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I finally did it!! I officially weigh less than 300 lbs!!!! Im 299.......but I did it lol. I'm so proud of myself this was my 1st goal and I finally made it. I probably haven't weighed less than 300 lbs in 10 years!!! WOW I need to pick my next goal.  

I am so glad the pain has finally stopped. I knew there would be pain (a lot) so I was prepared for that. I just wasn't prepared for it to last so long and to be so immobile. Really the only way not to be in pain was to lay on my back or if I sat up I couldn't sit straight up I had to recline back. That was difficult to spend most of my time like that. I would get up and walk around but the pain was just so overwhelming I couldn't do it for long. I THOUGHT I had a pretty high threshold for pain (5 tattoos and a tongue piercing) but i MAY have to reevaluate that LOL Lord willing the pain's all behind me now.
Eating is my new challenge. Some days I don't want anything to eat. Other days, I have "head hunger or "emotional hunger" for HOURS. I'm trying really hard to fight it though. I don't want to sabotage myself before I get started. Sometimes if I just HAVE to eat something but I know I'm not hungry I will get something like a piece of an apple or a piece of cheese. I know I shouldn't eat if I'm not hungry but HEY let's take baby steps here. I have years of bad eating habits to erase and Rome wasn't built in a day. I gotta find a hobby though lol. I guess it used to be food because for the life of me I can't find anything to do in this house except watch TV.   I used to read quite a bit maybe I'll start again. Also I'm going to find a support group. I just know I need something to occupy my time besides biting my nails. I know it's a nasty habit but I've been doing it since I was a kid. Well now I've stopped. it's my mission to let them grow. Doing pretty good too haven't bitten them @ all this week. My other goal is to get out more and walk. I went and got my 1st post-op pedicure Wednesday and my 1st post op hairdo Thursday (it was a MESS lol). Now I'm ready to rejoin society. LOL

Ok I saw the sleep specialist and he's having me to wear a CPAP . 
But hey, isn't this entire thing about doing things to keep me alive?? So I'm gonna wear it. I should get it this week and he should clear me for surgery when I go back on Oct 9th. This is the same day as my ultrasound so hopefully soon after the 9th I should be able to get a surgery date. I pray this all turns out ok.

OMG!!! I got my approval!!!! I still can't believe it!! On the 17th I was reading a post from the OH digest and it said how they'd called the insurance company to find out the status. I thought HEY, what have I got to lose? So, I called Aetna and she (Trisha from Aetna I'll never forget that name) says "well I see something.......give me a moment....yes, you are approved it was done yesterday." I cried right at my desk I was so happy LOL. I still have some things to do. See the pulmonary specialist, behavior group, and ultrasound but I am on my way!!! Please keep me in your prayers.

OK.....waiting sucks LOL I know it's only been a couple of days since my paperwork was submitted but the waiting is killing me!!! I pray that I get approved. Y'all pray for me too OK?