Well, my husband has gone to the airport to pick up my parents. Tomorrow evening my husband and I head up to Indy to spend the night closer to the hospital. I have to be there at 6:30am Wednesday morning, my surgery is scheduled at 8:30. I can't begin to tell you what these last couple of weeks have been like. I am so excited and can actually SEE myself thin and active, I can't wait to really start living! But on the other hand, I am so scared, of what I don't know. I haven't once had second thoughts, I have done the maybe I didn't try hard enough, but I truly believe this is the best thing I could do. Then why do I lie awake practically all night and cry, why do I hold my one year old and not want to let her go. It is so silly but I can't seem to get over it. I am a devout Christian, and have turned my worries over and truly believe that God sent this gift to me but it is just so hard. I have never had surgery so I am sure that is probably the biggest thing. Well anyway, sorry to ramble.... but please say a prayer for me, I hope to back next week telling you all how easy everything was.
I would also like to thank everyone for your support, if it wasn't for this website I doubt that I would have had the courage to follow this thru. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart