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That is right! Size 10 Levis!  Size 10 feels better than 12 and I know 8 is going to feel better than 10! It is slow going but it is still going DOWN!

Today is my eight month anniversary.  I have lost 66 pounds since my surgery and 82 pounds since I began this whole journey.  I am now down to 150 even.  I am losing about 5 pounds a month.  I know that might seem very slow but as long as it keeps coming off month after month that is all that matters to me!  My goal is to get down to about 120.  I am hoping to make it there by Christmas.   

Gerard Way's birthday!  My daughter made me put that on here! She LOVES My Chemical Romance. 

As of today I have lost 57 pounds! I am in the 150's now! Everything is feeling pretty damn good.  My job is in the shit hole but other than that things are going good!  

I have decided that all I can do is try to make the best of things and I guess that is all that anyone can do- we can either be a TIGGER or an EEYORE.  And I am choosing to be and I will ALWAYS choose to be a TIGGER!!!!!!!!!!!!

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and that all that I am going through now will have a greater purpose.  One day I will look back and realize OH that is why I went through that nightmare. 

Well I am five months out and I have lost 54 pounds.  So this month I lost only 5 pounds.  But I am still pretty happy with that because my clothes just keep on getting bigger and bigger.  And the way I see it if I just keep losing 5 pounds month after month then I will be doing great.  

Yesterday I put on a pair of size 12 levis.  They are a little tight to wear just yet but I can zip those suckers up!  

I was just looking at my post were I say I am so proud of myself for doing an hour on the treadmill.  That has pretty much become a three or four time a week event now and I am really happy with that accomplishment too.  Wow how my life has changed in the last five months.  

All in all things are going well and I am so happy that I made the decision to have this surgery.

I just did one solid hour on the treadmill!  I went 2.75 miles and I am so proud of myself! 

Well I am 4 months post op and I have lost 49 pounds.  I am really happy with the results and hope that I can keep it up.  

Last weekend I went to North Carolina for my cousin's wedding.  I had a wonderful time it was so nice to see all my family.  It was nice to look forward to the event instead of thinking "I don't want anyone to see how much bigger I have gotten since the last time I saw them".

It was very hard to stay on track with my eating plan though.  I learned how easy it would be to go back to my old eating habits if I was not so careful.  I know I would not be able to eat as much as I used to but I sure had no problem eating my old friend carbs!!!!  

It was also VERY easy to skip the exercise too!!  I got back last Sunday evening and I did not hit the treadmill until today!!  

I have another cousin getting married in July and I that gives me something to work towards!  I am jumping back on track!

Well tomorrow will be three months.  I have lost a total of 40 pounds so far and I am really getting my energy back.

Yesterday I saw my surgeon and he gave me a slip to have all of my blood levels tested.  I have been taking all of my supplements so I am hopeful that I will have good results.

Somedays I feel great about my progress and then other days I don't feel like I see any difference at all.  People always say they can't believe how fast the weight dropped off but I don't feel that way at all.  I feel like I am struggling for every single pound.  

Oh well- time to get on the dreaded treadmill---I hate that damn thing!!!!!

Well things are finally going in the right direction.  I have seen the surgeon about my infection and everything is healing well!

My weight finally started to drop too.  It was so weird at only four weeks out from surgery my weight loss stalled.  I literally went almost three weeks with out losing any weight.  I thought OF COURSE I AM THE ONLY ONE IN THE WORLD THIS SURGERY IS NOT GOING TO WORK FOR!!!! But luckily the weight just started coming off.  I am down a total of 32 lbs at just a little over two months post op.  

I have been hitting the treadmill too- although I did let the holidays get me a little off track on that endeavor.  
 
Yesterday I started trying on old clothes.  I can actually get into one of my Caspar suits!  It is too tight to wear but I know it won't be before too long. 

Best Wishes to everyone for a wonderful 2008.

Well I am finally feeling better.  I had one more trip to the ER -turns out the pain in my side was an inflamation of the lining of my lung.  

I have been back to work for two weeks now.  Everything is getting back to normal.  

I have been hitting the treadmill everyday for about the last week too.  

I go back to see my surgeon this Wednesday.  I can't understand why the weight is coming off soooooo slowly.  I thought it was supposed to fly off in the beginning.  I guess I need to stop getting on the scale-but it is hard to do. 

All I can do is keep doing what I am doing and hope for the best.   

Well I have some good news and a shit load of bad news.

The good news is that I am one month out and I have lost 20 lbs.  I am very happy with those results.

The bad news is I am having other problems.  On Wednesday 11/22/07 I had a follow up with my PCP on my BP meds.  My BP is steadly dropping and I should be off them all together soon. (Also Great news)  At that time I was beginning to feel a small bump on my bottom-sort of between my cheeks.  I didn't really think it was anything to worry about and did not ask my Doc about it.  The next night (Thanksgiving) I started to have a pain on my left side right at the top of my rib cage-Plus the bump on my bottom was getting bigger and causing me more pain.  

On Friday I called my PCP who said the pain was probably a muscle pull and if it did not start to feel better I should go to the ER to get it checked out.

On Saturday my daughter had a slumber party to attend so I dropped her off and headed to the ER.  

I ended up at the ER for 9 hours.  They did a cat scan,a chest xray an EKG and after nearly knocking me out with pain meds they lanced the bump on my bottom (now as big as a fifty cent piece and INFECTED-staff possibly MRSA). The WORST pain of my LIFE!!!!

Then on Sunday I had to go back to the ER and have the wound re-packed and bandaged and to my PCP on Mon, Wed and Fri for the same.  Now next Wednesday I have to go to a surgeon to have the wound evaluated to make sure the heavy duty antibotics they have me on are working.

To make matters worse the pain in my side is getting worse.  They are continuing to treat it as a muscle pull but even though the cat scan did not show it my PCP says it could be an abcess which is an infection deep inside.  Apparently they might have to GO IN to drain the infection out.

I am so sick and tired of feeling like CRAP.  I feel like I have done all of this to myself and it makes me so mad.  

I am just praying I can get through all of this without having to have another surgery.  I have to start getting a more positive attitude but it is really hard to stay positive when things keep going wrong!