akasha2u
2006
Feb 22, 2007
Not much going on. I am bored alot with my hubby away, but it gives me alot of time to nest. The baby is doing well even though I am still below my pregnancy weight. I weighed in yesterday at 209 ( i dropped to 199 after I got pregnant and have to eat like ALL the time to maintain and no lose)..I had a rapid onset of 5 lbs in like 3 days. So I went and visited the OB to assure everything was ok. I am watching for the thing sort of like toximia...
Everyone on the boards looks great, I am not posting new pics for a while seems pointless being so distorted right now..we all know what pregnant women look like right haha. Well Ill let you know if anything other the subject on the doctor phil show changes.
March 23, 2006
Well I am 7 months along and doing ok. I weighed in at 210 yesterday so I guess that weird jump was just that..a werid jump. I was worried. I am still eatting non-stop though (which is required to no loss weight and keep this baby healthy). I am going to add some black-eyes peas to my diet...i feel bloated already to help with the brain development of the baby. I feel soooo fat but I know I am not...i know i just am pregnant and misshappen :)...
I been steering clear of the boards its oddly a little depressing being unable to use my window at this time but I really wanted this baby sooooo we got to give a little to get a little ya know.
Statistics say most women gain 16-25 lbs by now...so I guess I am ahead of the game but the big months are upon me now right. This baby kicks nonstop and keeps me up all hours..and i think i need depends undergarments :)
06/09/06
Well on April 23rd I was laying around as I always do. My tummy was bothering me as pregnant women’s tummy’s often do...I had a huge cramp on my right side...I laid down for like an hour talking and joking with my 12 year old then all of a sudden I got a gush sensation. I leaped up and ran to the bathroom and found a mass amount of not fluid, which I thought it was but blood. So I quickly gathered my wits, towel, and car keys and raced to the hospital. I was admitted quickly and sent to Labor and Delivery (LD). I sat in labor and delivery for 2 days bleeding with mass amounts of very nice pain meds and antibiotics. After two days the doctors informed me they believed it was a placental abruption and asked if I had been kicked in the stomach or in a car accident. I was in a car accident in February, but nope no one has been kicking me around other then that. My in-laws came down to watch my twelve-year old and such. So at least I didn’t have to worry about that. Next I was moved to an observation room since the bleeding and contractions had subsided. I stayed there for 4 days and was released on 4-29-06. Great, I was happy to be home and surprised I was home baby less and still pregnant. So 6 hours later I am sitting after a long nap and the gush happens again...my father-in-law grabs my keys and rushes me back to the hospital...yeah and I sit in LD for another 30 hours or so...and let me tell you those beds are no treat...the birthing bed is like sitting on a stone. At this point they decide to keep me the remainder of the pregnancy...yeah I am only 32 weeks when I abrupted...33 at this point...hmm that’s seven weeks left of hospital stay...this is like a prison sentence. Though I admit I had the best room in the hospital, it over looked some bay and the city lights…
I see nurses about 2-4 hours for blood work, vitals, and meds. I see foodservices every 6 hours in the day, doctors 2 times a day, a special nutritionist, and house keeping comes in 1 time a day...not counting other folks...so sleep in really in short supply for 30 days. Of course I have not a drop of blood more while I lay there this reminder of the time. I am a walking pincushion. I didn’t get a pick so I am stuck like everyday and have veins collapsing on veins…I am bruised beyond belief...and eventually have a IV site blood infection...yeah me.
So they decide to give me the Rh- shot (since I am Rh-) and 2 of the steroid shots to help babies lungs develop...so baby is buff now...
On may 22nd they decide to do an amnio...now that is scary but worst case is they pop the baby and induce so we go forward to see if I am ready for a induction at 37 weeks. They did this due to my coexisting past health risks such as 2 abruptions this pregnancy and a past c-section, heart disease, the gastric, hypothyroidism and a few other things. They think it is safer now they waiting...I am like all for it since I want out of my prison aka the hospital. So I call my husband in Korea now that we have a date… he can’t get a flight until the 23rd. So we schedule that better late then never right? Well the amnio screen test comes back low so they postpone the induction a day to wait on the accurate portion of the test (which comes back perfect, showing adequate lung development)…they begin the pit around 9pm on the 23rd, 4 hours after my husband landed or so. Worked out perfect really. The pit goes on and they do some balloon thing to help my cervix open. The balloon falls out at 4.5ish and the nice drug man comes by and gives me my epidural (HUG the epidural). I sleep and get checked the morning on 24th at 6:30 still dilated to about 5. So the folks ignore me forever at 10am I am concerned no one has checked me and I am getting pain in my left leg...my epidural is wearing off on that leg. SO I am feeling it (pressure on my cervix) and I begin to complain to the nurses that no one has checked me in forever and that I am in pain. They check me and I am close she says, so she sets up my bed (which she says normally isn’t her job) At this point she goes to seek a doctor. I begin really feeling something moving, I am yelling to my husband get the nurse she’s COMMIN…he looked at me like yeah right…so he seems in no hurry I am freaking out going I am not pushing and she is coming get the dang nurse. The nurse came over as the head came out and began screaming for the doctor…yeah baby had begun delivering herself. I can only imagine what would have happened if the epidural hadn’t worn off that leg, Id have delivered and no one would have known…for like hours haha. Doctor comes in as baby is being slipped out barely has time to catch…there is no tearing, no pushing, and thank goodness only half the pain (the right leg is in heaven, feels nothing haha). Well she was here all 19.25 inches, 6lbs 7.9 ounces.
http://www.bremers.biz/images/baby/Cutiepie.jpg
Very healthy at 36 weeks 6 days…we stay in the hospital 2 days, during which I develop a blood infection from all the IV’s I guess. So now I am still on antibiotics but home…working on making baby gain weight and breast milk supply. So this is the summary. I cut a lot out for your sanities sake. Good luck with all your pregnancies and such.
Pre-pregnancy weight 214
Delivery weight 217
Low during pregnancy 199
Current 7 days after 200
09/21/06
Well I am down 108 lbs (18months out), skins getting a little funky. On the good note I can fit very nicely into a size 14, I am sure after my last 28 lbs ill get to a 10-12 (especially if i ever get anything tucked). The baby is doing really well. I miss alot of my OH people and feel a little on the outs but the baby takes up alot of time that i used to use in here. I am sure as she gets older and amuses herself more Ill be freer to do things I enjoy :) I hope everyone is doing as well as I am. I got another check up in a few weeks due on bloodwork to assure i am doing everything I need to. I drink alot of propel with calcium citrate, so hopefully that helps with my childrens chewable :). I still got my hair and even after the bypass and the baby it seems to be thickening up, well see. I am only 4 months into breast feeding and i seem for the last 6 weeks to be lossing about 1-2 per week.
Here are some average weight-loss figures from the Barix Clinics program, I grabbed their link to the BMI calculator which was COOL
| Before Surgery | Women | Men | All Patients |
| Average weight . | 291 lbs | 386 lbs. | 301 lbs. |
| Avg excess wt | 156 lbs. | 223 lbs. | 163 lbs. |
| Six weeks after surgery patients typically lose an average of 20% of their excess weight (range 10-30%) | |||
| Average excess weight lost | 31 lbs. | 44 lbs. | 33 lbs. |
| Three months after surgery patients typically lose an average of 33% of their excess weight (range 15-51%) | |||
| Average excess weight lost | 51 lbs. | 74 lbs. | 54 lbs. |
| Twelve months after surgery patients typically lose an average of 67% of their excess weight (range 36-99%) | |||
| Average excess weight lost | 105 lbs. | 140 lbs. | 110 lbs. |
I know my surgury is done but i still compare programs and see what they. These projected results are what the Portsmouth Medical Clinic had told me about, and Iam always worried if I am still on track, am I getting what is average at least...and I got to happily say I seem to be right on track.
2005
Feb 22, 2007
02/08/05
The October appointment went really well. I got my blue bible ( a book they hand out to assist you in your planning and recovery) I have finished by exams and was surprised that I am healthier then I thought. I had some wierd bacteria in my belly that they cured but other then that I have been cleared. I did the EKG, the cardio, the pap, the mam, bloodwork, a GI glance with some tube, the psych, and the nutritionist (who got me hooked on soymilk...beleive it or not it's really good). I might be missing something but I passed them all until there were no more appointments. I then had a follow up with Dr. Chastney on 1-7-05, at which time I have recieved my last preop appt for March 1, 2005 with Jan and my operation date of March 15, 2005. He also shared the results of all my labors (doc appts) and took a snap shot of me :(. God I hated pictures when I was 170lbs, I hate them more at 290. I avoid the camera at all costs but i am sure this is for mental health and record. They say that people that have lost so much weight take along time for their self-image to catch up to the weight loss.
I admit I am nervous but feel very confident that I am in one of the best programs in the US. My family seems more at ease with it and I am flying my daughter in just in case and to assist with my recovery.
I am glad I jumped on this when I did, the waiting list has grown to 2 years now. My wait was only 11 months. Only...haha, even that seemed like forever. I have read everything in the blue bible and I have read alot on the internet. I'll attend the support meeting next month hosted at Portsmouth Medical Center for people in my situation. I meet one lady who had the bypass done that said after her bypass she felt very unwelcome at the meetings. She felt that they (the folks not at the weight goal or on the waiting list) didn't feel she had a problem and didnt belong. I think it was nice of her to share her success, she also says she doesnt tell anyone about the surgury much because they make comments of taking the easy way out..the lazy way out. Anyone who has and will undergo a bypass know this is NO EASY WAY out. It's a life time commitment to proper nutrition and proportions. I am just curious when the cravings will stop. I hear you may not be hungry but you still want things. Seems a little like torture but at this point in my life and my health I have few choices. At least I'll never be hungry. Thats what it took to maintian my weight years ago...starving 24/7..feeling guilty over eating a full chicken breast or half a pickle..it was crazy.
They say my ideal weight will be about 157. Thats sounds wonderful and I hope with hard work and dedication to my new life I will safely get there intact and maintain this. The next time you hear from me in here...it will be done.I have taken care of business (will, bills, instruction, post-op foods), though many don't want to talk about it. I prepare for the worst and the best :). I pray everyday I am safe.
02/22/05
Ok I admit I am getting nervous, I just wish the date was here and gone and I was on the other side of my life. I got all my ends tied upish.
Currently my husband is gone and I wish he was here to calm me. I read the peoples stories in here on success and it makes me really happy to know I am not really alone, and that success is with in my reach. Surgury is in about 2.5 weeks and tuesday I see Jan for the last preop. Ill let you know how it goes and what we talk about, cause I am really curious you might be too.
Some one asked me why I was doing this and i realized that "I just cant live like this", that this surugry is my only path to a long and healthy life. I never wanted to be here at this gateway but I am and I think it's fate that I landed here near this fine Hospital and progam in Portmouth, VA. I think it fate my husband had insurance that would cover it all for me...funny how I hated to come to VA but now it has given me a new life. Ok too much thinking..I am outty Ill see you all after my meeting on Tuesday, then after the surgury :)
03/01/05
I saw Jan today, me and alot of other excited folks. I didn't know other people would be there but I was happy for company. The meeting went over a small hand out that had how we would feel after and things we should do before. It had the day we should take our antibiotics, which day we should take the fleet, and our proceedure time. She discussed the tubing that would be at our side when we woke up, and the possiblities/rarities of not going laproscopically. I felt very postive coming out but realize I was going to require some maintence after, such as taking mt temp and such 2 x per day for about 5 days or so after to assure everything is ok, and to clean the laproscopic wounds.
I think the grossest thing we discussed was the removal of the drip thing, she says it will feel odd as they pull the tube out...gag, I could never be a nurse, my hats are off to all the medical assistants, docs, and nurses.
I met a nice girl who will be going in on the 14th, I am sure ill see her jogging by my bedroom door, hopefully I can get myself in gear and get out there puttering as well. I know this will hurt a bit for a few days, but hey I had a csection, I know I can get through it.
I got all my vitamins: Flinstones, Calcium Citrate, and Extra B's.
I got my J E L L O...i don't care much for jello but I am sure after fasting from 5-7 days it will have some appeal :)
Well I am off to finish my shopping. I need a second hand watch and away to take my temp :) got to keep healthy.
03/08/05
Well I dread Thursday haha, 5 days of liquids...5 DAYS....not that I'll miss food, it just is the real begininning
of life changes. The surgury date seems more of a reinforcement of thursdays commitment. I been really busy with everyone elses disaster of a life
so it is keeping me busy and unnervous. I been getting Email with prayers and i thank you all for your wishes :)
03/18/05
ok here is the skinny on surgury. i checked in, it went smoothly I was the only on on schedule that day. I went in and i got a mask and then I woke up in the recovery :). Yeah a little fast haha.
I wasnt really in pain, in fact other then gas there has been very liuttle pain, I worked on drinking sips of water even through sleeping hours once my tummy was cleared. My stomach is now the size of my thumb. KEEP that in mind folks when you look at food and drink. i been avoiding eggs and applesauce..sticking to bullions and cottege cheese for less gas..the gas casues cramps and such....
the JP site oozes alot in fact i got to go check that now
I started off at 5'9" 1/2 my preop wieght was 293 BMI 43.1
3-10-05 293.0 lbs Bowel Prep Begins
3-15-05 285.5 lbs Surgury day
3-17-05 282.5 lbs yeah 10 pounds gone forever
3-22-05 276.5 lbs BMI 40.5 16.5 pounds
3-26-05 274.5 lbs BMI 40.5 18.5 pounds
3-30-05 271.0 lbs BMI 40.0 22 pounds
5-24-04 247.0 lbs BMI 36.5 46 pounds gone forever
03/26/05
Well other then a sore left side when I lay on it I feel xhausted haha. I ordered some chewable b-12 on the internet. Hopefully this does the b-12 trick so I can avoid shots. I know it is psychological but I feel bald already.
I am pleased as I creep forward to my first 20 lbs but my first goal is really 263lbs. It will put me at "very obese" as opposed to "morbidly obese".
I got a few small bruises but everything is healing great. I have found alot of sugarfree alternatives and lower fat but they are costing alot of space and cashola.
I am also starting to eye the amount of protein verse fat output. Example I cant eat it but beef jerky has alot of protien and like 1 gram of fat, cheese had 7 grams of protein but and equal number of fat....
I guess I am not supposed to worry about that as much as I had in the past but it seems like I want to get alot of bang for my buck in the nutrition per ounce, and I want very little garbage :).
Another odd thing is, and I am sure it will wear off is, I feel like I am always looking for food or drink. I plan all day whats coming next in my agenda...I hope this is just part of the learning process as I am not used to thinking about food so much...like how much i'll eat, what time I'll eat, what i'll eat, when to stop and start liquids, how much liquid did I drink ect...
Well I am exhausted like I said I am off to nap :)
03/30/05
Well i threw up for the first time yesterday, I didnt over eat I had a few chewed up bits of turkey and i guess it didnt sit well and then up it came...so I just waited a few hours and ate cottege cheese. Ill mention this to my doctor but I am sure it was just upset tummy or something :). My BMI has gone down to 40 and a few pounds from now I wouldnt even qualify with other health issues for this surgury woot. I cant really say i feel better physically yet, but I know I do mentally as I creep past my first 20 lbs and see the scale going down, along with my BMI and cholestrol. Jan (my coordinator) left the program and is relocating. Sort of bums me out because she guilded me throw all of this so far with ease. I hope her replacement can meet the needs she will have alot to live up to. I am sure who ever gets Jan will be thrilled.
I wish I had more to tell you after my surgury but its all so smooth and i dont regret it. I dont have alot of pain and to be honest its way easier then I had prepared for. I am thankful for this so far :). Good luck all see ya later this week.
04/17/05
Been pretty uneventful, I feel my progress other then slow is flawless. I have been cleared as of the 14th to start a work out regimen. Thats tough right now but Ill probably check out It figuires, bally's, and curves. Hopefully one of them will make me feel confortable.
Todate I have lost 29pounds. Thats alot of weight for 37 days. Many seem to have lost more but my doctor says i have lost like 13% of my weight and at this rate ill be 150 pounds by Thanksgiving. I sure have alot to give thanks to this year.
I am planning a trip to busch gardens, that will be a nice distraction from all the pills and planning. ;) well til later all :)
04/19/05
Today is a down day for me. Today I was reading profiles and looked up fellow wiccans. I came across Jade Greene. I actually got upset and cried. I guess I am a big baby but I even called my husband crying. I am so thankful that my surgury has gone off without complication, but my joy is dampened in the shadow of stories like this. I just wish it could be safer and I wish I could have met Jade smiling with her new life. She was so young and had so much heart. The world is worse off for her passing. It was strange to feel such an instant connection with someone who has passed. I am posting this in a way for people to be thoroughly informed and know to think long and hard, to exhuast all weight mangement resources. Not everyone was as fortunate as myself and all the other success stories. WLS is not an easy way out.
04/25/05
Well Lei says since I am tricare prime I might want to get a perscription for my vitamins and suggests:
I will take the following:
* 2 Prenatal Multi Vitamin w/iron (script from the doc)
* B-12 Injections mo. 1000 mg.-will give them to myself (script)
* 1 Trinsicon Iron capsule (script)
* Ester-C (we absorb more Ester-C then reg. Vit. C) - 1000 mg.
* Calcium Citrate (w/Magnesium and D) - 1500 to 2000 mg.
So I am off to make another appt with my new Primary to get the script which I assume is a prescription :).
I am now 260 and I am so happy to be creeping to the 250's. This weekend my mother in law came down to visit. She had me in tears when she said how proud she was of me for all I have done and gave me a support gift of 100 bucks to go do something nice to my hair and face :) sort of a mini makeover. My own mom hasnt really said much and it has been so stressful, more then even I knew. When she said those words " i am proud of you" I just released it all in relief. I guess it was just good to hear. I know my husband is happy for me and loves me but I guess I just needed to hear it.
05/02/05
So I weighed in today and was happy to see 5 lbs gone. OMG help me I am meltttting......I am over my post op blues and its a good thing since my daughter is trying to enlist and got a really bad rate. So I got to deal with that. My hubby is out on det and my puppies are getting older and unsold. Thank goodness my son made the honor program again. Got to look for the bright spots in every day, even rainy virginia days haha. Today though is very sunny. I also read the boards and this is what interested me:
lei says:
http://www.allsportsnutrition.com
They have the NECTARS on sale for $19.76 a canister with a FLAT rate shipping of $6.95 (regardless of the order size).
Basically, what that means if you order THREE canisters with this site, you'll get the fourth one FREE and NO cost to ship. If that makes sense?
Vitamin Shoppe @ 4 jugs = $112.00
AllSportsNutrition @ 4 jugs = $85.00
Keep in mind, protein if left in the air tight jug and closed tightly after each use - lasts pretty much forever. Like I said, I don't like the NECTARS but I do like the DYMATIZE - ELITE flavors.
05/07/05
Today was a big marker. I am officially 40lbs down. I will be happy when I get into the 240's I never thought I would hear myself say that but the further away from 300lbs I am the happier I am. I think Ill faint the day I drop into the 200's and dont have to use that 200 mark on the scales at the doctors. I know you all know what I mean. Heck at 240 Ill loss the 250 mark :P YEAHHHHHH..i am doing a jig right now..ok well maybe jiggle but I am so excited to see this all working. Thanks everyone for your support at OH. OH yeah I am also going to Ruby tuedays with the local group next week. It will be interesting to see what everyone talks about and so many dynamic personalities in one room.
05/13/05
Today I meet a number of folks, all were very nice, I can sadly only remember half the names but am working on it. I made a fast site to share the images of everyone in the WLS luncheon.
Ambers Bday 2005
- Ruby Tuesday's Virginia Beach
Lei says on the forums my photo looks like I am older than I am and maybe its better to update a bit so..I took one that was ok and here it is....ME REVEALED CLOSE
05/19/05
So I am pretty pleased with the results, other then health I have another motivator for success in this surgury. More then anything I would like another child. I had my tubes tied when I was 27 and It lessens my success rate of conception to be heavy. My personal target goal is 195 to get in with a doctor I have in mind to reverse this proceedure... Now don't panic, I will not try to conceive til i am minimally one year out...but I can get the plumbing in order. To be honest I am sure I cant get the moeny together until i am one year out anyways. I could have the army base do it since I am miliatry for free or closer to free but I spoke to a nurse there and she said she hadn't known of anyone that conceived...so that worried me. So I found another doctor I got in mind. The proceedure will cost about 6400.00 but so worth it. Next baby step is 236, at that point Ill have moved from morbidly obese, very obese, and finally on to just OBESE..haha..still obese but two sizes smaller on the obese scale..
06/15/05
Well the weightloos has slowed down to a crawl...but I am still pleased with the 55lb weightloss. I lost 2 lbs this week..and none for 2 weeks before that :(...but hey I got 2 this week, Ill take it.
On the good note I am done with all my fertility testing for both my hubby and I. I have a great fertility doctor lined up for my tubal reversal. This is all like a dream come true to me. If you told me 3 years ago I would be happily married, own a home, be working on a baby, a new car, have WLS, and all my health needs meet I wouldnt have beleive it. I have accomplished so much in such a short time. I am truely blessed and I know with faith and my surgical support team I will loss the rest of the weight.
My mother-in-law sent me down a nice treadmill I just got to fine tune a few things and Ill be off and running...well walking haha. Current weight 238 and FALLING...I would like to get down to 191 before the tubal reversal. 47lbs more to go...well see, I got about 3 months to do it...it could happen haha...
Well I am done rambling at you. Ill probably post again after the picnic that I am sort of throwing. So far it seems like a VERY good turn out and I look forward to meeting the folks I have listened to on the board and seeing some I have already meet at Ambers Luncheon ;).
06/21/05
well I weighed in 236 yeah my first goal..
Your BMI or (Body Mass Index) is
34.9
You are in the "Obese" category for your height and weight.
According to this site I am no longer very obese...just over weight hahah and man I am so happy about that. Yeah I know its a small step for mankind and all but hey Ill get to steppin.
This is my goal, a friend of mine (best friend in highschool sent me my last reunion image. So this is my goal..this dress. This person..
09/15/05
I got my 6 month check up yesterday and am happy to report that everything seeems perfect. Protiens right on track, though I know I need more calcium. I am 214 lbs still, I lose about 5 lbs a month now. At this rate it will take 10 more months to reach my goal. No rush I suppose.
10/08/05
Well been busy with life, amazing how fast my dance card fills up these days pertaining to my free time. I got a huge update on my progress. I am only lossing about 4 lbs per month...but wait that isnt the big news...the big news is that I am pregnant. I never thought this would happen for me. This will be my third child but this child is a miracle in the fact that its after a successful tubal reversal. I had a tubal ligation 12 years ago and am now 38 chances get slim at this point in life but it seems I was not only given a second chance at life with WLS but at being a new mommy. I went to Dr. Levin in Kentucky (he apparently is a leader in this and uses the best most advance tools, he had the highest success rate) and he fixed me...so June 15, 2005 I will hopefully deliver a healthy bouncing baby. I worry its too soon after the wls but i know with proper care and prayer It will all work out :) well enough here just sharing my happiness with you all.
06/27/05
Today is my third year wedding anniversary, and so muuch has changed for the better in the last three years. I love my hubby to death. I am down 60 lbs according to my scale. Thank goodness its moving. I have a doctor appt next month for a tubal reversal so all extra weightloss will only help make our dreams of having another child a reality. The doctor we are going to is in Kentucky, some think this is far but he has all the good toys to assist in success at this proceedure and a nice set up..lots of successful people as well...
This weekend at the OH picnic that we semi hosted and attended
09/15/05
I got my 6 month check up yesterday and am happy to report that everything seeems perfect. Protiens right on track, though I know I need more calcium. I am 214 lbs still, I lose about 5 lbs a month now. At this rate it will take 10 more months to reach my goal. No rush I suppose.
10/08/05
Well been busy with life, amazing how fast my dance card fills up these days pertaining to my free time. I got a huge update on my progress. I am only lossing about 4 lbs per month...but wait that isnt the big news...the big news is that I am pregnant. I never thought this would happen for me. This will be my third child but this child is a miracle in the fact that its after a successful tubal reversal. I had a tubal ligation 12 years ago and am now 38 chances get slim at this point in life but it seems I was not only given a second chance at life with WLS but at being a new mommy. I went to Dr. Levin in Kentucky (he apparently is a leader in this and uses the best most advance tools, he had the highest success rate) and he fixed me...so June 15, 2005 I will hopefully deliver a healthy bouncing baby. I worry its too soon after the wls but i know with proper care and prayer It will all work out :) well enough here just sharing my happiness with you all.
2004
Jan 14, 2007
I got my first appointment in October, the 21st. It seems so far away from today. I am anxious to get back to my life, a life not trapped in this body, disappoint, or hungry. All my life I have battled my weight. I was on the nautibody diet at 17, and then Jenny Craig at 25, and staravtion in between, and the tfactor. I always lost wieght but i would have to eat half of what was recommended to do it. In my 20's my thyroid went bad. It was all down hill from there. I maintained my wieght only if I didn't eat and I went out dancing or walking everynight. I worked really hard to maintain a healthy appearance.
I was ok at it until I got hurt in 1997. I was 190lbs then (already looking to a new diet to fix the year I had beeen with out starvation). I broke my back and neck, that end of my active dancing days. I try to be active it's just got hard after I got over 230 lbs. It got harder at 250, and now near impossible at 294lb.
I have consistantly gained 15-20 lbs a year. I have a bad heart and damaged back with limited range of motion, and at times mobility. This has changed me so much... to a very depressed person. I don't play with my kids, I don't feel like being loveable to my husband, and I do not socialize. When I eat even a salad or food in public I feel like people are looking at me and saying PUT DOWN THE FORK FATTY. I sleep horridly as well with my limbs going numb all night and I wake up catching my breath (not to mention my new found habit of snoring). I hope that this drastic surgury will put me back in life.
I am scared of the surgury but have heard good things about the hospital I am going to as well as Dr. Lord's (who I beleive in the end will assist in my surgury). Pray this goes smoothly and I can go back to life, because at this point this is no way to live.
