acabral08
What the Heck!!
Sep 18, 2012
LEAVE ME ALONE!! 
. It makes me want to not go anywhere where I see people I know. I have one "friend" at work that EVERY Monday she comes to my desk and asks me if I've lost more weight because I certainly shouldn't. She is 5'11" and a bean pole and I don't say anything about her being to thin. WTH??Some people try to be very subtle about it "Toni have you lost more weight?" with this look of fright on their face.
I am still trying to lose and it is now a struggle...well, not a struggle but I have to be very careful what I am eating. Still counting protein and watching calories. Could use some encouragement instead of criticism.
Happy Surgiversary to ME!!!!
Sep 05, 2012
These things I still do on auto pilot. I find myself eating to fast IF I have gone to long between meals and I am very hungry. I find myself eating sugar if I don't check the back of new products and I eat to much when I am REALLY enjoying something or NOT paying attention. I will ALWAYS have to pay attention!!! When will I get that? 
I find that if I have gained 2 pounds I freak out. Start thinking about WW and cleanses...when what I really need to do is go back to basics. It's not like we haven't dieted all our lives...we KNOW what protein is
and we know what carbs are 
. I feel better at 60 than I have in my entire life. I actually rode my grandson's scooter the other day!! Stay strong and keep up the good work, it is worth it!!
Wow!! Has it really been that long???
Aug 24, 2012
Well I had my tumor removed and it was benign
Thank you God! I'm feeling pretty good about myself. Think I am getting more used to what my body looks like. I still went to get another opinion about surgery. This dr said that he does this thing (I forget what it is called) where they cut your all the way around your waist and pulls from the bottom and top and cuts all the extra skin off from the middle. He says that it will help with some of the issues in your legs and but. That and to lift the girls (no implants) around $18K. Yep...you read that right.
So not sure where I will go with that.Are there people out there that get sick when they have sugar but have it anyways? What is wrong with me??? I'm still between 147 and 152. I'm looking good and feeling fine. Can now actually drink my water but need to keep an eye on my protein. May start counting protein again just to keep an eye on things.
Well, I will try and write more often I really need to be watching this site.
Surgery again???
May 22, 2012
I know it has been a long time since I have written and I do apologize. 
I swore I wouldn't do that. Well, for some updates:
1. Dating - I have met a guy, on line, that I have chosen to spend committed time with. He treats me VERY well but I think because of the way we met I have a very hard time trusting that he is who he says he is AND that he feels about me the way he says he does...I mean all of a sudden men want ME??? Really??? 
2. My wt has leveled off at 147 - 150. I'm good with that, feel and look great.
3. Have checked into plastic surgery for a breast lift (no implants) and removal of loose stomach skin (no muscles involved) at a staggering $12,000. Kaiser will do a stomach skin removal surgery so I am going to check into that. Then I would only have to pay full price for the lift.
4. I now have a benign tumor on my right side. NOT FROM THE SURGERY. Actually the surgeon said it could have been there all along and because I was heavier didn't even notice it. It needs to be removed and sent to pathology. I am going to try and see if I can have the tummy tuck and tumor removal at the same time.
That said I am really enjoying life. The quality of my life has improved 10 fold.
Went fishing with a bunch of people over the weekend and walked the mountains and streams with them...no problem. Play with my Grand kids...no problem. Work in my yard...no problem. Swim with my family...not embarrassed (although I do wear board shorts to hide the hanging skin on my legs).
Now new fear sets in...maintenance.
Whhhaaatttt!!!
Mar 27, 2012
I jumped on the scale today and now weigh 149!!! Holy S**t!! This has become surreal to me at this point. Almost like I am outside my body watching me get smaller and smaller.
This is all very nice but the skin issue is bothering to me. I thought I could deal with it and yes I knew all about it before I had the surgery. Just a tough issue. And, now that I am dating even tougher.
This new guy I was on a date with was telling me about a woman he had met on a blind date and that she had had WLS and then proceeded to tell me what her arms looked like and I could tell that it wasn't a pretty site for him. Wow, what an awkward moment for me....didn't even know what to say.
Learning to cope though because it is what it is and if that is a deal breaker for a relationship then so be it. Has to be someone out there who is interested in the person inside.
Till later folks!!
I'm wearing what size????
Mar 14, 2012
When I got up to get dressed for work on Monday all of a sudden nothing fit!! 
Really!! I was going to take some pants in the week before so I could wear them a little longer but when I tried them on the next week I would have to completely remake them. WTH happened? Scale hasn't moved but my body has sure shifted. Luckily one of my daughters had brought over a pant suit that she had bought and ended up never wearing. It not only fit but it looked awesome...AND it was a size 8!!! No way you say? Way. So when I went to buy a new pair of jeans after work that day I ended up with a size 7!!! SHUT THE FRONT DOOR!! I haven't worn those sizes since I was 7 or 8 years old.
I am so freaking happy with this surgery. I was so scared to do it and it is the best thing I have ever done for myself. 
I feel great, I think I look great, I want to go all the time, I enjoy the exercising and I can do all kinds of things I couldn't do before.
THIS ROCKS 
!!!
Moving Right Along
Mar 07, 2012
Hello Friends!
Things have been going well. Started a step class, have gone twice and can hardly move today but I love it. I have also been walking around our park on my lunch hour with the dog guy. So have started to get some exercise in...yeah 
. Only problem is that when I go exercise right after work I find that I am not interested in food when I get home. I have to make sure I'm getting my protein in when I exercise.
Once again I am getting comments at work on my clothes being to big so I will probably have to do something about that also. I have been invited to a house party (birthday) on St. Patrick's day. 
Haven't been to an adult party in so long I'm not sure what to wear. Any advice?
Well, have a great evening everyone!
Dating and WLS
Mar 05, 2012
Well, I have continued dating the dog guy mentioned in the previous blog. We went out to lunch on Tues. then to a movie and dinner on Fri. Then on Sat. we went on a road trip that lasted all day which means lunch and dinner together. Now, he is dieting and trying to lose some weight so this is something we talk about quite a bit. I asked my oldest daughter if I should tell him that I had WLS. Her reply was that "would you tell someone you are dating that you had gall bladder surgery?" So I thought that was pretty true. Well, by Sunday he asked me if I had had WLS or lap band or something. My answer was yes RNY. And so the questions began. And it seemed to go pretty well. I don't know what I was expecting. But I'll tell you what I wasn't expecting he asked me what I did on my lunch hour since I ate like a bird. I laughed and told him sudoku. He said well not anymore, I'm coming by at lunch and you and I can walk. Wow, what a nice man. And that is what we did today!
I am now down to 154.5 lbs. That is 115.5 lbs lost in 6.5 months! Thanks for every ones support and hope all of you are doing well!
Dating Ugh!
Feb 27, 2012
Well, I had a date Saturday night. Went to a very nice romantic place. When he asked what I would like for dinner I told him that I really didn't eat much and he asked if I would like to share something. (I thought to myself "that is a check in the pro column").
Then actually we ended up just talking and getting to know each other and sharing an appetizer. It was a very pleasant evening. He told me a couple times how beautiful I was (I think they probably tell everybody that) and it still made me feel very good. I was pleased that he didn't run when he saw me. (This is someone I met on line.)Then I had a date with someone else I met on line on Sunday to meet at the park and walk our dogs. That also went well, very nice guy. He asked if we could go out to dinner sometime. So maybe I will hear from him again. I tell you what we walked a long way...my butt is sore today!
TGIF!!
Feb 24, 2012
I am so ready for a weekend. As you can probably tell I am feeling better. The drugs really help with the pain and now I don't even hurt by the time I take the next one so it must be healing.Also, can't remember if I mentioned that I joined an on-line dating service...well I have a date Sat. to meet a gentleman for dinner.
I will keep you posted. Then another guy I messaged and asked for more pictures (he only had one). When he wrote me back he said he understood why I would want more pictures because he had put down that he carried a few extra pounds. Amazing how we always go there isn't it? I wrote back and told him that that had nothing to do with it just that the picture he had wasn't very clear.Now, when I set up the date for tomorrow night the first thing I thought was "what can I wear that will make me look thin?" Keep in mind that I am now wearing an 8-10 pant. Apparently my mind is still wearing a 24.
Well, everyone have a wonderful weekend and I will let you know how things go with my date next week!
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