You hang in there. It is a tough transition. I know the feeling. I cried like a baby for the first 3 weeks. Then something WONDERFUL happened. God gave me my life back. It has been 15 months and I am so glad I did this. I know the depression is awful, get to a support group, seek attention, call upon others that have done this, find piers, friends loved ones, and for your sake seek SEEK the assistance you need. I know you will be fine, your life is new and your journey has just begun. We dread the surgery, yet it plays such a small part. The journey is now yours each day you awake with what a gift, the gift of control. You own your life again, You will make the right choices, and you will SUCCEED!!!!!!