Adventurous
I had WLS awhile ago, I am at goal and maintaining. I started this profile so that I can post without using my regular login.
For about 15 years I have been married to a nice man that I have absolutely nothing in common with. We have no common interests. He is obese and not willing to do anything to help himself and he is an alcoholic. I don't hate him, I'm just so disappointed. In some ways I hate myself because I cannot let it be and learn to live with it.
The hardest thing for me is that I don't have a single person that I can consider a friend. No one that I can just call and chat with about what is happening in my life. I have a couple of sisters but they are busy and don't have time. One of my sisters calls me every-so-often but she is having difficulties of her own right now so we haven't had a chance to talk about anything else.
I have tried to meet people but that has not worked out so well. It is difficult for anybody to meet new people and it is something that I have always struggled with. With men it is always a sexual thing, they either want to sleep with me or have nothing to do with me, there is no in-between! With women it is difficult because I never had children and most women my age have kids. Also, women of my age are not usually active. I am active and always have been, even at my heaviest weight. So...I do not and have never had a friend. I had blamed my weight but that is not the case. People just don't like me and I have never known why.
I'd ask the lord to please release the pressure I am under but after years of god-searching in numerous arenas, I am conviced that there is no god, just energy that some people have an uncanny ability to manipulate. I am not one of the manipulators but I can see the power in it.
