WOW - ONE YEAR TODAY ~ AND WHAT A JOURNEY IT HAS BEEN.
TODAY I WEIGH 144 LBS. JUST 2 LBS SHY OF MY GOAL WEIGHT - (DOWN 100 LBS). I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SEE THIS SIDE OF ME AGAIN. I AM SO EXCITED TO BE AT THIS PART OF MY JOURNEY. IT REALLY HASN'T BEEN ALL THAT HARD FOR ME. I HAVE A LOT OF SUPPORT FROM FAMILY AND FRIENDS, AND I NEVER FELT THE PRESSURE FROM ANYONE THAT I WAS WRONG FOR MY DECISION. THE ONLY THING I GET SCARED OR FRUSTRATED ABOUT, IS THAT NOW IT SEEMS LIKE I CAN EAT MORE THAN WHEN I WAS EVEN 4 MONTHS POST OP. I DON'T KNOW HOW NORMAL THAT IS. AND REALLY, IT DEPENDS ON THE TIME OF DAY, STRANGELY ENOUGH, AND ALSO THE TYPE OF FOOD. I HAVEN'T HAD THE PROBLEMS WITH SWEETS LIKE MOST POSTOP'S HAVE HAD, ALTHOUGH I STRUGGLE WITH DAIRY PRODUCTS, WITH THE EXCEPTION OF CHEESE. MILK, ICE CREAM, YOGURT, SOUR CREAM, ALL GET ME DEATHLY ILL, ALMOST IMMEDIATLY AFTER EATING IT. I LEARNED THAT FAIRLY EARLY ON, AND NEVER TRIED IT AGAIN! :)
IT'S SILLY TO COMPLAIN ABOUT THIS, AND REALLY, IT'S NOT A COMPLAINT, I JUST GET FRUSTRATED BECAUSE I DIDN'T REALIZE THAT AFTER ABOUT 8 MONTHS I WAS STILL LOOSING ENOUGH WEIGHT TO EFFECT MY CLOTHING SIZE, SO I WENT OUT AND BOUGHT A BUNCH OF PANTS IN A SIZE 12. WELL, I CAN'T WEAR THEM ANYMORE. I THEN BOUGHT A SIZE 10. I CAN'T WEAR MOST OF THEM ANYMORE. I HAVE SKINNY (WOW, NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD USE THAT WORD!) LEGS, BUT MY TUMMY STILL HAS THE EXCESS SKIN SO IT'S HARD TO FIND CLOTHES THAT FIT RIGHT. BUT, YOU KNOW, THAT IS A VERY SMALL PRICE TO PAY FOR THIS NEW FEELING OF A SINCERE JOY FOR LIFE. I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH I WAS MISSING OUT ON, BECAUSE IT WAS JUST THINGS I DIDN'T DO. NOW I LOVE TO BE OUTSIDE, DOING ACTIVITIES WITH THE KIDS AND DH, AND JUST LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST. I DON'T SAY NO ANYMORE, AND THAT IS JUST AN OUTSTANDING FEELING.
THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU THAT SUPPORTED ME THROUGHT THIS JOURNEY. I COULD NOT HAVE MADE IT ALONE. I KNOW YOU ALL TOOK TIME OUT OF YOUR LIFES TO MAKE SURE THAT I WAS OK AND FEELING BETTER, OR EVEN TO CONGRATULATE THE MILESTONES I HAVE REACHED. ALL MY LOVE AND BLESSINGS TO EVERYONE PRE AND POSTOP AND THOSE WE HAVE LOST A LONG THE WAY.