Ms.B
and the journey continues.......
Aug 19, 2009
It's been a while. I admit I have become fascinated with Facebook and a lot of my time online has been spent there. Summer here in NY has been mild compared to previous years but even with the heat we've had, I have not been sweating as much as I would normally. I returned to work finally on Aug.4. People I have not seen since the surgery have been stunned by my appearance. Mouths have dropped and of course comments have been made(all good) but I know I'm still a work in progress. My eating habits still suck. I'm hardly ever hungry and when I am, eating is a chore. There is nothing like throwing up your 3 bites of salmon on the corner of Lexington Ave. & 53rd St. And for those who don't know, it's a pretty busy corner in Manhattan. A subway station is right there thank you very much and here I am in full uniform (I work for NYC Transit) at the beginning of the evening rush, pucking up my lunch. There were 2 sympathetic souls who offered to get me water or something to ease my anguish.
I guess if I'm going to eat other than my own cooking, I better get used to that and carry bags with me.
Anyway, for anyone who might be interested, I reached 1derland today.
Scale read 198. I can't remember the last time that happened but I know it was 20+ years ago. Hopefully by next year, I'll be able to get this skin removed to complete this journey. So, for now I'll just say things are better and I expect they will continue to improve in the months ahead.
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I guess if I'm going to eat other than my own cooking, I better get used to that and carry bags with me.
Anyway, for anyone who might be interested, I reached 1derland today.
Scale read 198. I can't remember the last time that happened but I know it was 20+ years ago. Hopefully by next year, I'll be able to get this skin removed to complete this journey. So, for now I'll just say things are better and I expect they will continue to improve in the months ahead.
Much Better!
Jun 01, 2009
So glad to be able to say things are much better. Eating better even if it is only an 1 1/2 ozs every two hours. The weight loss has slowed from 8-10 lbs a week to that a month. Total so far is 103 lbs. Celebrated another b-day and am feeling better now than I did 10 years ago. Just happy to be here. Updates soon! 
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Still Not Right
Mar 08, 2009
I am still not eating enough to sustain myself. I've lost so much weight which was the goal but sh*t, I'm starving. Next week I'll be 2 months post-op. Doc is planning to do an endoscopy the following week to see if I have a stricture. Hopefully that will be the worse case scenario. This has been quite the experience and if asked would I do it again I'd hesitate before answering yes. As armed with knowledge as you think you are before surgery, when things get crazy, it reminds you just how delicate and fragile life can be. I know I'll get through this because I don't believe I've come this far to lose this battle. When I look at it from another angle, my doc said I'd probably be 80 lbs lighter by Aug. Well the way things are going that number will be much higher since I've already lost 73lbs. The weight loss will probably slow down once I start eating. I can't wait until I can just sit down and eat a meal without worrying if it'll stay down or not. Patience!
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Drama, Drama
Feb 05, 2009
I have always been the type of person who has drama follow me. why should this time be any different. Okay so the surgery went well and there as no real drama there. Then it started. My first attempt at eating, everything felt like sand going down. Now, everything I do from taking a shower to trying to do some light cleaning, makes me feel as though I am going to blackout. Doc told me I'm probably not eating enough, so I increased my intake and added shakes back into the mix. Yesterday, was really scary. I had to bend over a few times to take care of my cat's food bowls. Before I knew it my world was spinning and it was all I could do to make it over to chair because once the flickers start in the eye area, it usually means lights out. I recovered slowly from that and first thing this morning called the docs office and made an appt. They are going to have to tell me something more than eat. This too will pass! And when it does, life can get on.
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Living Dangerously!
Jan 29, 2009
I am eating and it has it's good and bad moments. Today's meals started with 1 oz of tilapia in cream of chicken soup from last night, an ounce of sardines for lunch. And for dinner I got really crazy and had Boston Market. Okay so it was only a few bites of a chicken leg, 1/2 a noodle of the mac & cheese & 1/2 a baby spoon's worth of cream spinach. That probably all weighed up to an ounce but it was soooooo good. Now I must admit either the mac & cheese or the spinach didn't sit well with me but since I ate them at the same time, I don't know which one made me nauseous but at least it stayed down. I'm still not sure when I'm full and that's a problem but it'll come with time. Full right now seems to be, nauseous which probably means I ate too much. And finally, I got my rtw papers for Feb. 11. It's not going to be easy after being out for so long but at least I'll be 40+ lbs lighter and rested. I'll also have this eating thing in check which will be a good thing. Don't want to find myself on the tracks looking at an on coming train cause I passed out from not eating when I should have. i probably should have had the doc stipulate I must eat every 4 hours because those jackasses will run you into the ground if you are not on top of your game. Gotta walk with food at all times and become more aware of the signs of hunger since my belly doesn't growl like it used to. And I must do better with my protein. Seems like it's be a while before I can get most of it from solid food so the shakes will have to do. I enjoy the Chike so hopefully the chocolate will be back in stock soon.
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1st Post-op
Jan 27, 2009
First post-op appointment today. Doc says I'm coming right along and that was good to hear. He gave me some do's and don'ts for the next few days. Main thing is if I follow his instructions, I should be fine. So tomorrow is the big day. If all goes well I'll be eating food again. We'll see.
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About Me
JAMAICA, NY
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45.3
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Surgery
01/14/2009
Surgery Date
Apr 18, 2001
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