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AGAIN--I AM ASHAMED OF MYSELF. I HAVE DRIFTED FROM WHAT THIS SURGERY HAS DONE FOR ME AND LET FOOD START TO TAKE MY LIFE BACK OVER AGAIN.  I GUESS IN A SENSE AND PRAY THAT  OF COURSE ADMITTING IS THE FIRST STEP.  I AM IN A COMMUNITY THOUGH THAT WLS IS NOT THAT PREVALENT--BUT THERE HAS BEEN RECENTLY A SUPPORT GROUP STARTED BUT DUE TO MY JOB SCHEDULE IT IS HARD FOR ME TO MAKE THE TIME TO GO.  WHAT IS ONE TO DO.  WELL I WANT TO TAKE MY LIFE BACK AGAIN--AND I THINK , NO I NO!!! I CAN DO THIS.  FOR ONE, I HAVE TO START SHARING MY EMOTIONS WITH MY BLOGS.  I THINK KEEPING ALL THIS EMOTION AND ENERGY IN IS ONE OF THE MOST GIGANTIC THINGS I AM DOING WRONG  TO MYSELF...WHICH IN TURN LEAD FOOD AS MY COMFORT ZONE.

I HAD TO LEAVE ALABAMA TO MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE AGAIN.  I HAVE HAD SO MUCH TRADGEDY IN MY LIFE THERE THAT I NEEDED MORE TO FOCUS ON.  THAT IS WHERE MY DH AND WLS CAME TO PLAY I GUESS.  MY DH IS SUCH A GREAT MAN HE SUPPORTS ME IN ANY DECISION I MAKE INCLUDING HAVING THE WLS.  HE WAS HAPPY WITH WHO I AM AND ALWAYS IS BUT HE WANTED MOST FOR ME TO BE HAPPY...SO I HAD IT OF COURSE AS YOU MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW ON 3/2/05 WITH DR. BEAVER IN DOTHAN AL.I HAVE CAME TO FAR SINCE MY SURGERY TO LET MYSELF GO--I MEAN I WENT FROM BEING A CORRECTIONAL OFFICER FOR DOC--TO GETTING PROMOTED WHICH WAS ONE OF MY GOALS TO SEARGEANT.  NOW I WORK AS A SHERIFFS DEPUTY IN DETENTION MAKING EVEN MORE MONEY.  YOU THINK THAT WOULD MAKE ME HAPPY--WELL IT DOES OF COURSE :-) BUT I KNOW IF I PUT MY MIND AND HEART TO IT I CAN DO GREATER THINGS WITH MY LIFE.

I HAVE TO GET BACK TO MY WORK FOR NOW.  I DO FEEL HAPPY THAT I WROTE THIS. 

NEW ME?? WELL I HAVE A NEW SURGEON AS OF YESTERDAY.  I AM GOING TO BE SEEING DR. OVERCASH IN OCALA IN SEPTEMBER FOR FOLLOW UP AND WHO KNOW? 

MORE LATER WORK CALLS

BACK TO THE DOCUT

 

Well first and formost I am ashamed of myself....I have not posted in so long.  It is not like me to be like this but there has been so much going on over the years as you may or may not know.  

I just came from Orlando over the weekend Visiting with my friends and making new ones of course and this years OH event.  I learned alot and realized that there is still alot of me to go to get to my achieved goal but of course I will get there in due time.

Gail, Betsy...it was great to see you two again.  Next time we will have to have more time so I can go with you two back to the Goochi{SP?} shop.  I told DH about that and he said he would kill me HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH....but it was a though.

Some pics from the event are posted here on my blog.

February 10, 2006--
Happy early V-DAy. Man I swore I would be better this year at writing in my journal. Guess I haven't really been up to it but I will try. After looking at my journal one thing really sticks out at me---I need a remodleing job here. I love the job that was done in the begining but I think it is time to have my profile redone. I will email Kim and see if she will still help me get somethign new started.

I hope that you are all well that is reading this at this time. My year has basically started the way it ended--still on this plateau stump--up/down/up/down. This I have come to realize is nothing more than jsut me. I have had a few good things happen while I have been on this slump--my cycle has come back into check...I have never had a monthly until Oct. of last year and has pretty much been around ever month since then., This is so great !!! DH and I are still hoping to be able to have kids, with that idea up in the air before surgery being the doctors were sure my weight was holding that up, maybe this will eventually become a reality for me. THe other thing is I know I have lost a few more inches in my chest. Currently I am wearing a 2X {16-18 or 18-20} in the chest pending on the shirt and am wearingn a 18-20 in jeans {pending on brand}. I really could not ask for more. I am very happy with my loss and really hope to continue with more. I keep reassuring myself that it will happen--jsut give it time. Patients has never been a virtue for me but for once I have to give in and be patient so GOD PLEASE GIVE ME STRENGTH!!

Other than that I am still a memeber of the Bama board. We are going strong. Secret Pals are still going strong on there too ...lets see this is my 4th time on it. Oh and I jsut joined the OH board secret Pal group. I have a great pal there too and hope to make a good friend off it. If anyone is interested in it you can find Secret Pals forum on the forums boardon OH listed between P-S .

I am gonna go for now--Take care all!!

~~Love Ya!! Becky

Just some info on me I took from the Secret Pals site--

If your married... what's your anniversary date? # of years?

September 15, 2000 goind on 6 years now

Another special date and that date is.... WLS Anniversary March 2, 2005

What holiday do you celebrate? Christmas, Hanukkah, Winter Solstice, Kwanzaa, etc. Christmas

Your interests? Painting ceramics, cross stitching, learning to crotchet

Favorite color? pink/purple/ silver

Favorite Movie or type of movie? Steel Magnolias { can't find a copy anywhere}

Favorite Store(s)? Wal-Mart

Favorite Restaurant(s)? a lot of them

What do you do when you get stressed out?pray that god gives me strength to deal with the situation at hand

Anything else you would like to tell me about you?? I am prettyy laid back going person. I collect turtles, tigers and bulldogs. I also raise White English BullDogs {hinces the name} I love Vanilla Musk perfurm--other than that I just love being a secret pal. Thanks again for starting this one up

Pets name?

3 White English Bulld Dogs: J. D.
D. O. G
Pepper
1 Chihiuahua/Shitzuh mix : Angel

Were you named after anyone special?
No: Almost was

Nickname:
NO!

What is the most recent movie you've seen?
The Dukes of Hazzard MOvie

Eye Color:
Hazel

Place of Birth(just to let the person know more about you):
Florida

Favorite Food:
It's really hard to say since surgery...a lil bit of it all

Ever been to? Croutons or Bacon Bits?
Bacon Bits

Favorite Restaurant?
Olive Garden

Favorite Flower?
Red Roses

Favorite Sport to watch?
College Footbal

Favorite Drink?
Unsweetend Tea with Splenda and my protein drink

Favorite Ice Cream?
Any Byreyers no sugar Ice Cream

Disney or Warner Bros?
Disney

Favorite Fast Food?
Chineese

What color is your car?
White

Which store(s) would you max out your credit card?
Dont have one but if I could there is no limit to which on I would use!!

What do you do most often when you're bored?
At home I come to the OH board...away I paint ceramics and cross stitch

Bedtime?
9 to 10 pm

Favorite TV show:
Dog the Bounty Hunter/ The sheild

What is your favorite color?
Pink/Purple

Lake, Ocean or River?
Lake {easier to go fishing on}

Shirt size?
right now it is 2x

Pants size?
running between 18w-20w

Shoe Size?
12 in womens

Do you like hats, hair ties, barrattes(sp)?
hair clips

What is the one thing that you would TRULY love to have that you may be to shy to buy yourself?
A sexy dress

What do you hope to get out of this program (Secret Buddy)?
A new friend!

December 25, 2005~~
Merry Christmas to you all. I have been a bad girl though. As you can see I have not updated in quite some time now. I can honestly say though that there hasnt been that much to update. My weight has been on a plateau that goes up and down 5 pounds. I have lsot some weight but then it goes up and down for a while. However though I can tell as of late that I have been losing inches so that keeps me happy!


I hope you all had a great Christmas. I did for the msot part but to be quite honest it just wasnt what I had hoped for--quite honestly...disappointing. See I have very lil family left. Myself, mom, her hubby a couple of aunts and my DH--oh and my inlaws...{like they count} All I really wanted this year was a loving family get together--not fights--not disappiontments..jsut a nice loving christmas. I can't even get that...but I should not complain, and as you can see I do say Merry Christmas--for it is the reason for the season. I did--but it jsut wasnt the same as I could have hoped for. I guess you can say I am jsut disappointed. I tried to talk to my DH but all he can say is he is sorry.

Heck I guess I should be happy----atleast I have my mom. My inlaws dont even try to have christmas with us. DH say I married the black sheep of the family --heck he did too for that matter I jsut inherrited that from my fathers side of the family. One thing I really want is to have a family of my own---I WANT TREAT MY FAMILY like this. I want to start ym own traditions. Who knows--maybe I will get that chance yet.

I am sorry--this is a journal though and I needed to vent. I should have been back to doing this months ago but I have not had the nerve.

Merry Christmas--I am gonna go and watch some TV and cook some din din for tommrow..HAPPY SHOPPPING!

~~Septemeber 21, 2005~~
Happy day to you all. I jsut thought I would drop in and post what a beautiful Vacation week this has been. Unfortunatly I did not get to do what I wanted to do while in Sunny FLorida but nonetheless I had an awesome time. Our friends jsutwould not lets us go and most of all they wanted us to move down there. Scott is even looking into our options. Who knows we could be some of sunny Florida's next people to move....but still we cant jsut jump the gun we have proiorites here too that have to be taken cared of before we can even make that kind of descion. Ands the great thing about this getaway was that I came back and found I had lost another 5 pounds. That puts me down 112 pounds now. GAWD~~~~WLS is a great tool. I am so glad that I had this done! Oh and today is a good day though...I have another interview at Walton CI ! Wish me luck.

Before I leave I want to share this poem my cousin sent me. I live on Hwy 109 ....well jsut read it..if you dont get treary eyed from it then I dont know what to say

>> A Poem That Gives You Goosebumps
>> A drunk man in an Oldsmobile
>> They said had run the light
>> That caused the six-car pileup
>> On 109 that night.

>> When broken bodies lay about

>> "And blood was everywhere,"
>> "The sirens screamed out eulogies,"
>> For death was in the air.

>> "A mother, trapped inside her car,"
>> Was heard above the noise;
>> Her plaintive plea near split the air:
>> "Oh, God, please spare my boys!"

>> She fought to loose her pinned hands;
>> "She struggled to get free,"
>> But mangled metal held her fast
>> In grim captivity.

>> Her frightened eyes then focused
>> "On where the back seat once had been,"
>> But all she saw was broken glass and
>> Two children's seats crushed in.

>> Her twins were nowhere to be seen;
>> "She did not hear them cry, "
>> "And then she prayed they'd been thrown free, "
>> "Oh, God, don't let them die! "

>> "Then firemen came and cut her loose, "
>> "But when they searched the back, "!
>> "They found therein no little boys, "
>> But the seat belts were intact.

>> They thought the woman had gone mad
>> "And was traveling alone, "
>> "But when they turned to question her, "
>> They discovered she was gone.

>> Policemen saw her running wild
>> And screaming above the noise
>> "In beseeching supplication, "
>> Please help me find my boys!

>> They're four years old and wear blue shirts;
>> "Their jeans are blue to match."
>> "One cop spoke up, ""They're in my car, "
>> And they don't have a scratch.

>> They said their daddy put them there

>> "And gave them each a cone, "
>> Then told them both to wait for Mom
>> To come and take them home.

>> "I've searched the area high and low, "
>> But I can't find their dad.
>> "He must have fled the scene, "
>> "I guess, and that is very bad."

>> "The mother hugged the twins and said, "
>> "While wiping at a tear, "
>> "He could not flee the scene, you see, "
>> "For he's been dead a year."

>> "The cop just looked confused and asked, "
>> "Now, how can that be true? "
>> "The boys said, ""Mommy, Daddy came "
>> "And left a kiss for you."

>> He told us not to worry
>> "And that you would be all right, "
>> And then he put us in this car with
>> The pretty, flashing light. "

>> "We wanted him to stay with us, "
>> "Because we miss him so, "
>> 'But Mommy, he just hugged us tight "
>> And said he had to go.

>> He said someday we'd understand
>> "And told us not to fuss, "
>> "And he said to tell you, Mommy, "
>> "He's watching over us."

>> The mother knew without a doubt
>> "That what they spoke was true, "
>> "For she recalled their dad's last words, "
>> " I will watch over you."

>> The firemen's notes could not explain
>> "The twisted, mangled car, "
>> And how the three of them escaped
>> Without a single scar.

>> "But on the cop's report was scribed, "
>> "In print so very fine, "
>> An angel walked the beat tonight on Highway 109.

>> "The 7 Second Prayer, Just repeat this phrase and
>> see how God moves..

>> "Lord, I love you and I need you, come into my
>> heart, and bless
>> my family, my home, my friends, and me. Amen. "

I have lost my father and brother while living here. My brother has two beautiful children left on this earth and I fully believe he looks out for them every day. That is why I say this poem toughs me in every way.

Good bye for today and again WISH ME LUCK!
Becky

Hello all! August 8, 2005~~
Man have I been bad. Been tooooooo long since I have written. But now I make up for it :-) > Well for the bad news....I have been on a plateau for 3 weeks now---but aleast I have made it under 100 pounds now. 5 and a half months later I can say that WLS is the best thing I could have ever done. I jsut hope the losing doesnt stop---not yet anyway. Here below you will see a up to date pic of me. Wed, the 10th I go see Doc. Beaver for my 6 month checkup---he starts my blood work too, OH YEAH--like I really like needles NOT--. Anyhoos---I will be back to write more, I have some things to do right now and tommorow I go to Montgomery for dinner--YEAH! Can't wait to see my friends again. Till then!

~~Becky



Hello all! Six months down now and life could not be much sweeter for me at this moment. I would have never thought back in January that at this time I would be 105 pounds lighter and in between sizes 18-20. Seems like as of late the inches move more than the weight does but hey----that is ok. I enjoy being sizes smaller. I can not beleive after all this time going from a size 26-28 to 18-20 has happened. I look at the size and think it is too small for me. The other day I went shopping in Burkes outlet here and felt froggy to try that size 18. Amazing I say....I went to everyone...my mom is so happy for me. Today though Sept 5, 2005 I looked at two pics at work that really grossed me. THey were preop pictures of me on my job. I can not believe I was that big. I hope that after having this surgery that this will never happen again. I cried in my heart ~~ still want to thinking about it. When that happenes I just stop and tell myself that I must be strong although it is hard when I have hormones going crazy at times. Today--I nearly lost it at work when a co-worker, who has less time on the job than I do--came to me when I refused to do somethign and started talking to me like I was trash. TO shut him up I went ahead and did it anyways...{no nothing illegal, jsut something that I refused to first do} Once I did it I was so hot that I let this happen that I came back in and was fixing to go off on him. Only at that time there was a sergeant near by which saw how I was reacting and talked to me. When I explained this to her she said that she would talk to him. Well to me that just dont work...so I went back to my station after he and the other guy had abandoned there post and nearly lost it again. WHen she came back I explained to her that I dont appreciate someone that has less time than me talking to me like he wants and that I know I should have handled this a different way but at that time I felt I should not have had to do what I did. She didnt get on to me...I at that time also explained that I have a high anxiety problem and that was why i was reacting the way I was at that time. She jsut had basically dropped it.. Another time this jerk gets away with this and I learn more and more to hate my job. Women just cant get a break in DOC...if it were not for the fact I need this job for now I would have quite years ago. I can say it has been a blessing for me Insurance wise---for not for them I could not have had it I would think.

Thanks for listening to me. I need to blow this steam everynow and then. I need to be posting here more often I guess--maybe it would make me feel a bit better knowing that someone listens.

Well enough of my problems...just know that I am happy and that life is great other wise. It is so hard to look and see myself smaller but as you can see in this pic below

(PICTURE BELONGS HERE)

This was taken this past saturday when my niece who jsut moved to texas was in town. My cousin, mom and I set up a birthday party for my nieces and nephew there so they would be together for there {early} birthday. Not trying ot sound vane but I do beleive that is the best I have looked in a very long time.

On a sad not...some of you may or may not remember that I had jsut recently gotten a new male puppy...well he died this past sunday from small hook worms according to the vet...there has been an out break of that going on so anyone who reads this please have you animals checked---if you are like my there just like having my own kids. It broke my heart when he died.

So long BUlly~~ you will be missed my friend.

May 10th, 2005~~
Happy Late Mothers Day to all! Hi all. I know I have not posted much as of late, guess you can say I have been a bite busy. Well to be honest I have been in kinda a funk to so to speak. I don't know what is wrong with me?? It must be hormonal I beleive. I don't want to do anything.....don't want to be social...it is almost like I am ---hell I don't know. I have heard that losing weight will do this to you but I never knew it was quite like this.

Well since my last post I have returned to work. Some of them were actually glad to see me return---not me though. I still hate that job but I can not afford to just up and leave it. The good thing is though I go later on this month to sign up for summer school at Troy University. I have less than 80 credits to finsh a bachelors-----sooooo here I go. I honestly can't wait to be honest. I need something in my life besides work and home {even though I get the unsocialable feelings liek I am having now}. This must really help me I tell you.

As for my weight lose....Well I have not been on a scale as of late. I dont have access to one that will give me an accurate weight---so I am playing it by ear for now. I know by the one at work it is around 60 to 65 pounds--{give or take 5 pounds I beleive} I go back to see Dr. Beaver next month on the 16th for my 3 month check-up. I have got to remember to tell him about how I have been feeling as of late and to find out if there is somethign out there that can help me out.

Oh while I am typing I guess I must post about my trip to St. Petersburg. We had a ball for the most part. As you may or may not know by reading my profile --- one of my health problems before my WLS this year was the fact that I have not had a cycle concurrent. Well on our way to St. Pete my friend showed it's lil red head ---first time in over a year. Guess we are fixing to find out if this she is here to stay now that I am on the road to losing weight? Well she stopped last nite so I guess we will just have to waait and see. Good luck to me huh ---LOL {gawd I hate to see her come but I am even more glad to see her go!} I know it is just a part of nature taking its course so dont get me wrong.

Gonna go for now. I think posting how I am feeling now has helped a bit. Thank you for lsitening !~~~Hugz and Kisses Becky



WOW....it has been a while since I havve last posted I see. Well I am proud to report that I just came from seeing DOc. Bear and and I am now down to 305 pounds. I am so excited. I am only upset that I didnt make my personal goal...being under 300, but still 305 aint bad at all. It is just time to take things up a notch or two. I need to continue to get my water and protein in and change my working out project. My mom says I should quite going to all these meetings I have started getting to and start going to work out. EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.......I will figure this out. I dont want to give up my life. I do have to update my picture though adn will do that soon as soon as I can get my PC back up and working.

Ok I have a TON of work to do so I will close this off now. Thanks for listening.



June 26, 2005~~~~
Happy Day! How are you all. FIne here with every pound gone. I have such wonderful news to report--- I am at 300 pounds now......Just (1) pound from being under 300 I am so syked! I have not seen under 300 in yearsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

I am not gonna know what to think about all that I tell you LOL. Other than that much more to talk about. I just went and visited my best friend from Virgina over in Spanish Fort a couple of days ago. Seeing my god-children for the first time was awesome. I will have some pics up shortly.

Now for something else that has been long needng to be said.

Dear tummy,

We have had a long lasting relationship as you well know, but it is time that we part ways. Yes we have had many a great times and have had many a great adventures but it is time now that I have a different adventure without you. With each day you get a lil smaller and with each day you complain a lil less. It was nice knowing you as a large tummy but it will be nice knowing your better side as a smaller tummy. Don't fret though you are not the only part of my body that has been getting eviction notices so you are in good company. My butt has seen better days...now it has jumped ship to live on someone else. My double chin no longer talks to me like it were a body of its own.

Know in my heart that you were my best friend but you can no longer be now.....

Good bye pal
BullDog Lady's smaller body to be!

~~April 5, 2005
Hi to all. Good Tuesday to you all. I have not posted much since last month...things have been so hassling. Let me update you on what has been happening. My post-op appointment was March 26, 2005. I weighed in at 353 pounds. That was just AWESOME. DOn't really think that it had sunk it at this time but in anycase that is a great lose for me. That next day though I had injured myself at home. I was walking down my stairs when I stepped on my right foot the wrong way and felt something pop. My hubby took me to Flowers ER where I got treated rudly for 5 and a half hours for a very bad sprained/broken foot. They also made me walk out on it..GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Well that Monday I got me an appointment with Dr. Maddox at Southern Bone and Joint CLinic. Doc Maddox said he didnt beleive it was broken but was gonna treat it that way casue of the swelling and pain. I have wearing a stocking and air boot when I am out since. The swelling has went down greatly {except for the ankle on both sides}. I am still out of work till the first of May now.

I thought I was gonna be going to the Bama bash this weekend but I got an email from the girl that I was gonna ride with telling me she didnt think she was gonna have enough room for me and my stuff too and waas worried about me and my foot. It bothers me that everyoen has an opionion about my foot but noone knows how I feel but me. That is ok though I will just stay home on another suck butt weekend.

Oh on a BETTER NOTE...I have 6 brand new puppies. My White English BullDOg Lady had 6 beautiful puppies this morning...and I went and weighed myself today while I was uptown with my mom...I am down to 335 pounds. I am so extactic!!!! Before i would have never guess but now since January 17th when the doc gave me my orders to lose some weight----I have lost 55 pounds. around 40 since surgery March 2nd. YYYYEAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! More to come---HUGS AND MUCH LOVE ~~ Becky



April 11, 2005--
Good Evening all. I thought I would take a moment to post on my lose. As of the 5th I have lost 42 pounds. That makes 55 since Jan 17th. I am so PSYCHED ! I tell you what.

On a sadder note. There has been so much ugliness going on the OH Alabama Board these past few weeks. It is so sad to see people arguing like kids over something that is none of there business to start with. I can just imagine what others are thinking about this board....and that is what stinks the most. I remember when I first came to this board I was in FL cause nothign was ever going on with the bama board....and seems like the roll is vise-versa now. And for some reason I just cant help to feel like I have been left in teh dust again. Matbe it is jsut me. Well I am off to finsh fooling around with my profile and get my new printer up. I will post more when I can.~~LOVE TO ALL Becky



(PICTURE BELONGS HERE)
This is me at my latest weight...332 pounds gone forever! YEAHHHHH ME =-)

This was taken this past Saturday at my SIL home. Since I finally figures out how to post these pictures I thought I would post one. Gonna weighin tommorow. Get back to you then!~~Becky



April 25, 2005~~
Hi all--it is me again. I have not posted in a bit so I thought I would come here and talk a few. This past week has been kinda of a bummer for me I guess you can say. My dog that had puppies....well she got sick and started sweeling up all over--and before we knew it we were losing puppies left and right =-(. Today was the last straw...the puppie we were gonna keep, lil Jerry Lee died in my arms. I started crying and I felt like it was all my fault. Well on top of all that it is believed that the momma had a stroke and that she has not much longer to live......IT has got to get better..

Last nite my DH comes home and tells me about 2 of his co-workers that got shanked by an inmate at work last nite. WOW -- that makes me really want to return to work that much quicker and the thought of him being up in the middle of it just irks me. He loves his job though---and I can't blame him for that. I just hope he understands that I don't like mine and I will be so happy to get back to school to finsh my degree. For those that do not know I have less than 80 hours to do on my degree My degree will be in Psychology, with a minor in either CIS or accounting I have not decided yet. Those are such my strong points in life. As of a matter of fact I am suppose to register for summer school tommorow if I want. I might have to wait till next month I dont know yet but I will let yall know!

Oh and BTW, I go back to the bone doctor tommorow about my foot. I am hoping he releases me cause I really need to get back to work. GAWD ------ I can't beleive I jsut said that cause I don't want to go but I am about to run out of time -- hince no time, no paycheck. I will post my results tomorow when I return home from town. I am so anxious to return back to my walks in the park over in Rehobeth that is for sure.

Ok---DH is getting ready for work soon I jsut wanted to post and update on myself.. No weigh-in yet cause the scales were removed from the store that I usually go to so now I will have to find somemore -- in anycase I feel like I have lost a few more pounds anyhow! TTFN for now~~~~~MUCH LOVE~~Becky

MARCH 1ST, 2005----
1 DAY AND COUNTING... WOOOOWWWW I can not beleive it has all come down to this. After all this time I have went through to get my surgery done. It is so amazing. I want to thank you all for the love and support you have shown me through my times.. Its my time now WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..I have to be at SEAMC , at 5:15am in the morning. Atleast mine will be one of the first to be done and over with! Luckily though I was concerend that I would not make it there with the way I was feeling yesterday. I had some kinda stomach bug that was making me sick to my stomach. With plenty of rest and prayers I feel so much better =-) I say that is what it was because my nephew had it over the weekend and I was in contact with him alot...as well as my cousin for whom I just found out had this too...so that makes me feel a lot better. What else can I say---this has some kinda ride...and it is truly only beginning. I can't wait to see where my new lease on life takes me too as far as weight lose goes. But for sure I know I have my OH family here to support me here all the way. Thanks again you guys ....my angel Gisela will let you know what is going on with me at the hospital. There is an 1-800 number to the hospital that I will publish jsut in case anyone wants to call me. Till we meet again---on the other side of course..~~~~Becky



March 5, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!! HI all---I have made it to the losing side. Just how much yet I dont know--and dont care. I am jsut glad to be alive, home and well. The hosptial was not the best place to be...My doc had to see that for himself before he would let me go. I am so glad I chose him now. He stuck up for me....CHewed the nurses a new hinyn and everything. They were not taking care of me as they should. So the second time he had to get one to them he told me as soon as he saw I was tolerating liquids he was gonna discharge me cause he believed I would be better off at home....God BLess home.. Would not know where to be with out it. ANYHOOSSSS..just to catch you up..I am tolerating my liquids of course. I am walking and sipping...keeping that pretty purple squeezie next to my side that my secret pal sent me. Of course my doc did say I had better have something or I could look forward to getting my first chew out from him on my first check up. I get up amd walk...Today I finally got to take a shower in my own house. Gawd it felt good but tiring. I am fixing to take me a napp...but when I do I will be back to post somemore. Till then~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BULLDOGLADYLOSER WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO



March 9, 2005~~~
Good morning my OH Family. Today is such a great day. I woke up feeling pretty good so far. I got up and took my vitamin and drank me some milk. I had to post this lil bit of info. I went to town yestterday with my hubby. There is a scale that I like to use when I am in town that is pretty accurate for the most part ---so I said what the heck let me go and see what I have lost. Well to my surprise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A whole 17 more pounds gone forever. I am still so stunned I don't know what to think....but in anycase I am happy and it defintly helps me keep going. I have been keeping an eye on what I drink and looking out for my protein. So far my goal is 42----yeah those who are reading this may think I am crazy----but so far I have managed to make this work....and I hope it continues to work.

But ANYHOOS---I will go back sometime and check next week and see what the scale says again. Of course I dont have nothing "OFFICIAL" in the docs eyes cause I dont see him untill the 24th...so I jsut have to keep up for myself the best that I can. That Scale I give a lee-way of 2 pounds....in anycase that still has to be pretty good.

I have to go and get me a shower....Will post more later! have a Great Day!



March 14th, 2005--
Howdy Ho my fellow Losers. It is I checking in again. Man I can't belevie how time flys when one is taking time off from work LOL. I have been doing well with my second week being post-op now. I am getting ready to start my 3rd week now. I went yesterday and weighed myself. I can not believe how I am changing since I have had this surgery. Since Jan 17th I have came off not quite 40 pounds! WWOOOOOOOWWW -- I have not seen digits like this in a VERY long time. I simple can't wait for it to keep happening for me. THere is so much temptation out here to deal with when it comes to eating. I never realized how bad it was till I came a loser---but what makes it best is when you have family memembers who look at you and tell you how proud they are that you are able to stick with it lose what I have so far. Today my SIL and I are starting back on our walks...but i have to cut it short cause I am going down south with my mom for a couple of days to visit some cousins and a great aunt of mine. THat is one other reason why I thought I would make a post today. Yesterday I got so worn out--but for a good reason of course. I got out and enjoyed the beautiful Sunday that it was. First of all I had a protein drink with my SIL and cousin on her porch enjoying the morning sun---then it was off to the Flea Market! Haven't been Flea Marketing in a long time....enjoyed it all--and got some --HA--A LOT of walking in there. THen we were off to the Civic Center to watch some WWE Raw wrestlers SHow..YES we know that it is fake...but we do enjoy watching them wrestle at time =-). By the time We got home---I was so pooped......I fell asleep on the couch. THat was my day indeed. Well anyhoos I have some work to do before we leave n the morning...so I will post again when ever I get home!~~~Love to all Becky



March 18, 2005---
Happy late St. Pattys day! I spent it traveling home of course. Long time that was traveling from Rainy SOuth Florida....wish I could have stayed but I had to return sometime. I am still doing good. My Great Aunt could not beleive that I had done this and was happy for me at the same time. My cousin was also happy too. I am glad to see that I have such a family support here. Other than that---today has been a so-so day. I am tryin to get ready to go back to work in a couple of weeks. I called a co-worker at home to talk to her. BIG MISTAKE---oh not to talk to her, she is a good friend. She just started talking about work and such and how busy and stressing it is and how it was wished that I would hurry up and re-turn so I can take my place again. I feel stressed all over again. I dont want to return to that job---I HATE IT WITH A PASSION. But I really have no choice. Hubby tells me to quite if I want but we cant afford that. I really want to go back to school and finish my degree. What will I do--well I will come back with that answer soon of course. I can't go back feeling this way--somethign has to give and it sure want be me. Time for a good prayer. Love to all~~~Becky



March 24th, 2005--
Hi all. I just came home from my first post-op appointment with Doc. Beaver. He was happy with me and my lose and encouraged me to continue the good work. I have lost since March 2nd 28 pounds. To this date since January 17th I have lost almost 40 pounds. It feels great to see numbers I have not seen in a long time. He says that when I come back I will have even MORE gone and will be feeling great. I dont know---I learn not to be optimistic about things till it happens. I guess I jsut dont want to get disappointed. Other than that I feel great about my lose. My SIL and I are back on our walking regimend. I go back to work next Saturday...and I am signing up for Summer School. Well it is time for my lunch so I must go. Talk to you again soon~~ MUCH LOVE BECKY

Feb-5, 2005.
Hello all. This week has flown right on by. It is hard to beleive that I am staring down the end of thei WLS journey. 25 days and counting. I have been working on cutting my meals down and my SIL has started a walking routine with me. SInce January 31, 2005 we have been walking. We missed a couple of days cause of the weather. I didnt get to go today cause my knee is hurting real bad. I might have to go and get my darvacet refilled at this rate. I haveto lose some weight before my surgery---I dont want this postponed. Lord give me strength to do what must be done here. Oh and so you know I have an angel now. Her name is Gisela. We first me at LaBamaba's a couple of weeks ago. She is so down to earth...I like her a lot. I hope we can stay friends for a long time. We have so much in common which is a good thing. She is gonna be a great angel for me. Well anyhoos---enough of me babling. I just wanted to update my files. I can't wait for this to get started. The sooner I become a lsoer the better I will feel. THe better my knees will feel I hope. I am looking at possibly having my knee surgery in another year after my WLS if it is at all possible. Ok well I am off to bed....nothing better than getting up at 5:30am .....What am I nutz there is too HAHAHAH---Niters all!



Feb 9, 2005-----
Evening once again. I thought I would drop by and talk a bit. I have a lot on my mind but not really anyone to talk to at this moment. Today has been a sucky day---and the fact that it has been dreary and rainy doesnt help either. I feel like I am on a emotional rollercoaster ever since I got a date for my surgery. Earlier this week I broke the news to my LT. and I thought he was gonna have a cow. The place I work at does not care one bit about you---only themselves and what is in it for themselves. I am one that doesn't like to hate but I can not in this world stand my co-workers ---let me restate this---only the ones that act like there better than God themself. I dig for all the strength in me on a daily basis to deal with these people. I have about ran out of patients. Today of all days I get the 3rd degree about my surgery and it was not even in person. It was written in a memo---HELLO...got something to say say it to my fface. Yes document it of course but talk to me---AM I NOT HUMAN????? This is my time ---not theres. If I had went in I prolly would have lost my temper and that would not been a good thing so maybe they did me a favor??-----------------------------------------------------NAAAAAAAA. I just feel so stressed when I am around these people....but I can not afford to leave there just yet. Things are just starting to fall into place. First my surgery----next is school. I just need patients and PRAYER of course. Oh god please be with me. I know you can hear me and my dailky prayers....please help me and give me the strength I need to deal with these idiots on a daily basis.

For those that are reading this---I am not crazy. I just needed someone to talk to. My angel was not here and I really dont know how to talk to her. And I really didn't want to post this on the board --- guess I am jsut scared of what some of them would think of me. I just needed to get this out of my system on some paper or something. This is of course a journal right?? :-) I will be ok---besides I do feel a bit better since I wrote all my thoughts here. I think I will leave them as a reminder of when I feel this way again that just venting alone can be good as venting to a friend. Thank you for listening to me----my OH friends ---Love you all!



February 19, 2005----
WOW! Less than 2 weeks left till the BIG DAY. Yes I am still feeling wacky you could call it. I am just as EXCITED as I am nervous...but in due time it will be all for the good. I have done so much since I last vent here...but before I talk about that I need to get something straight here. If I have offended anyone by my last journal statement I am SOOOO SOORRY. This was more or less my way of venting my problems and frustrations.

But to better things---this past week I rode with my angel---the best angel one could have--and with her hubby to Montgomery to meet some of the OH members. I am so glad that I did get to go and meet everyone face to face. Now just keeping those faces and names together will be such a trip. Now with the Bama Bash coming up....I am looking forward to it. I am really hoping it works out to where I can go---hubby gave me his blessing but want be able to accompany me to this--this time. We will see though...that is all for now..next time!



Feb 24, 2005-----
Finally...I am down to the last 6 days. I went to see Doc Beaver yesterday and I am happy to report that he was impressed with my weight loss in the last month and said that the surgery will go on as scheduled for next week. I was so EXSTATIC...I was even more exstatic when I saw how much I had lost...around 13 pounds in the last month. WOOW. I can only hope my WLS wil linhance my loss further to a safer, healthier weight. And on one other note...I want to thank everyone for there well wishes and speedy recovery during my surgery. My angel put the word out all over OH and since then I have been bombarded with great wishes. My angel...she is something else.. Thanks GISELA! Will update again soon! Love to all!~~Becky