bridget 10/4/05
old stuff...
Jan 17, 2007
i have stopped eating sugar. thank god for sugar free fudgesicles!!!
6/27/05
i got the call from bariatric surgery program i applied for and i am ok to schedule my pre op testing appointments. i go to take the 200 question psych test 7/13/05 along with enough blood work to make me faint. then i have to wait until 8/2/05 amd go back up to the institute... 80 miles away... and i get to have my one on one psych evaluation and a visit with the dietecian, physical therapist and pcp nurse. in the meantime i am on a waiting list for the sleep study. sounds like a lot of testing but the good news is that i found out that the company i work for adjusted the coverage they provide for wls and it is covered 100% once accepted into the program... so that is one less thing to worry about.
7/14/05
so i went to my first pre op appointment. i had to take a 590 question psych test. funny thing was that there were three other people taking the test too and i finished way before them. i guess i must be very decisive. the questions were strange. i guess we will see how it comes out. i also had to do the body fat percentage test... that sucked. i had an mri and did measurements. so all in all it was ok but not something i would like to do again.
8/2/05
i did the marathon of pre op appiontments today. saw the psychologist, that went fine. he cleared me. i saw the dietician - learned some interesting things. i saw the physical therapist - she gave me a work out plan that i will actually be able to do. i also saw the nurse practioner and got the ok as far as health for surgery goes once i get my vitamin levels up. it was a long and exhausting day. i am glad its over.
8/6/05
i did my sleep study and it was rather interesting. i spent about 1/2 the night with a cpap on and felt great in the morning. we shall see.
8/18/05
i got the call from the sleep lab that results are in and they want me to come in to be fitted for a cpap machine for use at home. sounds expensive. i hope insurance will cover it. so, they are going to send the results to the obesity institute and that, as far as i know, is the last step in pre op testing. now i wait...
8/31/05
i had my first visit with dr hong. he was great. i had lost 28 lbs this month so he didnt give me any specific goal for loss before surgery. i also had my pre op class the same day so now the only thing i am waiting on is insurance aproval. united said it could take anywhere from 2 weeks to 30 days. i am not very patient but i guess i will have to be.
9/19/05
i called united for the millionth time today to hear no again and the lady on the other end of the line... my new best friend keishe... said i am not only aproved but scheduled for surgery OCTOBER 4th. thats 2 weeks away!!!!! i could not be more thrilled. i am utterly speachless. yeah!!!!!
11/2/05
i havent updated since i got my date, things have been crazy. feeling a little better now. i ended up in hospital an extra day due to some slight bleeding but that resolved itself and i was feeling really good when i went home, just sore. then on day 10 i fell and belly flopped on tile floor and that slowed my progress quite a bit. feeling better now. puree for 3 weeks totally sucked. i highly recommend the Magic Bullet though. it liquifies anything. with the blender i felt like i was wasting a lot more than i was getting. i am on regular foods now aside from raw veggies or things with heavy shins. i am not tollerating things so well the last few days. i may go back to a few days of soup. at my 3 week check up i about kissed the nurse when i saw that i was under the 400 lb mark... 395 to be exact. i havent been there in a long time. i am starting to get some energy back. still have a few weeks off work. looking forward to continuing to see myself melt away. it truly is amazing.
11/18/05
went back to work today. it was nice to be away from the kids and feel productive but even nicer to come home and take a nap. i stopped by dr office and have lost 66 lbs so far
1/17/06
Sorry I havent been updating. I have been so busy now that i have so much energy. i have lost 107 lbs and feel great. I havent really had any serious complications. The major struggle is eating and drinking enough. Gee, I never thought I could say that. ;o)
2/21/06
i am having a bad week so i thought i should seek out a place to vent. I never wanted this surgery to become who I am. The whole purpose was to be healthier and happier. To be able to spend time taking care of my kids. to be able to feel "normal". these days it seems like i feel worse than before. i have no evergy. i have to force myself to eat and dring and even then throw up half the time. maybe not half but more than i would like. i am sad most of the time. its miserable. i regret my decision a lot of the time and then i look at my saggy arm and think... what would i feel like if i was still that fat? i must have been more miserable then, right? i cant imagine i felt good. i cant remember the last time i felt good for an extended period of time. i was really hoping to be feeling better by this point. its great to be loosing so much weight. its fantastic th wear jeans and tie my shoes without holding my breath. i love being able to get stuff done around the house without sweating. i try to remind myself of all the good things but that sick sad feeling that washes over me usually every day seems to be to much at times. i am tired of being asked how much i have lost. i am tired of people talking about it, and tired of my husband not noticing enough(silly i know). i am tired of people watching what i do and dont eat. i am tired of work rewarding people with pizza parties or other "treats" i cant participate in. i am tired of being tired. thats the worst part i think. i just want to have the energy back. i used to have to stop and take a break when i was doing stuff but at least i could stay up past 9pm. now im lucky to make it until the kids go to bed. i am sleeping more than my toddlers. that seems like a problem. well, i guess my tantrum is over. i should go drink something... again. I am just hoping that someone else out there can understand and maybe give some advise. things were great the first couple months but i seem to have hit a wall. i know that i will push through it but really could use some support from people who understand. thank goodness for this web site! hope you are all doing well. :o)
6/27/05
i got the call from bariatric surgery program i applied for and i am ok to schedule my pre op testing appointments. i go to take the 200 question psych test 7/13/05 along with enough blood work to make me faint. then i have to wait until 8/2/05 amd go back up to the institute... 80 miles away... and i get to have my one on one psych evaluation and a visit with the dietecian, physical therapist and pcp nurse. in the meantime i am on a waiting list for the sleep study. sounds like a lot of testing but the good news is that i found out that the company i work for adjusted the coverage they provide for wls and it is covered 100% once accepted into the program... so that is one less thing to worry about.
7/14/05
so i went to my first pre op appointment. i had to take a 590 question psych test. funny thing was that there were three other people taking the test too and i finished way before them. i guess i must be very decisive. the questions were strange. i guess we will see how it comes out. i also had to do the body fat percentage test... that sucked. i had an mri and did measurements. so all in all it was ok but not something i would like to do again.
8/2/05
i did the marathon of pre op appiontments today. saw the psychologist, that went fine. he cleared me. i saw the dietician - learned some interesting things. i saw the physical therapist - she gave me a work out plan that i will actually be able to do. i also saw the nurse practioner and got the ok as far as health for surgery goes once i get my vitamin levels up. it was a long and exhausting day. i am glad its over.
8/6/05
i did my sleep study and it was rather interesting. i spent about 1/2 the night with a cpap on and felt great in the morning. we shall see.
8/18/05
i got the call from the sleep lab that results are in and they want me to come in to be fitted for a cpap machine for use at home. sounds expensive. i hope insurance will cover it. so, they are going to send the results to the obesity institute and that, as far as i know, is the last step in pre op testing. now i wait...
8/31/05
i had my first visit with dr hong. he was great. i had lost 28 lbs this month so he didnt give me any specific goal for loss before surgery. i also had my pre op class the same day so now the only thing i am waiting on is insurance aproval. united said it could take anywhere from 2 weeks to 30 days. i am not very patient but i guess i will have to be.
9/19/05
i called united for the millionth time today to hear no again and the lady on the other end of the line... my new best friend keishe... said i am not only aproved but scheduled for surgery OCTOBER 4th. thats 2 weeks away!!!!! i could not be more thrilled. i am utterly speachless. yeah!!!!!
11/2/05
i havent updated since i got my date, things have been crazy. feeling a little better now. i ended up in hospital an extra day due to some slight bleeding but that resolved itself and i was feeling really good when i went home, just sore. then on day 10 i fell and belly flopped on tile floor and that slowed my progress quite a bit. feeling better now. puree for 3 weeks totally sucked. i highly recommend the Magic Bullet though. it liquifies anything. with the blender i felt like i was wasting a lot more than i was getting. i am on regular foods now aside from raw veggies or things with heavy shins. i am not tollerating things so well the last few days. i may go back to a few days of soup. at my 3 week check up i about kissed the nurse when i saw that i was under the 400 lb mark... 395 to be exact. i havent been there in a long time. i am starting to get some energy back. still have a few weeks off work. looking forward to continuing to see myself melt away. it truly is amazing.
11/18/05
went back to work today. it was nice to be away from the kids and feel productive but even nicer to come home and take a nap. i stopped by dr office and have lost 66 lbs so far
1/17/06
Sorry I havent been updating. I have been so busy now that i have so much energy. i have lost 107 lbs and feel great. I havent really had any serious complications. The major struggle is eating and drinking enough. Gee, I never thought I could say that. ;o)
2/21/06
i am having a bad week so i thought i should seek out a place to vent. I never wanted this surgery to become who I am. The whole purpose was to be healthier and happier. To be able to spend time taking care of my kids. to be able to feel "normal". these days it seems like i feel worse than before. i have no evergy. i have to force myself to eat and dring and even then throw up half the time. maybe not half but more than i would like. i am sad most of the time. its miserable. i regret my decision a lot of the time and then i look at my saggy arm and think... what would i feel like if i was still that fat? i must have been more miserable then, right? i cant imagine i felt good. i cant remember the last time i felt good for an extended period of time. i was really hoping to be feeling better by this point. its great to be loosing so much weight. its fantastic th wear jeans and tie my shoes without holding my breath. i love being able to get stuff done around the house without sweating. i try to remind myself of all the good things but that sick sad feeling that washes over me usually every day seems to be to much at times. i am tired of being asked how much i have lost. i am tired of people talking about it, and tired of my husband not noticing enough(silly i know). i am tired of people watching what i do and dont eat. i am tired of work rewarding people with pizza parties or other "treats" i cant participate in. i am tired of being tired. thats the worst part i think. i just want to have the energy back. i used to have to stop and take a break when i was doing stuff but at least i could stay up past 9pm. now im lucky to make it until the kids go to bed. i am sleeping more than my toddlers. that seems like a problem. well, i guess my tantrum is over. i should go drink something... again. I am just hoping that someone else out there can understand and maybe give some advise. things were great the first couple months but i seem to have hit a wall. i know that i will push through it but really could use some support from people who understand. thank goodness for this web site! hope you are all doing well. :o)
