothered right now cause I've got alot of things on my mind and trying to get  life in order. Well, I'm off to rest.......

I can't believe that it's actually been three days since surgery! Surgery went okay but they had to send me to intensive care unit for one day because of my oxygen levels and breathing weren't good. Then I went to another room to finish the rest of my stay in the hospital. It's not as bad as I expected it to be and Lo' and behold! that drain thing was hell when they pulled it out! That crap hurted so bad I neva eva wanna feel that kind of pain again!! I'm finally glad to be home though there's no place like home! I'm gonna rest up until next time.........